same as lemon. but put the n in front, get rid of the o and change the l-e to y-a.

2010-08-18T16:02:00.002+08:00

I have 10 mins to kill before I head up for class so I'm sitting at the sofas in school and there's this exchange student in front of me talking on skype to some relative or maybe girlfriend or boyfriend. Although I suppose a girlfriend slash boyfriend is also relatively a relative.

Anyways, it reminds me of being away from home, in the boarding house. Of course we didn't even have skype in school though. Apparently it costs a lot. On hindsight I miss the environment quite a lot, but I choose the comfort of being around my family and the people I love the most any day. There's something about being able to just say I love you anytime, to be able to be yourself completely, be a freak and still be accepted and loved and to be able to physically see and touch the people who you love and who love you back. Makes it easier to get through the day. Makes time go faster than when you're alone in your cubicle of a room in the boarding house. It's so werid but one of the memories I have from boarding school is the feeling of really wanting to be hugged. I think I tried skyping on weekends for a while but I just gave up after a while because it just felt really awkward. I hate seeing myself on the computer screen. Ugly. Haha. And I end up scrutinising how I looked more than anything. But I think if we hadn't been so lucky as to have been able to fly up and down to see each other so often I might have eventually gotten over my narcissism.

In any case, today is just one of those days where I am happy. When you read this in conjunction with my last post I realise this makes me sound a bit bi-polar but oh well. Haha. I'm not kay. I'm not! Really I'm not! I'M NOT. D: Haha.

2010-08-15T22:07:00.002+08:00

Tried to catch up on my readings today. Cherissa and I have a date with the dean's list this year (my foot). But as it were my body decided that it had better things to do, cue this splitting migrane that I've been having since the early afternoon. Story of my life. But I took a few pain killers gave myself a few hours for a nap and dinner and should probably head back to try and read some more or at least start on my tutorials soon.

It's been a week since the start of the new academic year and already I want to escape again. In fact I don't really remember how I made it through year one (mostly facebooking through lectures, copying muggers for tutorials and sleeping in between). Probably why they tell you you should choose a course your interested in. I feel like I'm on a 4 year bad date with the ugliest more boring and obnoxious man child possibly conceiveable. Just the continuous pain of wanting to be anywhere but here constantly, then, now and all the time. Maybe my headache today is a physical manifestation. Some psychosomatic symptom of my inner frustration at this retarded course. Yuck. Whatever the cause, the pain is making me a grumpy bunny.

Generally I try to remind myself not to whine too much. Life is not as bad as all that. There's stuff to be thankful for along the way as there always is and has always been in every phase of my life. Best to just suck it up and make the best out of where I am now. Today is just a grumpy day. Where everything is just slightly irritating but not irritating enough for me to be fully pissed, just enough for me to on edge. My dad of course conveniently attributes my headache and irritability to pms. -.-

2010-05-02T21:24:00.002+08:00

To relieve some of my exams stress I have intermittenly been making friendship bands. But because I take a lot of breaks and I'm usually at home alone I have a lot and I just put them on myself. High five.

Mei: (in reality she said my friendship band on my wrist looked weird but I'm rewriting this part) WOW. Your friendship band on your wrist looks awesome! :D :D :D
Me: I have more on my ankle want to see? :D (reveals the super awesome collection of friendship bands on my ankle)
Mei: Wow. If you make anymore you don't have to wear clothes anymore. Just friendship bands all around your body.

2009-10-01T15:45:00.008+08:00

In the name of pretending to study. RANDOM FACEBOOK NOTE QUESTIONS! AGAIN!!!! <3

"Have you ever's"

Fell asleep in the arms of the opposite sex?
Yes. Hoho scandal.

Ever physically fought with a member of the opposite sex?
YES. -.- Have you seen how small I am. It would feel more like a massage for whoever I was fighting. Or “fighting”.

Ever walked in on your friends having sex?
Not yet. It’s on my to do list. So friends... SOUND OUT! (-.- What type of question?)

Ever sang to the person you like?
Nope, but he’s heard me sing to other people.

Is there anyone who likes you?
Pretty sure. Haha.

Do you believe ex's can be friends?
Meh. Maybe.

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?
Fat Boy.

Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
No.

What is/are your favorite color/s?
Blue and green.

Are you a shy person?
When I first meet people.

What are you excited for?
Life! HAHA.

Do you have memories that you want to forget?
I guess you learn from the rubbish stuff as well, so not really.

If you could cry right now, what would be the reason?
Cry. What’s this. Must maintain macho image lah.

Are you happy?
Sure. :]

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
I hope so. Haha.

Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
Shorts.

Do you hate seeing happy couples?
Um, YES. Especially when I look in the mirror.

If you went to jail, who would bail you out?
My mum, I guess. I think. I hope.

How tall are you?
153cm. Shuddup.

When was the last time you were actually happy?
I’m quite happy all the time one lah. Haha.

How long does it take you in the morning to fix your hair?
2 seconds. No seriously.

Have you ever played spin the bottle?
Yah.

Do you have a good relationship with your mother?
Yupp.

Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
Fortunately, no.

Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?
One.

Have you ever wondered how they make lines in toothpaste?
I figured out how they do it from the discovery channel. I think it’s more interesting that some random bo liao person THOUGHT of the idea of making the lines though. Freak.

Do you ever feel curious about how people see you?
Sure.

When is the next time you will kiss someone?
I’ll look into my schedule. See when I can fit my next kiss in and get back to you.

Do you find smoking unattractive?
Yeah, but strangely I find the lingering smell after attractive. Don’t ask me how that works. But still lah. Don’t smoke kids. Bad for your health.

Who was your crush in 5th grade?
LOL. I CANNOT REMEMBER. I liked a lot of people.

What is your biggest fear about making a total commitment to someone?
I dunno. I think even if stuff like that doesn’t work out, you learn from the experience as well so. NO FEAR. WOOT. Haha. Aiyoh. Don’t overthink, please.

Have you ever suspected anyone cheating on you?
Who would cheat on me lah please. Haha. But yeah, no.

Do you remember who you liked on New Years?
Yah. Chew.

Are you someone who worries too often?
Lol. I don’t think so.

Could things possibly get any better?
Better is relative I’m happy where I am now lah.

Have you consumed alcohol in the past 24 hours?
No.

Have you ever been in a situation where you had to be around your ex everyday?
No. Heng. Thanks.

Have you ever been in a car accident?
Not yet. We will see. Lol.

If you could have something right now, what would it be?
I have no idea what you’re asking. Haha.

Do you like sushi?
Sure.

What can you currently hear?
DAVID ARCHCULETA’S ZERO GRAVITY!!! <3<3<3

Whats the last pinkie promise you made, and to who?
HAHA. Jian kai and chee yao. That they would read my now deleted post and not tell anyone about it. We ACTUALLY pinkie promised.

Have you ever cleaned up someone else's vomit?
Ew. No. Thanks.

Is there anyone home?
I think so. I’m not sure.

The person you fell hardest for died today, how would you feel?
Aiyoh. What type of sadistic quesstion.

Have you kissed someone in 09 that means a lot to you?
I’m sure you’d like to know.

Something tragic just happened, does your facial expression show it?
I guess I’d just look stoned. As usual.

Do you miss someone?
I know you miss me more.

So, what do you want for your birthday?
Chew. Muackz.

Does any part of your body hurt right now?
My heart. Pining for.... CHEW!

Would you ever work at McDonalds?
I DID. HAHA.

Are any of your Facebook TOP friends gay/bi/ lesbian?
Haha. Not that I know.

Would you care if you saw the person you like, kissing someone else?
YES. Haha.

Did you see a boy today that made you smile?
Yupp, I stared for a while... Then I went to meet charles. JKJK.

What are you doing tomorrow?
Pretending to study.

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Mum bought it.

Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow?
Um... how bout, NO.

Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
Probably.

Do you love anyone right now?
Love is a big word.

Is it easy to make you cry?
No.

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Yes.

Were you happy when you woke up?
No. I’m never a happy bunny when I wake up.

Does the person you like, like you back?
Yah. :]

If any, name a lyric from the song you're listening to?
ZERO GRAVITY!!!

Do you want someone to call you right now?
Will that make me popular? Then, YES.

If someone liked you right now would you want to know?
Sure. Lol.

Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
Not really.

When was the last time you had butterflies?
When I looked in the mirror. HAHA.

Who do you want to see right now?
Got mirror annot?

Did you mean "I love you" when you said it last?
I rarely say it. Haha. Probably last said it to my mum so yah, I guess I did.

Do you get upset over the opposite sex easily?
No.

When you say you don't care do you mean it?
Not always. But most of the time lah.

What would you do if someone called you handsome/beautiful?
Say thanks I guess.

Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
I smiling threshold very low one lah.

Who wαs the lαst person you hαd α deep conversαtion with?
Charles.

Where were you αt 4:00 this morning ?
Um, sleeping. Sorry I not so hardcore.

Whαt's the cd in your plαyer?
I always burn my own.

Cαn you count to ten in more thαn one lαnguαge αnd whαt lαnguαge?
English and Chinese. Sorry, science student lah.

Who is the lαst person to tell you they love you?
My mum?

Did you kiss or hug αnyone todαy?
HAHA. Who’s asking?

Is your current hαir color mostly your nαturαl hαir colour?
No. Lian.

Is your bed big enough for you?
NEVER.

Whαt wαs the reαson behind the lαst time you lαughed?
When I saw myself in the mirror. I’m too ridiculously good looking liao.

Hαve you ever lαughed so hαrd you cried?
Yeah.

What is your favourite thing αbout being sick?
Can sleep more. Much, much more.

Do you look αt the keyboαrd when you type?
Not really.

When wαs the lαst time someone confessed to liking you?
KPO.

Is it eαsy for others to mαke you feel αwkwαrd?
Yah.

Do you like to look up αt the stαrs αt night?
Singapore got stars meh. This question fail.

Bright or dαrk room?
Dark.

2009-09-02T23:23:00.004+08:00

Me: Oh man, go home and do work liao. Diee. Yesterday I slacked off some more, so today I have EXTRA SUPER A LOT of work to do. Sigh.
Poh poh: (in all seriousness) Eh, but your law school work... can bullshit one annot?

HAHAHA. I've NEVER heard her use that kind of language before. LOL. I love my family man.

My friends as well. Haiz. Haha. My daily overdose of spasticness.

Joelle: (to some random pseudo-insult which I can't for the life of me recall now) I PUT CHILLI IN YOUR EYE MAN.
Chee Yao: Eh (shakes head) wah lau, your husband next time very poor thing leh. (proceeds to act out the whole scene...) Go to work, then people ask him, eh why your eye so red?? Oh, my wife put chilli in my eye.

What the?? Thank you for your intellectual comment chee yao.

Charles: But I know I'm your favourite prince lah.

THICK SKINNED MUCH. Gao wei. Haha. There were many other spastic instances abound, but I'm lazy to document them all. Haha. Some other time maybe. I need to go and read my notes now though. Haha. SLACK. I'm dead. But today was a good day. A really really good. day. :]

2009-09-01T16:28:00.007+08:00

I've decided that law school is gross. There's a ridiculous amount of mugging and a general aura of hardworkingness around. And while that's nice and lovely for all these nerds here I've decided that since I can't keep up anyways, I may as well aim to pass and place the fragile eggs of my future in the solid marry-a-rich-dean's-lister-husband-so-I-can-be-a-tai-tai basket. Steady. (pom pee pee. The other day I was talking to cheryl on msn and I spelt it as bom bee bee. Which received a surprisingly violent attack on my poor spelling from her. Happy now cheryl? Happy! HAPPY??!!! Lol.)

I haven't blogged in precisely a month. Haha. Rusty, rusty. My thoughts are all over the place. But given that I've given up on law school, don't worry fans, I shall have much more time to share my awesome thoughts with the world. Rejoice.

Rag was sooo much fun. Much eediocy slash spasticness. But I've really been blessed with all the raggers. I feel like inadeqaute and awesome at the same time whenever I'm around them man. Very weird. Haha. They're all these amazingly talented brilliant super funny lovely people (don't tell them I said that though. Stupid ego freaks. Haha.) and I can't help but love all of them muchly. Muackz wox. Haha.

Okay, stop stop. Before I become all gay and mushy.

BUT (at this point, I'm switching to emo mood. My teenage hormones require of it of me.). I don't really think I'm meant to be here. I'm struggling to get the bare minimum done. I'm really glad I met all these fantastic people here and I love them so so much, but I hate it here. I'm sorry but I do. I hate the work. I hate knowing that I'll never be able to really give my time to singing or acting or researching random animals that no one reeally cares about. Because now I have to read about contract and torts and international relations, per quod servitium amisit, loss of consortium, Scott, Jones v Browns (that's pronounced Jones AND Browns), Spandeck Engineering...

And I don't know what I'm doing agian. I think for a while the novelty of everything, being in school with new people and new things to do made me think that maybe it'd be alright. But it's not. And I'm not doing okay. I wake up every morning and I just wait the day through. I wait so that I can go back to sleep and not wake up tomorrow because I hate law school. I don't want to do well and I'm not worried because I really don't care.

I'm really trying to focus my attention on other things. I just joined NUS choir. Which is fun. Yayy. Haha. But it's not really enough to keep me going. I dunno lah. I just feel empty. Like directionless. Very menopausal. If I were 50 and becoming periodless, I would assume this is about how I would feel.

Life should be more than this right. I shouldn't be waiting my way through it. There were tons of other people dying to get into law school. Like why would God put me here and not them. I'm not like everyone else here. I'm not driven, I'm not particularly smart (I could go on for a while but then I'd just start to sound loserish. Haha.)... I'm the closet geek who makes you laugh (tries lah) and knows random quite interesting facts about animals (I seriously do, I spend my subject prize book voucher on a book about them last year. Lol.). I'm not the rafflesian from law school. I'm just not. And there's nothing I can do about it. But I can't stand not doing anything either. Everyday I draft up some new exciting plan to run away. I'm 18 though, I shouldn't be thinking how much my life sucks yet. I'm not even anywhere near midlife crisis. And yet, my depressed-o-meter is on an all time high. I dunno. Maybe it's culture shock as well. Two years away has left me sorely and utterly behind in the academic motivation department.

Usually I would sleep this type of stuff over. But law school, no time to sleep also. :(

And there's all this other rubbish as well that bothering me muchly. But inappropriate to mention here. Haha. Whoa, first entry in a month and all this angst. Nevermind, nevermind. In the name of practicing communicating my thoughts and ideas with clarity and precision lah huh.

2009-08-01T21:49:00.007+08:00

Ahem. (Must clear throat for this announcement. That's how exciting it is. Wait for it, wait for it...)

After years of the topic being in fierce deliberation, today I finally dyed my hair blue. Two streaks from the side of my head behind both my ears. They're not very noticable but you can still see it. Okay lah, I was bit chicken and did only thin streaks and at the sides so I can hide if I want and people won't stare at me weirdly. But still, rebel ah? Naice. I'm not pro enough a camwhore to be able to take a blog-worthy photo of my hair but think CJC shirt blue. But, yes. I feel like my life is complete now. Joy.

Then, we went black angus at btc for my early birthday dinner. Yumm. I wasn't in full form because I'm not feeling too good today. Slept the whole afternoon away. But we had a good meal together which was fun. I think my grandmother may have had a bit too much wine over dinner though:

Mum: "You're eating all the cookie base off mei's cake, poh poh. Eat more of the whole cake."
Poh poh: "I thought it tasted like coffee."
Everyone: *cue "HUH?? We catch no ball." face.
Grandpa: -.- (steps in to explain, obviously accustomed to years of her randomness) "You see, poh poh speaks in riddles."

Poh poh: (points at the saddle above the entrance) "You all see, that's a black angus. The head of a black angus."
Everyone: ....
Mei: "That's... a saddle."
Poh poh: "Oh. HAHA. I thought the centre was the head and flaps at the side were just very very large ears."

LOL. You light up my life, poh.

Oh, and it has been brought to my attention that I should probably revise my sense of fashion. SOON. Yesterday, and the privateer girls got our golden pampers (the final and BEST part of our costume) to bring home after rag.

My maid took it out of my bag and... put it in my closet with all my shorts. Apparently the lovely bloomers look like something I would employ in my everyday look. This is in comparision to audrey's hwa chong PE shirt (I borrowed it from her to wear on friday since we decided that yesterday was hwa chong day! Hurray. Go see facebook photos.) which my maid decided probably wasn't something I would wear (not smart enough, is it. IS IT.) and put on the chair in our room. -.-

2009-07-28T22:57:00.004+08:00

Rag is eating my life. Haha. In a good way I guess. Although I miss just spending the day in the fat den (it's my study. My family decided to give me a room to contain my awesomeness.) and singing and quasi-dancing my way through the boredom of the day (Okay la, actually it was to contain the noise.). Good times good times. Best part is, the fat den has a big window that faces the windows of the neighbour's house, so I can share my singing slash dancing with them. But haven't had time to share the joy with them for so long already. So long that today, when I played my high school musical soundtrack to myself after rag, I MADE MISTAKES. Oh the horror. Must practice, must practice. Shame is not knowing all the parts to all the songs from high school musical. I feel like I fail as a person. My life is incomplete. Especially since cheryl keeps missing bits of rag rehearsals. FOR SHAME. Lol. Jkjk. Dear cheryl, please come for rag more. I have no friends whenever you leave. No one else understand all my rubbish. (Too sophisticated lah. LOL. Jk.) Haha. It's actually quite sad. You're the only one who laughs at my loser jokes. Naice. :D

Also I would like to say, I like to think I brought great pride and honour to the Nyam family by waking up early today to swim before going for rag. Start training for water polo already. Veh on. -.- As if. Anyways, ya, I swam 50 LAPS. Okay, granted my pool is a bit small but still divide by 2 and that's still well within the impressive zone. Good work me. Unfortunately I also ate macdonalds today for dinner with the raggers. Not so good work. I actually wasn't going to eat with jiankai and vince (By the way. Vince is the unfortunate soul whose shoulder I sit on to enter for the rag routine. It's not even both his shoulders. JUST ONE. Haha. AND AND at the end, he's one of the guy's whose leg I stand on also. So he has to bear my weight TWICE. Lucky lucky him. By the end of rag, confirm grow shorter.) Anyways, but I was really super hungry. I explained this to a very sympathetic jiankai and vince:

Jiankai: I thought you said you didn't want to eat?
Me: Ya, but I'm realy super hungry. Actually I'm always hungry. But today I'm really super super hungry.
Vince: *eyes widen in fear* You're always super hungry. That's very worrying for me to hear. Whatever goes into her, goes on top of me.

I was already starving from the late afternoon. I bought like 5 packets of wang wang from the vending machine in my desperation. Again, vince and his sympathetic responses:

Me: *to vince, offering him a wang wang* You want?
Vince: If I don't eat it, will you eat it?
Me: Yes.
Vince: *with the "oh no, more weight!" look in his eyes, grabs the wang wang quickly and eats it*

Haha. Poor vince. And poor zheng yu as well. I have to umbrella roll over him. Oodles of fun for him I'M SURE. Haha. The other day I landed weirdly on his back and I think I felt his back buckle. He was super nice about it but I'm pretty sure I'm slowly crushing his back. Bit. By. Bit. I'm really not made for grace. Haiz. I'm more of a macho water polo player, yo. WATER POLO FOR THE WIN. Yeah, man. Lol. For the record, I was never and am not a water polo player, I just joined because cheryl was strongly encouraging me to join with her (and I'm a damn good friend. Jkjk.). I really have no idea what I'm doing, so I just am going full out in my enthusiasm for the sport in the hopes that they'll still accept me based on brownie points awarded for effort. Smart right.

Water polo!!! Woot.

2009-07-27T20:44:00.006+08:00

Yong neng and Bob both said they read my blog today! :D So popular ah. Naice. Haha. In celebration of the fact that my sister is no longer the sole reader and faithful follower of this blog, I'm reviving it. Yes, I hear the call of my fans screaming for more, and I will answer. Rejoice fans, revel in your joy.

At the matriculation fair today, I joined the NUS choir (or I took the flyer. Must audition. Don't joke, okay. I should audition with High School Musical songs. Blow their socks of by singing BOTH troy and gabriella's parts. Naice. Sure get in.), Radio and ready, WATER POLO. I was very encouraged by my ENTIRE family bursting out laughing when I did the big reveal about what I signed up for over dinner. I keep telling myself that I'm totally going to OWN at it in the hopes that my sense of self-belief will override my epic un-fitness and make me super atheletic suddenly.

Also, after dinner mum brought out these macarons and cupcakes. OMG. I was dancing while I was eating them. ESPECAILLY THE MACARONS. They're the most amazing and deliciously scrumptious macarons I've ever tasted. I didn't even get a chance to take a picture of them because I was TOO BUSY EATING THEM. I will think of them fondly with EVERY love song I ever hear from now on. YES. THEY ARE THAT GOOD. I kid you not. Seriously.When I took the first bite, I wanted to roll on the floor and hug the rest of it. They are very swoon worthy. If I had only $2 left in the world, I would a macaron (Ya, one cost $2. A lot of money to part with for a macaroon... UNTIL YOU PUT IT IN YOUR MOUTH. Then all you can think of is where you're gonna get another $2 SO YOU CAN BUY ANOTHER ONE.). I'm getting a macaron cake for my birthday, man.

Oh, and Happy Belated TWENTY-THIRD Birthday, Justyn! Every day you get older and wiser and more retarded. To quote joseph, "Have a blessed birthday. Thanks for being such a lousy leader." But we still love you lah, huh. :]

Whaa, such a good looking group of youngsters. Can't stand it.

2009-07-10T23:36:00.002+08:00

My grandparents and I have good conversations in the car.

Poh poh: Did you watch Michael Jackson's Memorial the other day!??
Me: A little bit. Why?
Poh poh: Eh! Got a lot of celebrities that attended. Linal Richie.
Grandpa: LIONEL.
Poh poh. Lionel, lionel Richie. Mar- mar- what Car- something
Grandpa: Marie? Carrie is it? Marie Carrie?
Poh poh: Marah.
Grandpa: Maria.
Me: Mariah Carrie?
Both of them: YA.
Poh poh: And Macdonald.
Grandpa: Madonna.

Also, I feel the need to document dad's very witty moment the other day while andrea and I went to watch him operate. (As a disclaimer of sorts, at this point I should probably quickly explain that andrea's a third year med student back on holiday so my dad thought it would be good exposure for her to see so I just tagged along. I don't usually just randomly go into operations to stand in the way of everyone. Almost never actually. This was like only my thrid time or something like that in my life. One of the OT nurses thanked me profusely when I left because my dad seemed like in a super good mood today. I assume because I was visiting and was being quite impressed by his skills. So he was quite a proud bunny. But I thought it was quite funny that the nurse was sooooo thankful that he was in a good mood. LOL. Oh dad. What type of reputation have you created for yourself. Haiz. Nevermind. I still wuv you.)

Dad: (explains as he operates): You have to get on the right plane while cutting through the __(insert some technical anatomic term here). Otherwise it'll bleed. Plane, not like aeroplane

*Pause. At this point I'm like -.- Oh no dad. What type of joke is that. How wrong I was. Wait for it, wait for it...

Dad: but it's the same concept. Because if you get on the right plane, it'll take you home.

WHAA. I must say I was utterly and completely and fully and totally stunned by the random attack of witty-ness. High five dad. Even though I know you totally thought of that like agggggeeeesss ago and have probably been waiting for like months (possibly years. Haha.) to pull that line out naturally in the course of conversation. I KNOW. Don't pretend. I'm your daughter. I KNOW. Haha. But it's okay. It was like a profound statement disguised as a lame joke some more. Lol. Applause applause man. Really really very impressed. Good work dad. :D

2009-07-07T21:42:00.003+08:00

I just watched He's Just Not That Into You Today. Hyperventilate, much. Hurray. I couldn't find the clips on youtube, so transcripts will just have to do.

Gigi: [Answering machine answers, Gigi's voice:] Or call my cell, or try me at work but definitely leave a message here first. Thanks!
Alex: Hey, Gigi. It's Alex, um, how's it going? [He starts to pace]
Alex: Uh, just wondering how you're doing. I haven't talked to you in a little while and, uh, just wondering how you're doing. [He sits on the couch]
Alex: So... I was hoping to talk to you... obviously. But you're out, I guess. So, just call me some time. Or tonight, uh, in around... uh, I'll be in around... that's, that's... not... now. It's Alex. Okay. [He hangs up the phone]
Tyrone: Dude.
Alex: [He looks down] I know.

Gigi: [opens the door, thinking it's Bill] Did you forget something?
Alex: Yeah...
Gigi: Really? What did you forget?
Alex: [pulls out a promotional pen from his pocket] This.
Gigi: So you came all the way here at 11 o' clock in the night to give me a promotional pen?
Alex: Yeah... Yeah, I did. I thought I would come up with some really great excuse to get over here. That's how it's done, right?
Gigi: [smiles] Sometimes.
Alex: Look, I can't stop thinking about you. I... It's a problem. I drive by your place; I call and hang up; I've turned into...
Gigi: Me.
Alex: Yeah.
Gigi: A wise person once told me that if a guy wants to be with a girl, he will make it happen, no matter what.
Alex: That's true.
Gigi: But when I was hurling my body onto yours, you did not seem to want to make it happen.
Alex: Okay, yeah, here's the thing about that... You were right. I'd gotten so used to keeping myself at a safe distance from all these women and having the power that, that I didn't know what it felt like when I actually fell for one of them... I didn't know.
Gigi: Look, I just went out with your friend Bill. He might be just exactly what I need. No drama, he calls; he does what he says...
Alex: [stepping closer] I can do that stuff too...
Gigi: But you didn't! And that same wise person told me that I'm the rule. That I have to stop thinking that every guy will change, that I have to stop thinking that...
Gigi: [Alex kisses her] [smiles]
Gigi: ... I'm the exception...
Alex: [whispers] You are *my* exception.
[they kiss again]

Sigh. I love it I love it. I am physically unable to watch a cheesy scene without melting and turning into a complete sap swooning over the fictional characters. Alex and Gigi are the best!

2009-07-07T21:37:00.002+08:00

Mei: (playing with grandpa's phone) Why do you have someone called anwar in you phone?

Grandpa: He's one of the workers at our condominium. Anything I can call him to fix. There's also one fellow called faruk. You know, there was a King in ancient Egypt called faruk.

Mei: As in, in the Bible?

Grandpa: No, no. Real one.

Mei: The Bible is real!

2009-07-05T23:38:00.002+08:00

It has been brought to my attention that instead of a normal ringing when people call me, my phone has 2 weeks of free "technotones" or some rubbish like that and so when people call me, they hear a man singing:

"Weee should alll beeee friennnnnds, weee should allll beeee friennnnnds..."

Which vaguely makes it sound like I'm trying to hint to the world (or the part of the world that can be bothered calling me anyways) that I'm friendless and that I'm trying to gather friends by winning their hearts over with song. High five. I think I sealed my one way ticket to loserville when I changed my message ring tone to the "Totally Spies" compact ring tone (if you have no idea what I'm talking about here, that's probably a good thing. It means you rank lowly on the gay-o-meter. Thumbs up.) and then changed by call ring tone to a... wait for it... rock version of the Harry Potter theme song. :D In my defence, I got both PLUS this techno jap song and a track where it's this hong kong guy rapping about his life over britney spears' "Toxic" music from Sarah Sim. Good work, sarah. Haha.

Darren's farewell steamboat lunch after church today. It was actually super super fun. Mei and I introduced everyone to 30 seconds (this game we found while holidaying in South Africa about a year and half ago. It's like the only decent board game we have in our house. It's either that or High School Musical Twister, or High School Musical Uno, or Bible Challenge which btw, has friggin UNANSWERABLE questions please. Haha. I kid you not. Luckily 30 seconds is like super fun so. Hurray.). Then after we played taboo. Both times I was in Philip group (whyyyyy....) and in keeping with the idea that a group is only as awesome as it's weakest link, we obviously decided to honour our weakest link. So our group was named "Philip and friends". Good job. Then after some of them stayed for dinner and we just laughed and laughed after that. I am going to have abs of steel dude. Haha.

And before I go, Yong En introduced me to

I LOVE IT!!!

2009-07-04T02:01:00.002+08:00

Hamish and Andy still have my heart.

2009-07-03T15:33:00.003+08:00

OOOOHHHH EEEMMMM GEEEEEEEEE.

Today while I was happily sitting around watching people do stunts at rag at btc (bukit timah campus of course. Get with the NUS lingo yo.) I got a bit bored so I took out my phone to play hold 'em poker (which I just discovered yesterday. I'm own at it. Last night I won $3000. High five.) and was thoroughly surprised to find a missed called AND a text since no one ever calls slash texts me. Haha. Full of joy and the thrill of anticipation, I checked to see who was trying to contact me (so popular) to find that it was... my mum.

HOWEVER. The text read:

"Hi. Pls call me when u can. NUS called. U got yr appeal! Wow!"

*cue inarticulate excited splutters and frantic, if random hand waving from me!!!!

Okay. Slightly gay. Compose yourself, dude.

Indeed. So ya. I got it. I got the appeal. Law and Life Science. Hurray. (See? I didn't even exclaimation point that. I am a very cool calm bunny.)

I just feel so incredibly blessed. This opportunity is reeally really God given. And I know it's going to be a vomit-inducing amount of work. But it's SCIENCE. I get to do science again. It's what I've always loved to do and what I will always love to do. And I truly thank God for it. Amazing, dude. I kept reading and people kept telling me that appeals rarely even get through. I was actually pretty much mentally accepting the idea of just doing law. But SCIENCE. SCIENCE!!! Seriously, by God's grace and God's grace alone. There's no way I got in myself. But it's soooo fantastic, man. Lol. AHHH. Praise God. He's blessed me so much already. Can't believe AGAIN. Another reminder of the random but completely awesome ways in which God works and how He works in fabulously incredible but unexpected ways. Haha. I love it. Means I never have to know what the heck I'm doing, as long as I'm listening to His directions.

I don't say it anywhere near as often as I should. But thanks Lord, you awesome dude, so so much. I'm super super blessed, please.

2009-07-02T21:03:00.003+08:00

Just went for a swim (mainly out of desperate guilt from so spectacularly breaking away from my diet plan this afternoon), but it was creepy so I made mum just sit there beside the pool with me. Lol. New career suggestion from mum, in case law school doesn't work out:

Mum: "Wow, you could be like a spy. You held your breath for so long! And you were swimming so low, you didn't even create ripples!!!!"

Thanks mum. I love you muchly.

I also watched 17 again this afternoon (probably shouldn't say how since I'm in law school now). AHHH!!! I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT. It's so my new Mulan/She's The Man (as a general point of interest I can remember an incredible number of lines from those two movies in particular. Mainly because they're AWESOME.). Not as swoon worthy as Pride and Prejudice (to be honest, that's my favourite movie, but I have a macho facade to upkeep.) but still very cute. I like.

"Vampire wouldn't tell. Cyborg wouldn't know."

2009-07-02T16:25:00.002+08:00

I can safely say that my diet is definitely failing miserably. 2 private training gym sessions and 1 rag session into the week, walk-disrupting pain has set itself into my legs. I kid you not. Such is my unfitness. I try to tell myself that God had to compromise something else in me (in my case, I've been blessed with utter and complete unfitness) because He made my awesome-o-meter like off the charts, but largely that doesn't really help the pain. But yes, the pain convinced me unfortunately to eat a large bowl of curry laksa and a scoop of icecream with a fried pineapple ring with treacle for dessert. It was a low point after lunch for me. Haiz. Maybe I'll go swim later. (Hah. Right. That's what I always say... then I go lie down and sleep.)

2009-07-01T14:31:00.003+08:00

I forgot Joy Williams for while, but I was randomly listening to music as usual today and I suddenly remembered her. Her lyrics are super good, man.

Since I was posting songs, as a true blue broadway baby, I had to post at least one.

Or two.

John Tartaglia's voice is very swoon worthy.

And then I was feeling cheesy and mushy.

Sigh. Yay. I feel so happy now. Haha.

2009-06-30T23:02:00.001+08:00

Got a new phone. Still can't remember my number though. Although I've been repeated informed that it's supposed to be a "very nice number".

I got like a lao pok one that came like free with the plan I switched to on account of my technological illiteracy.

Also, the whole of monday, I literally slept the day away, waking up just to ingest sustainance, because I had this really bad really random cough that started really acting up sunday night. Anyways, dad gave me some left over ventolin from my distance childhood, from back when I had asthma which looks like this:

See? Normal right? But the ventolin was a bit old and I don't think it was very healthy to be using it so dad bought a new inhaler for me. If that's even what you can call it.

What the heck la. Haha. I didn't even know how to use it at first. It reminds me of bubblegum. Yum. Speaking of "yum". Some of us went out after the legal awareness workshop meeting at school (which so many people ponned even though it was compulsory. The suggestion of delegating the work just between the absentees and telling them "okay la, since you all didn't come to the meeting, we give you guys the lightest work. High five." came up, but was unfortunately disposed of ultimately. Shame.) to watch "I Love You, Man" (which by the way, I thought was super funny and really cute and sweet actually. I loved it.) and they were killing some time at Ya Kun Kaya before and I didn't get anything. Good job me. Although after I ate like almost the whole box of popcorn. So slightly less victorious. But still. I AM AWESOME.

And just to end of. Joseph sim. My blog is total awesome. I would have expected you to be more supportive on account of our bromance, yo.

2009-06-28T01:18:00.002+08:00

Just thinking about something we talked about in bible study friday night. Dad mentioned in a rare moment of wisdom (lol) that loneliness is not the absence of faces, but the absence of intimacy. That's good way of putting it, dude. High five. Haha. It just hit a sore point because at the moment I feel a bit in between crowds at the moment. What with trying to get to know school people and not really seeing the church guys and dolls. I guess the rentals aren't exactly used to having a schooling me around either, and I gotta get used to living with people again so I also feel a bit distanced from my family as well (man, that sounds sooo bad. Haha. But what I mean is that in boarding school there was much less of this planning what's happening and where you are stuff. Just me, my room and my junk food. Not a good habit to have built up. But there we go.). I mean, I love my family and all my friends, even my new friends! :D Lol. But there just hasn't been anyone I've been really close to and who really knows me and who I really know and who I can just hang out with since I've been home. Someone who I really really click with. Which is fine. Just, you know, a little bit lonely I suppose. A lot of the time, I just wish I could skip past the cordial gettingtoknows and just have premade best friends. Ones that you could just microwave and heat up and be ready to use. Or that you put in water and that just grew up. Like sea monkeys. Nice. Yay. Haha.

Dad's rare moment of wisdom #2: Lonlieness is just one letter away from Lovliness. In the Lord, our lonliness is made lovely. Okay la, I think it's more solitude is made lovely actually. But I get what you're saying, Dad dude. I gotcha back. Haha. And I totally agree. But sometimes, I think I just need to be close to someone my age. Like to have a good friend who knows me and who I can just rubbish with.

Okay la, okay la. I should go sleep already. I'm getting far too 9pm chinese drama-ish. For shame. Someone slap me.

2009-06-27T16:37:00.003+08:00

Went to watch Ghosts of Girlfriends Past late last night. It was pretty good. Very cheesy, but very cheesy works for me every once in a while. Haha. BUT one of my grreat og mates who was sitting next to me spoilt the WHOLE thing for me by predicting all the lines AT THE CLIMAX OF THE MOVIE (why, WHY!?). I will not mention your name here, because I'm giving you a chance to reform, lest in the future NO ONE wants to sit next to you at the movies. Lol.

2009-06-25T21:19:00.003+08:00

Despite my weight gain (haiz) clearly I have still maintained my bewitching charm. Today, I walked past this baby holding a his blue plastic baby bowl and he dropped the bowl, obviously stunned by my presence. Some say, clumsy baby. I say, I still got it. Naice. Lol.

Also while project diet 101 is up and running, I can see that keeping up with it is going to be a problem very very soon. Today, while I was in the paragon toilet, some lady left her very large, very yummy looking loaf of crystal jade bread on one of the ledges while she busied herself (for the record, good job lady. That was very hygienic of you.). However, as a slight side effect of project diet 101, I AM FRIGGIN STARVING LIKE ALL THE TIME. Sigh. Normally, I'm HUNGRY all the time. This perpetual condition has escalated into a level "starving" since my diet has begun. Joy. Anyways, yes. So the loaf of bread was just sitting there staring at me. And, and! This is the best part. Just when I saw it, they started playing this french-cafe-romance-short-film-fall-in-love type music in the toilet. I kid you not. Yes, it was very picturesque. Evidently temptation is going to prove a BIG problem in the future sticking to this diet.

And those were the highlights of my day. Mainly because I was trying very hard not to think about the MAIN activity of the day, which was shopping. :( Oh the pain. I hang my head in shame when in a mumble I admit that I bought 10 tops today. I figured it was better to just buy in bulk and get it over and done with so I don't have to, quote (courtesy of mum), "shop for uni" for the next few years. Sigh. But the deed is done. Now I just have to get over the trauma.

2009-06-23T20:03:00.002+08:00

Bet you thought my blog die already right. But I was just testing you. Confirming who my REAL fans were and all. Hah. If you're reading this now, then congratulations. You passed. Rejoice! Lol. Sorry la, I know you've been anxiously awaiting the next post (right, RIGHT!!! SAY IT!). I've just been a very busy bunny in recent times.

Anyways, so much has happened the past few weeks.

Oikos:
Austin Hills was a good break. A good time of rest and to just sort of come to terms with all this changing and adjusting and just to remember God at the centre of everything. And then there was 7 second-chickening and drinking water until our bladders wanted to explode in between. Good times, good times.

Scums:
Against the better part of my judgement, I seem to have allowed myself to have been absorbed into Justyn's lg after oikos. Naice. I think their lg needed to up their awesome quota some anyways. Haha. You know an lg definitely needs cooler people to join when their lg leader chooses "Double Dragon" (probably some cartoon that stopped airing 40 years ago) as his favourite cartoon. I think Justyn's answer has officially put the possibility of us adding "uncle" as a prefix to his name into contention.

Law camp
OMG. I loved it sooo much. It was probably the best camp I've ever been to. :] Mainly because there was so much slack time. Haha. Kudos to all the seniors for organising such an incredible camp. And the people at school are really such fantastic, intelligent, fun, beautiful, amazing people and they're all really so nice. I constantly feel slightly retarded around them all. Lol. But in a really really good way. And I really like everyone so much so far and just thank God for sending me all these amazing friends. Especially in my OG. (EHHHHH, HUAT AH!) Very very lovely bunch of jokers.

Spock's birthday
Unfortunately Yong En cut his hair so now he hardly looks like a vulcan. I took a moment to mourn in my heart when I saw him on sunday. Anywhos, despite his protests, Mei and I still bought him a women's thong (it was black and lacy and semi-see through with a little silver heart pendent in the front along the top. Sexay. Veh nice.) and a book called "The dirt on dating". PUT IT TO GOOD USE YONG EN. Mei and I left early from his party though because I was dying from sleep deprivation at this point. But still, HAPPY BELATED BELATED BIRTHDAY, SPOCK.

Gaining weight
Yesterday, after our very first rag session in the morning (which by the way I think deserves a joyful yay because I didn't trip over myself AT ALL while learning the dance. It was a pleasant surprise. Impressive, alyssa, impressive.) when we went out of lunch, I had the "good fortune" of sitting across from hazmi and next to mathias (after christine pang say-ed us. OFFICIALLY making me the only girl in the group. Pimp.). This basicaly meant that I had to listen to them (ready, ready) whine about the calories they were ingesting and ooo and ah, aghast and disgusted at their fries and the butter on their fried (den den DEN) bread roll. Spasticated right? That's what I thought too back then. How wrong I was, dude. In a cruel joke of nature, last night I decided to weigh myself for fun since I had my pre-admission medical examination this morning and I wanted to prepare myself in case I was fat. IN CASE. I DIDN'T ACTUALLY THINK I WOULD BE. 3 KG! 3 KG! I HAVE GAINED 3 KG. *weeps. I especially enjoyed mathias and hazmi's responses on facebook to my weight gain.

Mathias: "Welcome to the club. XD"
Hazmi: "see. thats what happens when the beehoon doesnt get left behind"

Thanks guys. Friends forever, yo. What hazmi is talking about is that one night some of them went out to buy supper and they forgot my bee hoon and I made one of them walk all the way back to get it for me. Actually I thought they were joking and hiding the bee hoon so I didn't think Genesis was actually going back to the shop which is why I didn't stop him. But the bee hoon got to me in the end and that's all that matters. Lol. Jk.

Meh. And so I'm going on a very very controlled diet from now on consisting mainly of wholegrain bread, tuna, cucumbers, brocolli and steamed chicken breast. I think I can I think I can. I will report back to you on my progress in time to come.

On a less upsetting note, so lots and lots of stuff to be thankful for these few weeks. Just feel very very blessed. Things didn't turn out like I always imagined to myself in boarding they would, but things are going really good and I really feel God's hand in all of this. It's good. Reminds me that God's in control of it all, which actually gives me so much peace of mind. Which basically translates into, I'm so lazy that I'm happy I don't really have to worry about what happens in my life. Lol. But yeah. Just all these super fabulous people and just little blessings that I seem to be noticing all the time. Thank God so so much. I really don't think I deserve all this stuff and all these people, but it's still happening and I love every second of it. :] High five.

P.s. LOSE WEIGHT, ALYSSA.

2009-06-03T12:28:00.002+08:00

Leaving for oikos soon. Yay. I only started packing so late last night though, because LiAnne and Yi Loong were super sweet and surprised me like at 11pm by showing up at my house bearing gifts of chocolates and wafers. Yumm. Haha. Thanks guys, I really appreciated it. :] LiAnne rode her bicycle and Yi Loong... ready, ready... RAN here. And then told me that I looked like I needed a hug. -.- Sickening. *gag reflex Haha. Anyways so we just sat around downstairs and with drinks (juice and water la) and talked until past 2am. Good work. Very the responsible. Lol.

2009-05-30T10:52:00.000+08:00

I finally got my parents to agree to me dyeing my hair blue! YAY! Lol. I'm still not 100% sure because I don't know if I want to go ahead and bleach my hair but at least I have the green light! Rejoice, world!

Now all I have to do is see if NUS wants me, then I can plan when I'm gonna quit my job and DYE MY HAIR. :D

FASTER, HURRY UP NUS. :(

2009-05-30T01:18:00.003+08:00

Big sigh. We had worship practice tonight. I'm supposed to be leading. "Leading". Haha. Turns out, frankly I suck at leading. Capitalise and underline that. Ugh. Under various people's advice and suggestion, I decided okay, I would try it once and see how. And I'm totally crap at it! Haha. Nevermind. At least I tried. Hopefully it won't go too badly this sunday, but I'm never leading again. EVER. Thanks. Lol. Seriously dude. Although I probably don't have to worry about anything. After this sunday, no one's going to ask me to lead worship to a looooooong time. :S

Actually, deep down inside I have the mental capacity of a three year old and shouldn't be trusted with responsibility like... IN ANY SCENARIO. This is evident from the fact that as the older of the Nyam sisters, while I should by birth order be the one taking care of my sister, tonight I TOTALLY forgot to feed both of us dinner (we realised this together while we were walking into the cinema) and happily took her to watch a late night movie instead, which got us home at about 1am. Fun (Yay! Favourite sister!), but not particularly responsible as the elder sister. Haha. Good work, me.

2009-05-28T21:02:00.004+08:00

I'm ashamed to admit that my blogging has been less than consistent in the past week or two. But I have a super good reason. I am rediscovering heroes. I mean, I used to watch it whenever it came on tv, but the other day I decided I was going to start watching from season 1 again and follow through the episodes properly.

I've only got up to like the beginning of season 2 (yeah, I know. I'm super slow. :( ) But, O. M. G. I am in love with it, can?!! *hyperventilate. Although I do tend to fall deeply in love with television series and that's what I say about all of them when I start of. And then after a while I get bored and find a new series. I have committment issues. Lol. But yes. Heroes! Yay! Sylar has and always will be my favourite character from the series. But especially after I've watched the series in order. And it's not just because it's Zachary Quinto!

Top 10 reasons why I love Sylar (I actually told liz how I was thinking about blogging about this yesterday, but decided it was too creepy. But my ardent love for Sylar has made me reconsider my previous decision. Haha. For the record, this is just for a laugh okay. I'm not actually in love with a fictional character for all these slightly unsound reasons. I swear. :S I swear!):

1. How good is his pseudonym!??!!!?! Kudos on the best alias ever, Sylar you awesome dude. I would never have been able to come up with such a cool sounding pseudonym on the spot.

2. He's a momma's boy at heart. Aww. Even though he kinda... kills her by accident. It was sweet that he went to visit her and brought her a snow globe from Texas and then made snow for her! :O So nice! Too bad she like flipped out. -.- Stupid woman. If Sylar had made snow for me I would have like asked him to marry me! Hurray!

3. Actually, he's got a good heart. He just wanted to know that he was good enough in the eyes of those he loved. Poor thing. So it wasn't really his fault that he... um... well, murdered all those people. Heh. Although "murder" is such a strong word.

4. His power is the best! It's like the most intellectual power on the show! It's slightly geeky and we geeks are the best. Intelligence makes us sexay. Lol.

5. He's so motivated and focused. He knows exactly what he wants and he goes out and gets it. Okay, okay, to the point where he kills people to obtain power. Slightly power hungry. But still, I think his focus shows he knows what he wants in life and that he's committed to his interests. (I wish I was his interest. Sigh. Haha.)

6. He's SUPER clever. How does he keep so hidden? He must like anticipate every move of everyone after him! Which is literally everyone. And how does he manage to find all the other people with special abilities?! I mean, I guess it would be possible to track them from hear say or from stealing research documents and stuff but it must be super difficult. The other day, I woke up and my mother had left the house and she wasn't picking up her phone and it took me like 45 mins to track her down and realise she had gone for Bible Study Fellowship lunch. 45 MINUTES! To find my OWN MOTHER! Some say his ability to sieve out people makes him even more fearsome as a villian. I say, wow, resourceful. Good work, Sylar.

7. He pretends to be all these people all the time and no one suspects anything! He's like that good an actor. Multi-talented, much?

8. He's so brave. Like he has no friends or family anywhere and he just charges on, dedicated to his sole cause (which is unfortunately, killing people to steal their powers. But that's not the point here. -.-). Such a trooper. You're totally my hero, Sylar.

9. Virtually ALL the characters in the entire series are against him and he STILL always manages to get away. Maybe it's because he's AWESOME.

10. He's so unique and creative. How many serial killers have you heard of that kill their victims by slicing the top of their head off and taking out their brain? None? Thought so. Plus, he's super neat. Like I'm sure he could like crush their skull or something more unrefined like that. But it's always a clean slicing of the top of the head. It's so neat. I like. It says to me, this is a man of order, elegance and class.

Lol. Yes. I will love you forever Sylar... or at least until the end of the week.

2009-05-26T21:16:00.003+08:00

At dinner today, I was talking about star trek (again).

Poh poh: Oh, star trek! I always remember Mr. Spock, because he's the doctor.

Poh poh: I like it when they disappear from the space and then, AND THEN APPEAR on earth. I don't know what it's called.
Me: (in horror that she is unable to remember BASIC star trek terminology) HUH!? Okay, okay, try to redeem yourself here. I give you a clue. It's a four letter word.
Poh poh: ... UFO?
Me: FOUR LETTERS. And it starts with a b and ends with a m.
Poh poh: ... Um... space ship?

And we had crew outing today at work! Yay! Haha. My BFF aunties and I just hung out and ate stuff the whole time. Muchly fun. I think my mum was a bit alarmed though when she came to pick me and saw me walking out with my auntie posse (I think there were like 8 aunties with me?). She probably thought I was exaggerating when I told her that all my friends at work at aunties. Like ACTUAL aunties. Haha.

2009-05-23T23:46:00.003+08:00

I think I'm marginally flu-ish. I mildly have all the symptoms -- sore throat, fever, aching etc. BUT I haven't managed to watch ANY episodes of Heroes today. And so I'm stuck! I dunno whether to watch or sleep! On one hand, the probability of my being fully sick tomorrow goes up like ten fold if I watch. BUT I LOVE ZACHARY QUINTO SO MUCH, I don't think I could live with myself if I didn't set aside my daily dose of zac-time. :(

Life is full of such difficult choices. Sigh. Lol.

2009-05-22T03:44:00.002+08:00

Until today I never realised how much people love a)coke glasses and 2. ice cream. Well, the coke glass thing was actually Wednesday.

As a side note, I’m sorry I haven’t been updating very well. I recently started rewatching heroes (Zachary Quinto!) from season 1 and now I can’t stop. I just like train watch episode after episode after episode. :S No time to waste on blogging!

Anywhos. Yes, so we didn’t have coke glasses in stock on Wednesday because it was the last day of the pink glasses. So there wasn’t much point in ordering in new pink stock, because the next day we were changing to blue anyways. And for the past few weeks my manager seems to keep stationing me as the order-taker so that pretty much seems to be my default station now, so I was cashiering the whole day. And there were soooo many people who actually got so upset that we didn’t have coke glasses that day. There was a lot of “HUH!? NO COKE GLASS!” and “SO I WON’T GET ANY COKE GLASS IF I UPSIZE!!”-ing and people actually decided that they would come again tomorrow instead so they could get the glass then. Not just one, okay, like maybe 10 people? I was so surprised. I mean, it’s not that beautiful a glass.... right?? Maybe I’m just asthetically challenged.

And then today, our ice cream machine was spoilt. Like all it was giving out was hot sundae-mix. Yum. And by “Yum”, I mean Gross. So no ice cream. And I actually saw people’s JAWS DROP in shock and horror (I kid you not) as they went “HUH!? NO ICE CREAM!” (Singaporeans don’t seem very creative with their expressions of shock. Standard “HUH!? NO [insert missing item]!”) The best part was that people usually order ice cream in groups. Anthropological fact that I observed recently. The ice cream tribes gather far away from the counter, then one initiative-taking person will take everyone’s order and then step forward to place the order in. So I would tell the brave representative that I was sorry but we didn’t have ice cream at the moment, watch their world crumble as they realised they couldn’t have macs ice cream that day, and then watch them shuffle back to their little friends and watch that same reaction but like times 5. It was quite amusing to watch how affected they were by the fact that they couldn’t have their mcflurry. Poor things. On the other hand, I was super happy because no ice cream machine means that the probability of me blowing up the mcflurry-making machine drops from about 98% to a safe and assuring 0%. Hurray. I’m thinking of damaging it permanently.

Also, I’m super bummed that Adam lost out to friggin Kris. Ugh. Mum called me and woke me up yesterday and broke the news to me, with a somewhat insensitive “KRIS WON KRIS WON!!!” in light of the fact that she KNOWS I’m a Fanbert. Sigh. It’s okay, Adam. I still love you and that’s all that matters. We’ll be mature about it, take it in our stride. You know, avoid being drawn into the superficial shallowness of stardom... That outfit that Kris was wearing on the results show TOTALLY made him look fat on camera anyways. You looked sooo much better, gf.

2009-05-19T18:56:00.005+08:00

Mei bought me this card today.

Sorry the picture's not very good. In case you can't see the words,

"It's our lucky day. Some Doctor is paying us 50 quid (how to get the pounds sign on this blasted keyboard???) just to paint the inside of this old police box."

LOL. Good work mei.

I feel super drained. Mum and mei dragged me shopping after our mid-day sustainance with Dad today. Oh the horror. *cue hands-clutching-at-face-home-alone scream. Towards the end I was getting so disorientated by my kryptonite that is shopping, that I walked into the Dome chalk board. (Mum and mei just laughed hysterically at this. Thank you guys. Glad it was amusing to you.)

2009-05-18T17:11:00.005+08:00

I really don't know how the interview went. Like the interviewers gave me very little to know whether I did well or badly. But I answered their questions okay and at least they weren't outraged or anything like that. Or they didn't seem to be anyways. In God's hands now. :] Well, it was always in His hands, but now it's really really up to Him. We will see. I should get my results in a week or two.

Live long and prosper. (Sorry, random I know. But I just HAD to type that SOMEWHERE.)

2009-05-18T11:48:00.005+08:00

One written test down, one interview to go.

The joys of IBS have set in, but other than that the day's going well so far, I suppose. The test was quite okay. I finished comfortably in the given time and I felt like I took a good stand. So feeling quite good about it. But I never know how I do in tests so fingers crossed.

My interview seems to be like the last one! I was talking to randoms this morning before the written test and literally I didn't meet a single person with an interview later or even the same time as mine. I'm not sure whether to look at it as a good thing or a bad thing. But lucky interviewers that got me last. End the day with such a fantastic candidate. Lol. Jkjk.

I'm not overly nervous. Slightly, but it's a good nervous so far. Like a keep you on your toes nervous. My nerves are also being dispelled by the fact that I went to watch Star Trek last saturday night with my dad which has rekindled my lost affections for the original series. I LOVE IT!

I think it's meant to be. Star Trek and Me. The movie even came out at exactly the right time! JUST after the doctor who special and the house season 5 finale. So that now I have Star Trek TOS (The Original Series. I'm such a hardcore fan, using obscure acronyms.) to fill up my time. I LOVE LOVE LOVE Spock.

I couldn't find a good picture of Zachary Quinto as Spock. But he did an amazing job as well. Really lived up to expectations. But Leonard Nimoy is irreplaceable. So I'm glad he was in the movie as well. Yay! Anyways, Spock's always been my favourite but I love how they pull all the elements of the character that were accumulated along all those years together in the movie! Trust me to pick the sole main alien character as my favourite. I actually so wanna be a vulcan now. I told some of my friends at church yesterday in a spastic moment of over excitement, who looked quite concerned with my ambitions to change species (to morph into a FICTIONAL species no less). Ppprobably shouldn't have mentioned it in retrospective.

2009-05-15T02:25:00.002+08:00

Only one more week until Adam Lambert WINS American Idol! Yay.

I would text in to vote for you if my phone wasn't pre-paid. I hope you still marry me though, you beautiful beautiful man.

2009-05-14T01:18:00.003+08:00

People say sometimes in life, crap happens. But rubbish always happens. And that's okay. Take a moment to grieve because we're only human, and treasure what you have left all the more. Take a deep breath, and take courage in the fact that the pain will teach you to appreciate the joy all the more. And God doesn't test us through more trials than we can take. Pain is the painter of character, the partner of wisdom and what makes us human. Struggle out and don't suffer in. Because love and blessings are always abound. Even if sometimes we have to squint to see them around us.

2009-05-12T23:55:00.002+08:00

Two weird things today.

1. I keep getting weird results for quizzes on facebook. I got 50% for the "How Well Do You Know Women Quiz"! Okay la. That was actually pretty funny, so I published it. But there are loads of others that I did and got results that were so shameful I couldn't bring myself to publish them. Like I did the "Which Disney Guy Is Right For You?" quiz, and I got Captian Shang from Mulan. :( He's so uncool. I really wanted Aladdin! (Yeeah, it's not weird that I'm talking about these cartoon characters like they're eligible at all.) Then in "Which Type of Music Fits Your Personality?" I got "Pop" which amongst other things adviced that "there are those who will hate you because you mite ignore them or be rude, ect." I take courage in the fact that even though I believe facebook quiz results are usually like the law, this quiz might be slightly inaccurate since who ever made it failed to spell the short form of a three letter contraction (i.e. etc.) correctly. Haha.

This might just be me being a sour grape though.

Anyways. After finding out that I could never have Aladdin it was just downhill from there with all the other quiz results. Under the "What Type of Underwear Are You?" I got that I was a 6-pack of panties which meant I was "truly eccentric" and then when I took Joseph's "Which Member of Justyn's Life Group Are You?" quiz, I got.... den den DEN, Justyn. DIE. Oh the shame. -.- Lol. The only redeeming result that I got was when I did the "Which Disney Character Are You Quiz?" in which I emerged a pleasing "Prince Charming". BUT THEN when I read downwards to look at the insightful explaination-y bit at the bottom, it read.... "Congratulations." FULL STOP. I was like THAT'S ALL?? WHAT THE? Haiz.

2. I'm super tired. It's about midnight now and I just woke up from falling asleep at about 9.30pm. I dunno why I'm so tired. At the rate I'm eating and sleeping (I feel like a bear getting ready for winter hibernation) I really really am going to start g-r-o-w-i-n-g. :S

Meh. Oh well. Okay, I'm going to shower and sleep now.

2009-05-11T23:18:00.006+08:00

I got my law test and law/life science interview date for NUS today.

"Interview Schedules

Name ALYSSA NYAM EN MEI
Application number XXXXXXXX

You have been shortlisted for the interview/test for the following course(s). A formal letter or email will be sent to you with details such as the venue, interviewee index number (if available) etc If you are unable to attend the scheduled interview(s), please refer to the procedures on changing the scheduled interview date/time in the interview/test notification letter/email.

Law Test Date/Time:
Mon, 18 May 2009 08:45

Law Double degree interview Date/Time:
Mon, 18 May 2009 15:45

Please note that any changes to your original scheduled interview date and time will not be reflected here."

I actually thought that I hadn't been called for interview already because interviews were meant to be in April and early May and we're pretty much entering not-so-early-May at the moment. But I guess it might be because I have international qualifications. Meh. Mixed feelings about it. But of course part of me is still a little bit proud that I at least got shortlisted. Not just for law but also for the double degree! :D Hi five. Heh. Although really it's all by the grace of God so we'll see how. See where he'll lead me.

But MORE IMPORTANTLY, CREW OUTING ON 26th AND 27th OF MAY (I know right, NUS interview pales in comparision to the wow-factor of *cue hallelujah chorus* CREW OUTING!)!!! I'm super excited. Haha. We're all going to stay over at some Pasir Ris Chalet (the old one apparently. I have on idea where this chalet is so it meant pretty much nothing to me when they told me that. Haha.) and the plan is to either go to Wild Wild Wet or escape theme park. Man, I hope we go to Wild Wild Wet -- my BFF aunties are totally gonna look hawt in their bikinis. Lol. Jk. Unfortunately, the manager has decided that the "student crew" (all crew that are still students) will be in charge of games we play which means I'm part of the games-organising posse. Sigh. I have no idea what to play. My idea of "fun" is watching sci-fi television series, documentaries on the discovery channel and intellectual quiz shows on the bbc. I'm sure the games that I organise are going to be a HUGE hit with the rest of the crew. -.-

Oh, and this is a bit random, but I was watching X-men again on television this tonight, and I couldn't help but notice that my grandpa looks like an asian version of Patrick Stewart. Lol.

2009-05-09T22:39:00.004+08:00

Milo (my godparents' rabbit) was gathered to God yesterday. :( Like in the afternoon I think. He was a good bunny. On a considerably more cheerful note, Liz and Kaye introduced me to TTR (TAP TAP REVENGE) yesterday everning. BEST IPHONE GAME EVER!!! Also, my facebook note that I recently did about the people I'd spend a year in the same house with seems to have rendered a much more enthusiastic response than I would have ever thought. Haha.

Aiyoh, my thoughts seem to be all over the place today. Anyways, I went over to Joseph's house today to wrap mothers'-day-flowers with my life group to sell at church tomorrow. But I had to leave half way to go for our family mothers' day lunch so when I came back they were virutally almost finished and didn't really need my help anymore. So I sat down and had a nice deep and meaningful session with Lovely Lionel and Awesome Aunty Soo Ming. It was actually really good timing again. God-sent.

It's just recently I feel like I'm just waiting and waiting. Like I'm waiting for university and I'm waiting for friendships to mature and I'm waiting to learn to drive, to ride my motorcycle, waiting for the weekends so that I hang out with friends... There are moments when I find myself counting down to things. Like I'll think of the number of days left I have to just get through until sunday when I can see my church friends again and have a bit of a good time just messing about. Or more usually, the number of hours left till dinner la. Haha. But yes, feels like I'm wasting a lot of time away. It's not that I'm not doing anything. It's just I don't enjoy what I'm doing in particular. I'm just floating through, going through the motions to pass the time. Drifting, I guess. And it bothers me sometimes. But what hit me most during our conversation today, even though I really didn't dare say much while Aunty Soo Ming was sharing, was that you don't have to know what the heck you're doing or where you're going all the time. I suppose because I've always grown up raised by my super-organised mum that never really occurs to me much. Which is not a bad thing, but it's nice to keep being reminded that it's alright not to be in control all the time. At the end of the day, I know that whatever happens, God has let it happen, and He's let it happen for a reason, according to His plan. And always always His plan is the best that anyone could have for me and if I don't know or don't understand His plan, I don't mind. It doesn't matter. All I have to do is to listen out and obey. Even my devotions recently have been discussing how we should live in the present and not worry, and to surrender ourselves and all our efforts to God fully and stuff like that. Like I said, a lot of these really God-sent messages that have really comforted and encouraged me these past few days. I mean, I'm wasn't upset or sad or anything but I guess I was just feeling a bit aimless. I'm still aimless now, it's just I need (and I really thank God that he keeps helping me out here) to keep being reminded constantly that I shouldn't be bothered by it. I know that God has a plan for my life and I can't wait to find out what that plan is and how He will use me for His work, but I don't have to know what that plan is. I just need to carry out that plan as he guides me through it. I don't even know who I am yet. Haha. My ambitions in life change according to the latest "interesting" job I've thought about and I still have yet to outgrow my "I'll never grow up" phase (very mature. Yes, I know.). And I can't even tell you the exact status of my relationship with God because I don't know what it is. And that's okay. Because I do know that He is my life and I know that no matter how far I slip or fall, He'll always bring me back around to him and I don't ever want to live any other way.

Okay, better curb myself before I start hyper-expositioning again. But that was the gist of my thoughts of the day. Meh, Singapore has made me a gaylord, so soppy. Haha.

P.s. CONGRATS LIZ ON MAKING NUS DENTISTRY AND LIANNE FOR MAKING COUNCIL. REALLY REALLY PROUD OF YOU GUYS! YAY! :D

2009-05-07T15:15:00.002+08:00

Firstly, CONGRATS LIZ ON PASSING YOUR DRIVING TEST! But more importantly, as soon as you get a car, I can add you to my list of alternatives-to-public-transport. Good work on making the list (you're so gonna be the envy of the town now), you lucky thing. :]

Anyways, it has come to my attention over the past few weeks that I am almost CONSTANTLY hungry.

What I ate Yesterday
1. I only woke up in time for lunch just before I went in for work at 12pm, so I had to miss breakfast unfortunately. Sigh. Haha. But my maid fried some noodles. It was actually quite a big bowl, but I think it was a bit difficult for her to fry so little so she cooked a bit more (I think it was about 5 fists worth of noodles maybe?) and just gave me a little bowl so that I could take out however much I wanted from the big bowl.

I decided I was quite hungry so I just finished the big bowl. (Okay, to be fair, I'm estimating 5 fists as in 5 of MY fists which are quite small-ish so.)

2. By the time I had my break at around 3.30pm, I was feeling a bit hungry again so I ate a McWings extra value meal. (Actually that's quite a lot over the budget for each person's meal, but I figured everyone always buys food from the canteen outside anyways, so really I'm doing them a favour and helping them meet their meal budget for the month. Otherwise they would have to calculate the balance and then add to dunno what and then the extra little bit of money would probably screw up their financial predictions and all. It would get super complex. Trust me.)

3. After my shift, when I got home at around 9pm, I ate dinner again. And granted that I didn't eat rice because I felt a bit tired and in my mind, sleeping always truimphs eating so I was not in "full form" but I ate some chicken, soup and vegetables.

What I ate Today
1. Before I went to the gym today, I ate some Chai Tao Kwey and half a cranberry-rye bun.

2. And then lunch. YUM. Okay. Mum, Mei and me had lamb cutlets for lunch with mash potatoes and corn:

Cutlet Count
Mum:1
Mei: 2
Me: ... 5

Then I ate my mum's left over mash potatoes because she said she didn't really want it and didn't want to waste it. (filial. Good work, Alyssa.) Then I ate 3 Kwey Pai Tees (can't wait for dinner when I can eat more! They were very yummy.) and finished up the bowl of corn (waste not, want not). I was almost ready to eat dessert. I bought two doughnuts from the donut empire downstairs from the gym and a tub of haagen-dazs strawberry ice cream from the supermarket before coming home, while Mum and I were waiting to go pick mei mei. I love donut empire. And I don't usually buy haagen-dazs cos it's so expensive, but the strawberry ice cream is the best and mum was paying so. Haha. But anyways, yes I digress. So I was almost ready to eat dessert, but Mum was getting a bit worried at this point (I think she doesn't notice ususally how much I eat because I just sit quietly and chew, but today I was telling her how I realised I was almost always hungry so I think she was looking out.) so she's put a time limit on when I can next eat. :( 4.35pm. Don't ask me why 4.35pm. Haha. I think she felt that it needed to be not only at least 2 hours later, but more than 2 hours. So add 5 minutes more.

Mum and Mei are convinced that it's because I hang out too much with the buffet bunch/the picnic posse. But I eat because I'm hungry! I'm not hungry because I eat. :( I told them maybe this meant I was going through a growth spurt! :D

Mei: "Growing spurt. Like Dad? Dad's going through his sideways growth spurt at the moment."

-.- Thanks mei. In any case, I've always been a hungry bunny, but this past few days I've been particularly hungry. So just to be sure I googled "symptoms increased appeitite". Top causes include (in random order):

1. Diabetes
2. Depression
3. Pregnancy
4. Indigestion
5. Marijuana
6. Hypoglycemia
7. Brain Injury
8. Bipolar Disease
9. Tape Worms
10. Brain Cancer

Hmm. Yeah. Actually I don't see why it's so hard to believe that I might be growing taller! Hermit Crabs eat a lot before they moult. Maybe I'm the same leh? YESSSSS! Good arguement, Alyssa. Hi five.

2009-05-06T23:40:00.005+08:00

MY FIRST POST FROM MY NEW LAPTOP. Hurray.
My much delayed purchase from when my old laptop crashed like months ago.

I don't actually need one. Which is what I kept telling my parents, but it's probably better for everyone that I just move back into the Fat Den because since I've moved into the main study room, ALL of them have migrated to either the living room or the master bedroom -- at the other end of the house. -.- Haha. Just because I enjoy a bit of music every now and again. A Bit. A BIT!

Oh. And I got to be a cashier at work today. FINALLY. My life is now complete. *sheds a tear. It was just the way I dreamt it would be... and more! Unfortunately, when I went to man the fries station later, I procured a number of burns in my slight over excitement. You can see my battle wounds below. Not very clearly though. But there's line on my wrist and then two marks on my forearm. Ouch.

And I keep forgetting to post these pictures of some failed butter biscuits that my grandmother baked the other day.

Good work, poh. They're beautiful.

2009-05-04T17:01:00.004+08:00

I went to visit Liz's blog today and read her entry on our bottle tree park escapade and had a near death experience laughing at the beautiful photos of myself there.

Anywhos, today work was super funny as well. Because of the all the swine flu hoo-ha we kept planning trips to mexico. Then Ah Fen and my BFF auntie decided that actually they wanted to go on a cruise also while they were going to mexico.

Ah Fen: Eh! Auntie, wo yao shang chuang leh! (What she's trying to say here is shang chuan. As in ship.)
BFF: SHANG CHUANG. Ta de ying, ta de ying!!! *laughs hysterically.

The "mystery customer" (which is essentially a consultant dude sent down from the big people in management to assess the service undercover as customers) was also supposed to visit this morning between 9am to 11am so Lee Chin, our 2nd manager was super stressed. Luckily May (who was the cashier) and me (who was the runner, as in the one who gathers all the food and presents it) were super focused:

May: EH alyssa, lai lai, ni kan na ge bai se hong se (he was in a red and white t-shirt) de nan ren. Handsome ma? Handsome ma!? Na bian na bian. *proceeds to push me quite violently in front of her to the cashier. Ni bu yao hen obviously kan la.
Me: *trying to look very nonchalent, whispers back. Na li, na li!???
May: Zuo bian, zuo bian!!!
Me: Oh, kan dao kan dao. Okay la.
May: Ta de girlfriend hen hao kan hor?
Me: Wo kan bu dao leh. Maybe wo qu lobby (clear tables) a xia, then ke yi kan dao ta de face.
Lee Chin: Ahhhh! NO CHIT CHAT. BU YAO KAN NAN REN.
May: EH. Dan shi hor, wo bu shuo hen xing ku leh.

Then later when Lee Chin was talking to me about something (I can't remember what) suddenly May jumped between us and said very loudly "NO CHIT CHAT!". Lol.

There was a lot of other stuff but I can't really remember at the moment. I just remember laughing a lot. OH OH and today was one of the few days where my break was while they were still serving breakfast. So I ordered a Big Breakfast. Yum. Plus, I woke up a bit late today so I packed my 2 slices of french toast and ate that during my break as well. AND on top of that, I exploded the ice cream machine today doing a vanilla cone (it was totally the machine. Not my fault.) so I also ate the mutated ice cream cone I made. And then I had a cup of tea with all of that. Ya. I'm totally not going to get obese. Yesterday post-service, when we went for curry rice they pointed out how this middle-aged muffin top (as in his stomach spills over his pants like... well, like the top of a muffin) indian man crossing the road looked "like he was five months pregnant. Pause. Like... *hysterical laughter." -.- Actually during lunch yesterday I hardly ate, because I was feeling a bit sick (I think I ate yao zha guai too early in the morning. It was super oily some more. Oh well.). I left a lot of rice. I didn't get to finish the last bit of my soya bean also. Not because I didn't want to drink it (I LOVE SOYA BEAN!) but because Kegan split my straw in two by like sort of clapping it in his hands so I couldn't suck the soya bean up without it just draining out the sides. :( I even tried to just shove the whole broken part in my mouth so that I could drink but I had to put so much of the straw in my mouth that it poked the back of my throat and was very painful. To which Kegan's response of remorse was to laugh quite hard. And even though it was only a little little bit left, I felt a longing after that that only another can of Yeo's soya bean could fulfill. So while I was having nasi padang dinner with my family at Zion Road that night (which was super yummy by the way. They use rib eye to make the rendang! :O) I ordered another can. Yay.

2009-05-03T00:25:00.003+08:00

Today I feel like I did my part and hugged Singapore and that I'm more Singaporean for it, because today I went to the bottle tree park, which I didn't even know existed until like a few weeks ago when I was Ma-Po-Tou-Fuing with the other ex-A&G interns at crystal jade. But I didn't want to look overly loser (ie. go by myself) so in the end I dragged poor Jason, Liz, Mee Mee and Kegan along with me. And even though we only saw like I think 4 bottle trees or something like that (and two were baby ones so that didn't even look like bottles! :( ) it is now another "interesting singaporean attraction" that I can tick off my "have hugged" list and I revel in the knowledge that I'm a better person for showing my country how much I wuv her.

Also, mousehunt seems to be following me out into reality. Which concerns me slightly since Gnawnia is meant to be pretty much OVERRUN with mice. Today at the bottle tree park, we saw one. Then while I was waiting at KAP for mum to come pick me becuase I didn't want to walk all the way into sunset so late at night, I saw another one sort of bounding down the stairs next to me across the road into the drain. :S

2009-05-01T15:23:00.004+08:00

Well, tomorrow is SATs day. In the end I gave up trying to finish the whole practice book, but I got through a good sized bit of it so I'm satisfied. I don' t think you can really study study for it anyways. It's more getting familiar with the style. And I'm pretty comfortable so just trying to keep the nerves well under control and stay focused for tomorrow while sort of just keeping chillaxed until then.

ALSO, I was catching up on my So You Think You Can Dance (Australia) episodes today. I heard Talia won, but when I saw the dances. O. M. G. I love Charlie so so much though. He'll still always be my favourite. Haha.

Sigh, they're all so incredible and all the dances are so beautiful, dude. But Talia's Top 4 performance made me melt.

My favourite dance of the season has to be Talia and Charlie's quickstep from the Top 10 performance though. Sooooo Cute!

AND TALIA AND CHARLIE'S AMAZING, BRILLIANT, FABULOUS, TOTALLY AWESOME FINAL PERFORMANCE. OMG OMG OMG.

Talia's totally different from the shy ballerina type girl at the start of the season!!! Plus, she looks so good. And I can't believe how much energy Charlie has in that dance. He's such a star. And his personality just shines through. *swoon. They're both just utterly completely fantastic. I love them to death. Lol.

2009-04-30T18:08:00.023+08:00

As requested by my sister. More pictures. A LOT more pictures.

The other day, my sony camp pictures came in the mail. It was this camp I did in Perth for school for disabled children last year in December. Sigh, seems to long ago. :]

I was a personal companion. Which essentially meant I was in charge of the child the whole time. Me and my kid, Jessica. I was meant to be like the queen of hearts or something. Zac did it for me. He promised it would look nice. -.-

If you look down the row of people, there's a sudden dip -- that's me.

Jen, Alex, Will, Bridgette, James and I try to copy what the other groups are doing...

Copying again...

Greta as Wonder Woman and Tom as Batman.

Tom actually looks like his feet aren't touching the ground. Good super-speed running, Tom.

James and his kid, Josh. Josh was like one of the first to arrive so everyone was kinda listening in on their conversation. Josh was planning on being really slack at camp, and sleeping in till about 6am. Lazy.

Looking a bit pervvy there, Zac.

Okay, what we finally worked out the index finger meant in the end was that he was swearing at us, but had got the fingers mixed up. This is still a pretty cute picture though. Lol.

Jess is in green on the left. I'm behind, bending down to pet the animals. As you can tell, I was clearly paying super close attention to her. Rob there on the left had nothing against me. (Up your game, Rob!)

Good work hiding those flowers, Zac and Tom. I particularly like how you've chosen the slimmer of the two of you to stand in front.

Tom going in for the big one.

Jess and Lauren (Oli's kid) kept asking Rob for piggy backs. We finally managed to convince them that according to the "laws of physics", it's MUCH more difficult to give piggy backs in water and they should fill up their piggy back quotas during the swimming session as much as possible.

Jess couldn't swim, so Kim helped us out. I dunno where I am though. Probably off somewhere in the background drowning.

Zac Girando -- professional gaylord.

Tom as John Cena (his kid, Jack's like idol).

Greta and Olivia, decided to let the kids paint their faces. It was a greeat idea. Haha.

What WHAT, yo?!! (Me and my gangsta pose.)

Doing the macarena.

Kim (bottom right corner) enjoying himself a little bit too much.

There are actually so many more sony camp photos. But I think it would take me like days to upload all of them.

The three party poppers mei bought for me so I can figure out and practice my newest idea for a party trick -- pop a party popper with a malteaser on top so that the malteaser goes flying and then put the empty popper in your mouth and catch the malteaser in the empty popper.

David Archuleta is doing a duet on Hannah Montana with Miley Cyrus this sunday when he guest stars! :O I'm so pumped. I made my sister learn the girl part so she can sing it with me. Haha. See, her copy of the lyrics that she decided to write down.

Us eating ferrero rochers. We decided to document this as well, since the camera was out to play.

Tom illustrates the effects of sleep deprivation.

Zac's kid illustrates why we were sleep deprived. Hyper, much. Haiz.

2009-04-27T02:19:00.008+08:00

I tend to shy away from emotional rantings on public domains in general, but every once in a while cathartis is enjoyable and tonight seems to be one of those nights. So, seat belts everyone.

I was just reminded again this week of how blessed I am to have all my new friends around me. The church people especially. I dunno. I was just always such an awkward kid growing up. Not that I'm particularly grown up now, and I don't quite plan to yet. But when I was at the height of my puberty I suppose. Lol. There must be some other way to phrase that. Yeah, but like I was saying, being so awkward before and just keeping to myself all the time I think, was part of the reason why I never got to know all of these amazing people. You've all just been so warm and welcoming and... NICE (comprehensive, I know.) since I've come back and I've gotten to know a pretty good bunch of you guys especially and I really just thank God for placing all of you in my life.

I always look at photos and videos of the church stuff that happened when I was away and think how much I've missed out. But really I needed that time away. Not that I was entirely miserable before. I wasn't. But I guess it meant that I had to open up to people. When you live on a seperate continent from your family at age 15, you gotta find some support system and I found that to a large degree in the other boarders just because we spent so much time together and a lot of the time we were going through the same things. It wasn't so much letting everyone in on my deepest darkest skeletons, although I did enjoy my past-lights-out-chats-slash-video-watching-sessions with sheryl and my boy-swooning sessions with sue-may. But it was just sort of letting people kinda just figure out who I was. Letting my guard down in a less academically intense environment. Getting comfortable and open about what I am and what I wanna be. Weirdly, I miss being a boarder. Making milo toast and dropping crumbs on the couch. Watching the ellen show. Asking to borrow disney movies over the PA. Risking suspension and illegally sending people up and down in the service elevator. Showering past lights out. Staying in each other's room past lights out. Going for socials and then having to take of our shoes to climb the stairs when we get back so we don't CLANK up in our heels. Being locked out of the boarding house and yelling upstairs to the house mother's room when we go to school for late night events. Running back to the boarding house to sign out on a friday. Trying to make myself sick over the weekend so I don't have to sign back in on sunday. Boogie boarding and crashing into the rocks. Nearly drowning while taking the beach leave (yes, we only have a limited number of beach leaves). Having to wash my clothes like twice a week because I refuse to REWEAR my uniform (yuck). Eating crap boarding house food, like friggin make you own roll EVERY MONDAY, WEDNESDAY, FRIDAY AND SUNDAY. Lying on the lawn in front of the boarding house until the discipline mistress makes a PA annoucement for the boarders to "PLEASE MAKE YOUR WAY OFF THE LAWN AND TO YOUR CLASSES". Walking out of the boarding house when the first siren goes and still making it to link (that's Australian for home room) on time. Taking random walks up to the oval and down to chapel valley in the evening. Packing up my whole room and shifting every semester. Kicking Terri's crap back over to HER SIDE of the room. Hacking into the school accounts of day girls and using their internet quota (they never use it anyways!). Barely making it across the field to my locker clutching all my books for the day in my arms because I can't be bothered bringing a bag to school because I feel that the 10 second journey to my locker from the boarding house isn't worth my packing and unpacking efforts. Blasting music from kelsey's speakers with her door open and dancing down the corridor. Taping "DO NOT DISTURB. STUDYING. THANKS" signs to my door and still having people burst into my room and lie on my bed... in their uniform... after school. -.-

But I digress in indulging my nostalgia. In all seriousness, looking back, I've only been officially back in singapore for good for about 3 months and I suddenly love all these people around me so much. Maybe it's the massive amounts of free time I've had as well. But I can't believe how fantastic all these people here are and how I never got to know any of them at all until now. As in they're actually SUCH lovely lovely people. And I mean, I had good friends in Perth and all, but for some strange reason it's just different here. The dynamics are just different. Like the care and love that people have shown me since I've been back... just I'd never see that in Perth ever. At least amongst most of the people I hang out with anyways. It was more of a club-kids sort of group in Perth I guess. Socials, balls, party buses. Beach, techno music. All that. Which was fun. And still is fun and I miss it a bit. Getting dressed up and dancing for hours and then eating ALL the finger food available to restock on energy (well, I did. My friends would just shake their heads while standing to one side as they watched me.) and then dancing some more. Getting random's numbers slash getting asked for your number by randoms. Yelling along with our favourite songs that are being blasted so loudly we can feel our internal organs pumping along to the music. Yelling out and waving to randoms while dancing in party buses.

Haha. Now I sound super hardcore. But it's just the culture there. And I enjoyed my time there. But I really am so glad I came back. Late suppers after worship. Nasi lemak slash coffee shop lunching post service. Eating illegally in the sanctuary. Randomly jamming on level 4. Eating until stupid at bbqs slash buffets. I'd take all that over a sweaty crowd of utterly pissed teenagers any day. Well, virtually any day. I'm a teenager who likes a party once in a while. Sue me. Lol. Seriously though, everyone who I've gotten to know has been so gorgeous and fantastic and loving and supportive and just a bunch of people I really look up to and admire. And I feel like I'm a better person just because I've gotten to know you guys. Like, this isn't the me that takes two years to figure out if I want to open up to someone. To let them know any personal details about me. Most of my friends in Perth don't even know I have a sister. And it's not that I'm not close to her and therefore I don't mention her. Anyone who's seen my sister and me together will know we're pretty close. It's just I don't talk about stuff usually to anyone. I just sort of react to what they're saying and kinda make them laugh a bit. Maybe it's the people. As in, you people are all just such good dudes, and I love and respect all of you so much. I dunno.

In any case, thank you each for just being who you are. I've never really had a group of friends like this before. Like before I left I was a bit of a spas and all and then in Perth, it was just a different culture. Plus my travelling up and down didn't helped much. But with this group I feel like I've known them for forever, although clearly I haven't. I feel like I can open up to them, like I can trust them and know that they'll always be there for me. And I always have such a good time whenever we hang out. Honestly. Maybe it's the fact that we're all on the same page. Like at the end of it all, we all are committed to God and love God and have the common understanding that whatever happens will happen according to God's will?? I have no idea what I'm saying. I have no idea why we all get along so well. Haha. But whatever it is, I truly thank God for it. I thank God for the massive blessing that he's given to me in you guys.

2009-04-27T02:01:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY JASON! (Well, technically now it's happy birthday yesterday. But still.)

I was just being random as usual, when I found a video that some of the church people made for youth camp 07. Interrogation Room. LOL. I have no idea what the video is for, but it is officially my new favourite series ever. Even though it only has one episode. BUT WHY IS THERE NO EPISODE 2!!! I feel like a small child that's just been told fairies and santa and hogwarts TOTALLY exists and all my dreams will come true forever and who's responded with a wide-eyed, sincere and innocently earnest "Gasp. Really." only to be met with a "SNORT. NO. BAHAHA YOU SPASTICATED, GULLIBLE LOSER." in response. IF SOMEONE, ANYONE KNOWS IF THERE'S AN EPISODE 2, PLEASE PUT ME OUT OF MY MISERY. AND IF THERE'S NO EPISODE 2 -- MEE MEE, MAKE ONE.

2009-04-25T15:52:00.006+08:00

While one has to undergo IBS, there is very little that one can do. My necessary excursions away from my desk are not long enough for me to read something like a dickens novel, and yet are sufficiently time-consuming for me to feel like I'm wasting my life away if I don't do anything. So I make lists. And since I didn't do anything particularly exhilarating today, I shall share with everyone the list of the day.

The Fan Girl List (alias, the Marriage List)

10. Bach.

Sexy Thang.

9. Taylor Hanson.

He has impressively good hair. I dunno. It always reminds me of Prince Charming's hair in Shrek.

8. Dougie Poynter.

There's actually a song about him. By Townbike. Called "Dougie". And it just talks about how fit he is. It's not that greatest song in the world, but I like to think it proves I have good taste.

7. Novak Djokovic.

Good shot, Novak. And, yes. Novak and I are on first name terms. Jealous?

6. Johnny Tartaglia

The 2004 Tony Awards.

5. Andy Lee (right).

4. Hamish Blake (left).

I LOVE HAMISH AND ANDY. They're one of the top djs slash comedy duos in Australia. Maybe the best! They're soooo funny. I literally can't listen to their podcasts at night, because I laugh so hard I can't sleep.

3. Sam Sparro.

His voice. Especially live. Oh my. And his whole image. Not street fashion. But still.

2. David Archuleta.

Sigh. Like half my itunes is just David Archuleta songs.

1. David Tennant. DOCTOR WHO. Need I say more?

2009-04-24T22:45:00.003+08:00

I officially epitomise loserdom.

Macdonald's loves me so much, they called me at home the other day (I only gave them my home number because as anyone who has tried to contact me via handphone knows, I never bring my phone anywhere so I miss most of my calls and it takes me like half a day to answer a text) and asked me to PLEASE come and at least work part time these 2 weeks. So anyways. Today I went to work. And my grandmother graciously offered me a lift. Which I was clearly super happy to recieve because it meant I didn't have worry about transporting myself to work. Unfortunately, I was so thrilled with the excitement of getting a lift and with the joy of going to work, that I forgot to put my wallet in my bag. -.- On my way, walking out to the bus stop after work, I was looking in my bag, and then I realised that I had forgotten. So with no money and no ez-link card, I decided that I wasn't in a rush anyways and my FREE McWings dinner that I ate before leaving would provide me the strength to walk home. For those of you more geographically challenged, NUS (in particular, the second exit. The one closer to the engineering faculty) is not especially close to Sunset Way. It's actually pretty far. But I enjoy walking so I didn't mind. It reminded me of my RG days, when I used to walk from school to my dad's clinic at Mt E instead of taking a bus when I had time. When I take long walks like these by myself, it gives me heaps of time to just be blank. I like. It's really refreshing. Anywhos. Indeed. So I walked home. I walked the slightly over 1 hour walk all the way home. Lol.

But that's not the best part.

When I got back home, I went upstairs to the study and took out my work clothes from my bag to find... my wallet.

*L sign on forehead

2009-04-23T15:36:00.005+08:00

Last night there was a huge thunderstorm at my house and a MASSIVE tree got entirely UPROOTED in the state land next door.

My pictures don't seem to do the scale of the tree justice, but it's really a giant, dude.

The last time there was a thunderstorm like this, one of the ancient trees by our pool got uprooted, fell and knocked off a small part of the roof. Thank God this time our house was fine, apart from it sounding like our house was under attack by gun fire as branches and random twigs were being kinda flung at our house by the wind with distressing force. Heng man.

Also, here begins my mugging for SATs. I bought the study guide today. I actually found it super easily. (Good times.) Unfortunately, I didn't realise HOW THICK IT IS. (Bad times.)

5 CM EXACTLY. As you can see. I'm going to die.

Also, when I was reading the introduction, I couldn't help but notice that it said, with regard to the essay section, that:

"blank essays, essays that are not written on topic, essays written in pen, or essays deemed illegible after several attempts have been made to read them will recieve a score of 0."

and while that's not unusual, it strikes fear in my heart because I hate being reminded that my sucky writing might get me 0 for my essay. :(

"In case anyone hasn't seen my writing before, here's a sample. Do you see now why I have something to be concerned about? And this my "GOOD WRITING" some more!!! :S"

2009-04-21T23:36:00.004+08:00

Just to update all my fans (-.- stop gagging). Fear not, I haven't left my totally awesome MacDonalds girl job yet. I'm just going on leave for 2 weeks to study for SATS. I realise it's barely been a week at my job and I actually really love it (it's turned out to be super super fun and really interesting). BUT it's physically exhuasting, which is something I expected I guess, but not to this degree. I come home everyday and literally just stone the whole day. And when I'm not stoning, I sleep. Not nap. Sleep. The definition of which is I just go unconcious until one of my family members wakes me, ie. at least 10 minutes of vigourous shaking. If I gave it a week more I'd probably get used to it. But at this point I can't afford the time, because I can't study if I'm unconcious. Which is sad. And also, being constantly unconcious means that I've hardly seen my family this past week. When I do see them, I'm usually too stoned to talk much. And I just feel that these few months before university starts I should try to spend more time with them. I've spent more than enough time away for the last two years. So today was my last day at work. For the next two weeks at least. :( Meh, I really wanted to continue.

2009-04-20T20:46:00.004+08:00

I'm too tired to come up with anything original to blog about, but I feel like writing something so I shall pull up yet another Myspace questions thingy:

1. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
YES. Must get back my one dollar.

2. Do you take compliments well?
They always make me a bit awkward. I just kinda laugh nervously and say "oh really? Thanks." Although it's always nice to get a compliment, I guess.

3. Do you play Sudoku?
On occasion.

4. If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
Maybe. Sometimes I watch Man vs Wild on the Discovery Channel. I know for instance that if mosquitos are eating you alive in the rainforest you can use the red debris left behind by leaf-cutter ants as mosquito repellant by rubbing it all over yourself, because the debris has folic acid in it which is apparently a natural mosquito repellant.

5. Do you like to ride horses?
Sure. I used take lessons and it was really fun. But then I broke my arm and I never got around to signing up for classes again.

6. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
YA, DISCOVERY CAMP. Haha. The good ole days. My godsister Olivia and I used to go every year to get our annual overdose of geek.

7. What was your favourite game as a kid?
I kept going through phases. I think there was like hopscotch then cat's cradle then pepsi cola... in Primary 3 everyone was really into making and collecting eraser dust.

8. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you go for it?
No.

9. Have you lied to get out of a date?
I've... arranged for myself to be busy with other stuff. :S Does that count? Lol.

10. Do you like to pursue of to be pursued?
To be pursued.

11. Do any songs make you cry?
Weirdly, songs and movies never make me cry. My friends can be walrusing (which essentially means they are weeping so hard they sound like a walrus) beside me and I'm always just like oh. That's pretty sad.

12. Are you continuing your education?
Yupp.

13. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
Nope. But I wish I did. I wish I had a rifle license so I could be a safari ranger.

14. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grabbed?
My motorcycle. Well, I would have to drag it would really. I haven't really worked up the guns to just "grab" it.... yet.

15. What is your favourite children's book?
The Very Hungry Caterpillar. I can sympathise.

16. What colour are your eyes?
Dark Brown.

17. How tall are you?
-.- 153cm.

18. Where is your dream house located?
I don't really mind living anywhere as long as it's functional. It's more the people I'm staying with.

19. Have you tried sushi?
Yes.

20. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
Yes again. The people who made this quiz are clearly not asian.

21. When was the last time you were at Church?
Yesterday.

22. Where was the furthest place you travelled today?
To my sister's school.

23. Do you like mustard?
I haven't actually tried it in large enough amounts to be able to taste it. But I don't like the look of it.

24. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
Sleep. If you're unconcious you can't be hungry.

25. Do you look like your mum or dad?
Mum.

26. How long does it take you in the shower?
5 minutes.

27. Can you do a split?
Nope. My flexibility sucks.

28. What movie do you want to see right now?
Wolfverine. But that's not really out yet. So 17 again, I guess.

29. What did you do for New's Years?
Went to church for the watch night service and then went for ice cream with friends and stayed out till 5am playing polar bear.

30. Do you think the Grudge was scary?
I think your grammar is scary. It's DID you think the Grudge was scary. Or. Do you think the Grudge IS scary.

31. Do you own a camera phone?
Yes.

32. Was your mum a cheerleader?
No. But she was in the school band.

33. Do you like care bears?
Not particularly. I don't actually think they're that cute. Cannot compete with my chicken la. Haha.

34. Do you know how to play poker?
I bought a poker for dummies set of cards once but I got a bit confused so I gave up.

35. Do you wear your seatbelt?
Yes.

36. Do you have a secret fetish?
Pyjama pants. I have HEAPS of pyjama pants that are just the most random patterns ever. I have lime green shorts, leopard shorts, a variety of striped shorts, striped pants, grey shorts with flowers, polka dot shorts...

37. How many meals do you eat a day?
2. I usually don't wake up in time for breakfast.

38. Is your tongue pierced?
Ee. No.

39. Do you like funny or serious people better?
You have to be balanced I guess. A bit of both. But generally, I lean towards funny.

40. Did you eat a cookie today?
So random. No.

41. Do you hate chocolate?
Is that possible? The other night at seoul garden we had the BEST chocolate fondue with marshmallows EVER.

42. The phone rings, who do you want it to be?
My phone is ringing?? I don't care who it is! MY PHONE IS RINGING. Somebody love me.

43. What's the last letter of your middle name?
I don't have one. But I have a chinese name and that ends with an I.

44. Are you a gullible person?
A little bit. Yesterday we went for dessert at the Big O, where they have this wall full of animals pictures but mostly of dogs. And Kegan managed to convince me that the picture of this parrot was actually a picture of a dog and that it was just because I wasn't looking at it right.

45. If you could have any job, what would it be?
Wildlife Researcher.

46. What is your favourite time of day?
Just before I go to sleep.

47. What do you buy at the movies?
I don't really like to eat at the movies. I prefer to just watch quietly.

48. Could you relate to a character in Mean Girls?
The other day when I called back "LARGE SALT, NO FRIES" I felt like Karen.

49. Do you have an "ex box" with pics and letters from past lovers?
Ew. No. How creepy.

50. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
I'm... not usually thinking of anything. I'm more of a blank slate type person. Lol.

2009-04-17T18:23:00.003+08:00

In case anyone hasn't worked it out from the tagboard, slash my friends constantly looking at me and then bursting out in spontaneous laughter as they imagine me in the yellow-shirt-black-pants-and-shoes-uniform, I am in fact officially a MacDonald's girl (since last Monday). It was an obvious choice for a job after the recent discovery of my talents in auntie killing Easter Sunday. Plenty of aunties for me to conquer at work now. I like.

Seriously though, it's actually pretty physically demanding work. By the end of my 8 hour shifts, the 20 minute bus ride home and the walk into sunset way, I usually need to lie down on the floor for a while to recover. Although maybe that's just a result of my accute lack of physical fitness. Surprisingly it's also turned out to be a really PC type job. But I'm still adjusting. 95% of the time, I'm completely confused and thinking WHAT THE?? repeatedly in my head. But we're getting there. I'm was totally pro at frying hashbrowns and fries today. I know this because 1) Liz visited me this morning and bought one of my (and I quote) "very well done" hashbrowns and enjoyed it and b) my manager asked me to make her a box of medium fries with no salt and told me after she ate them "Good job! Ni de fries hen hao chi." Hurray.

2009-04-15T17:03:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MUM AND JAY!!!!

I have something like 150 photos on facebook of Mum's birthday. I'm trying to upload the videos at the moment. But stupid facebook is soooo slow. Although it's not too bad because as I wait I can listen to the Nickelback and Kaiser Chiefs cds that I just bought this afternoon. Hurray. I like.

2009-04-13T18:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY LINUS!!!

I don't know why but I was reminded of Linus's lawnmower poem that he wrote for this girl in his class (which by the way, goes as follows:

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
I want to hit you on the head with a lawnmower.)

when I was listening to this on youtube. Same type of strange warped humour. I love Johnny Tartaglia. I'm going to put another video of him.

If only he didn't have a boyfriend. Lol.

2009-04-12T23:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY KEGAN! -.-

This morning I woke up at 4am so that I could watch the Doctor Who Easter Special before I had to get down to church for the sunrise service. AHHHH. It was actually really good. It was really good to see the doctor again after all this time. Three more specials to go. I'm tempted to expound further and delve into a deep, thorough analysis into the intricate details of every twitching detail of the episode but I think over the past week my geek-o-metre has peaked at an all time high since I've been back in Singapore and so I shall restrain myself.

2009-04-11T20:42:00.003+08:00

Whovians unite. Tomorrow is the day that the Easter Special is released! I think I might not be able to sleep tonight. I can literally feel my "psyched glands" pumping up my adrenaline-o-metre. Although I seriously have to sleep early, because I have sunrise service to attend tomorrow morning. Unfortunately, this means that I have to leave the house at the very latest by about 5.20am.

Today I also caught up a bit with Jay. He gets to enlist soon. A day after his birthday. Poor thing. He'll be okay la, seeing as how he and Wenny used to create obstacle courses for themselves in P1.

Officer: You think your grandfather's army is it!!! See that tree on the hill!!! Go and run and touch and run back!!!!
Jay: Noooo problem la, sir. I have been training hard for this day since P1.

I'm sure he'll be very glad for his first tree-running exercise. All that obstacle course training wasn't for nothing apart from gayness after all.

2009-04-08T14:01:00.002+08:00

This week is being abnormally busy for me, which I'm actually quite enjoying. It's a nice change from my usual lazy life. A bit of stress and running about is a nice variation once in a while. Unfortunately, my body seems to think otherwise and so my IBS is rearing up to its full glory. If you don't know what IBS is, that's very lucky of you and you probably won't want to have known what it is after I tell you. But since I've mentioned it and you're probably all curious already, IBS stands for irritable bowel syndrome. :( An unfortunate trait I inherited from my father which involves me getting large amounts of diarrhoea when I'm stressed or I eat strange stuff that's like too oily or spicy etc. See? Told you you didn't wanna know. I actually had to cancel my gym session because I had diarrhoea like 4 times before 9.30am. The stomach aches aren't particularly fun either. There's some medicine I can take to control it apparently, but I like to think of my IBS as "cleansing" so I just leave it. Lol.

2009-04-07T20:05:00.004+08:00

My grandparents just came back from a week of holidaying about the motherland that is China, and over dinner they were telling us all these stories about their little adventures. Haha. I missed their strange stories.

Grandpa: There are three things you must know... *holds up four fingers*

Grandpa: THE BUS RIDE WAS FOUR HOURS LONG *hold up four fingers and then looks at them* This is time correct. FOUR.

Grandpa: Poh-poh is vvvvveeeerrrryyyy fat now. Like six months preganant! REALLY!
Poh-poh: WHERE GOT.
Grandpa: YES. She put on FOUR pounds... I also lah. But really. Honey! You stand up, you stand up.
Poh-poh: *takes a very deep breath and stand up while pulling her t-shirt down more*
Grandpa: You don't control lah! You must let it FLY then we can see.

In particular, my grandfather was super passionate about telling us about their plane ride on Shen Zhen Airlines. Apparently, on said Shen Zhen airlines, they don't turn on the air-conditioning in the plane. It's just a fan, which according to my grandfather is not particularly cooling but comfortable all the same. Anyways, there were these two men on the plane who complained about the fact that on the multiple times they had used the airline, the plane never turned on the aircon, and of course asked for the aircon to please be turned on. The stewardess then proceeds to ask the captian to turn the aircon on, which he does, but apparently the captain is quite sour about these passengers' complaints because he decides to turn the aircon on extrememly low and freezes the whole plane (not literally okay. Figuratively). The passengers are clearly disgruntled by this and complain again, saying the captain is being ridiculous now. The captain then proceeds to turn the heater on and boils the whole plane (again, figurative). As the whole plane verges heat stroke, and after a good deal of angered "oi"s and "eh"s, the captain then decides he shall be kind and allow a bit of cool air back in so that it's back to the beginnning temperature. The two men then get all aggrevated and stuff (clearly la.) and stand up and demand to see the captain and speak to him about what he's doing, to which the air stewardess' adamnant response is that they can't see him, which I thought was quite silly because that would just get them more worked up. Which it did, by the way. Anyways so at this point, these two men decide they shall lead the very upset population of passengers in a mass mutiny of sorts and stand up even though the plane is about to land and they're being told to sit down.

My grandfather declares very proudly at this point in the story:

Grandpa: I stood up man! *oozes pride*
Poh-poh: *looks at him and gives us the -.- face* I sat down.

2009-04-06T14:50:00.003+08:00

Life Lessons with Linus.

Squatter Beng Sideways.

2009-04-02T22:36:00.004+08:00

Ten outdated songs that make me melt

1) 22 steps Damien Leith
2) Everything Michael Buble
3) Just So You Know Jesse McCartney
4) Strange and Beautiful Aqualung
5) Where I Stood Missy Higgins
6) Drops of Jupiter Train
7) Someday Someday Thirsty Merc
8) Hey Julie Fountains of Wayne
9) Stitched Up Herbie Hancock & John Mayer
10) Banana Pancakes Jack Johnson

2009-04-01T00:41:00.007+08:00

I'm thinking I should go get a blood test done sometime soon, because recently my blood sugar and stuff was being weird. And also, the other day my sister and I decided to get out dad to compare our pulses to see who was fitter and my dad decided to call out our respective pulses so that we could "hear" them and compare as well. Well, mine went something like this:

Tick (my heart beat doesn't actually go tick, but dad decided that would be an appropriate sound to call out)... tick tick.... t-i-c-k... tick, tick, tick... tick.... tick, tick tick, tick....

And apparently an irregular heart beat is bad news so I should probably go for a blood test 1) to make sure nothing is wrong with me b) for fun! I've never taken blood before. I've actually always wanted to donate blood. But I will never ever be able to because, according to the Health Sciences Authority:

" You should not give blood if you have:
Ever had Hepatitis B or C;
Been infected by HIV or are at risk of getting HIV (e.g. have had sexual contact with a HIV-positive person, have multiple sex partners or patronized sex workers);
Resided in the UK for a cumulative period of 3 months or more from 1980 to 1996;
Resided in France for a cumulative period of 5 years or more from 1980 up till today;
Previous or current history of cancer;
Previous history of drug abuse (either oral or intravenous); or
Serious chronic illnesses such as diseases of the heart or lung (those with well-controlled asthma can still donate blood).
Autoimmune diseases such as SLE, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Thyrotoxicosis."

And we lived in Edinburgh for like 6 months in like 1993, so they're afraid I might have some dormant state of mad cow or something. QED pretty much I can never save anyone's life ever. My sister suggested that I give a kidney or part of my liver or something. -.- I told her I would consider.

Tonight, when we had salad as part of our dinner I also couldn't help noticing that the bottle of salad cream has a label on it's neck that read "Pourable Sunshine". Haha. Little things that make me laugh and get me through the day.

2009-03-31T19:49:00.002+08:00

Speaking of Geek. Funniest thing I've heard in ages, which i heard off a TV show called QI.

Charles Babbage, the originator of the concept of a programmable computer, once wrote to the poet Alfred Tennyson with regard to the latter's poem "The Vision of Sin":

"In your otherwise beautiful poem, one verse reads,

Every moment dies a man,

Every moment one is born.

... If this were true, the population of the world would be at a standstill. In truth, the rate of birth is slightly in excess of that of death. I would suggest [that the next edition of your poem should read]:

Every moment dies a man,

Every moment 1 1/16 is born.

Strictly speaking, the actual figure is so long I cannot get it into a line, but I believe the figure 1 1/16 will be sufficiently accurate for poetry."

Doctor Who Easter Special. APRIL 12TH. PLANET OF THE DEAD.

2009-03-31T01:25:00.024+08:00

Okay. Tonight after a long period of self-restraint in accordance with the whole watched kettle never boiling idea, I decided that it was about time to update myself on news about Doctor Who. In particular the Easter Special coming up in just under TWO WEEKS now. Whoa, I can barely say that without hyperventilating. Is that weird? :S

But before that, according to The Daily Express, it is in dicussion that Tom Baker, the 4th Doctor, might make a cameo with Matt Smith, the newly announced 11th Doctor, after having left the role 28 years ago. Which would be AMAZING. David Tennant brought sex appeal (marry me, david!) and mainstream popularity to the role, but Tom Baker definitely made the Doctor an icon and I love him! Only Tom Baker can make a 20 foot multi-coloured scarf, curly hair and jelly babies cool beyond belief. Which brings him to a firm second place on my list of favourite Doctors, behind David Tennant and in front of Christopher Eccleston. Jon Pertwee can be my fourth, but only because he was the Doctor who got to mention Singapore in "The Carnival of Monsters".

Anyways, yes. So the easter special entitled Planet of the Dead is OFFICIALLY being broadcast on the Sunday, April 12th 2009 (although it's previewing in like 3 special venues on April 10th). AHHH. I wish I had one of those adam sandler click remotes right now so I could skip ahead. And it wouldn't even matter that then I would just be like skipping ahead all the time to doctor who episodes because that's like my dream life. Lol. Watching Doctor Who and drinking Yeo's soya bean (maybe they'll sponser me with a lifetime supply now that I've advertised for them. Either that or they'll sue me for using their name without permission).

BBC's released description:
When a London bus takes a detour to an alien world, the Doctor must join forces with the extraordinary Lady Christina, in this one-off seasonal special. But the mysterious planet holds terrifying secrets, hidden in the sand. And time is running out, as the deadly Swarm gets closer.

Planet Of The Dead features David Tennant as the Doctor, Michelle Ryan as Lady Christina and Lee Evans as Malcolm and is written by Russell T Davies and Gareth Roberts.

And there they are:

David Tennant

Lee Evans

Tennant and Michelle Ryan (It's almost ridiculous how good they both manage to look in a long coat/a black skin tight outfit and shades.) People are saying that she might be the next assistant for the 5th series.

Lee Evans again, looking very intelligent

A tritovore -- the alien villians for the episode.

By the way, look at the scale of the desert set behind them. I find that incredible. That since the revival of the series it's done so amazingly well they've gone from dodgy CGI and cheap lighting tricks to being able to fly the whole production to Dubai to shoot a 60min special.

The beginning of the River Song story is apparently being unveiled in this episode as well, which has been killing me since the Silence in the Library/Forest of the Dead episodes. I love them! Like Russell T. Davies says in the podcast commentary (for those of you who are STILL reading at this point, it just keeps getting worse and worse, doesn't it. Doctor who PODCASTS. Make her stop please, make her stop. Haha.) she makes him "just a man". David Tennant's face when she says his name!!! Breaks my heart. And also, I'm a sucker for those time traveller's wife type stories. I hate that he knows exactly when and how it ends even before they've started. Yes, yes, deep down I'm a romantic sentimental marshmallowy type idealist.

I don't think I've seen the Tritovores anywhere yet, but Russell T. Davies apparently says they're going to be disgusting and that he's going to put them in other three specials left as well. Apparently they're aiming to get Tritovores up there with Daleks and Cybermen as an "iconic arch nemesis type alien species" of the Doctor. We'll see. That's a pretty big claim, and I'm excited about it but I'm undecided if I think they're gonna pull it off or not so I'm just going to wait until the episodes.

Speaking of aliens, I was on The Medusa Cascade, which is another Doctor Who sort of news-source-gallery website, and there was a particular article there that caught my eye:

March 25, 2009 - Your chance to star as an alien on Doctor Who
Not normally known for its science fiction output, BBC One's Tonight's The Night TV programme will be running a competition for a viewer to take part in a Doctor Who scene and work with the Doctor Who production team.
This scene will be broadcast in the final episode of Tonight's The Night in April/May 2009 (subject to scheduling) and the winner will take a starring role – as an alien.
John Barrowman, told the Nest: “This is a fantastic opportunity and I can't wait to see the winner experience performing on the set of Doctor Who.”
Viewers over 18 are invited to submit an application featuring a photograph of them in their home-made alien costume, along with information about their alien, such as where it's from and its characteristics. A group of 50 applicants will be selected to meet a panel including John Barrowman and Doctor Who casting director, Andy Pryor. From these fifty, ten will be carried through to a final elimination. One applicant will win a trip to the Doctor Who set to work with the Doctor Who production team.
Hosted by Doctor Who and Torchwood star John Barrowman, Tonight's The Night helps ordinary people live out their performing fantasies by duetting with a favourite pop group, singing with a band or the cast of a West End musical.
The competition is open to people in the UK over 18 and applications close on Saturday 28th March 2009.

I thought the part about having to dress up as a home-made alien was super funny. Particularly since the competition is clearly for adults (note the part about being over 18 year old). LOL. Although my ridicule may really just be sour-grape syndrome resentment at the fact that I couldn't enter the competition myself, blow everyone's minds with my awesome alien, WIN and then get on the set of the Doctor Who.

I realise that after all this, probably no one will understand a single word of this, but I can't help that I'm a closet Doctor Who fan. Well, not closet really. It's just there's no one to talk to me about it. :( Wow, I just wrote like 5 times what I would normally write about my day about a single episode of a sci-fi series that hasn't even aired.

Haha. I love being a geek.

2009-03-30T23:49:00.004+08:00

Tonight, Grace was really nice and invited me to her young adult games night at her house. So much fun. Although I couldn't help but notice how highly intellectually stimulating their games in their house are. First we played Saboteur (or something to that effect) which involved miners trying to build their way to some gold nugget in some unknown location while being sabotaged by secret "saboteur", who have try to keep secret so they don't get stopped with random sabotage cards which involved you getting your lamp or cart or pick destroyed so that you couldn't continue building tunnels to either move towards or away from the gold until you got saved.

You get the general manipulation and high level complexity involved.

Then, we played Bang. Which was worse. There are actually so many different symbols and patterns involved in the game that every player gets a little card that has a legend on it. AND everyone gets a character with unique characteristics. AND besides your character you are also either an outlaw, the like head outlaw dude, the deputy officer or the sheriff. Then you can get shot, but you can only shoot as far as the range of your gun, and if you don't have a gun you can only shoot the people next to you, unless the person has a horse, then they're out of range, but even if they get shot they can miss the shot if they have the miss card, or they can drink beer to up their health, and the deputies and sheriff have to try to kill off all the bad guys while the bad guys try to make the sheriff slash deputies kill each other, after they figure out who the other bad guys are, although that doesn't always happen.

And I'm skipping past a lot of other cards here.

AND THEN, apparently there was another more (and I quote Grace) "fu zha" game called muchkins that we didn't get around to.

At my house, we own games like High School Musical Twister and Cluedo Jr. Haha.

Today, I cropped my hair as well. It may be a sign that I have slightly too much time on my hands when I decide I want to do something different with my hair every month. Lol. I feel a bit nostalgic. My hair reminds me of my P1 hair cut.

2009-03-29T23:55:00.002+08:00

Despite my clear expression of distaste for YET ANOTHER post-church nasi lemak lunch, Joseph and Marcus decided to just continue walking and disregard Darren and my cries in support of claypot rice today. And what was worse was that everyone just DRIFTED along with them and not us, until we ultimately were just sucked in the vortex of their gayness. While it may have been a lonely day in bikini bottom, it was a sad day in the life of Alyssa Nyam.

Although we did have a lot of fun trying to figure out LiAnne's little puzzles. Also, my day is redeemed by the fact that I finished like really FINISHED all my university applications today. Now I just have written tests, interviews... SATS... some more interviews. I... may not be as done as I thought.

2009-03-28T01:25:00.003+08:00

Guess what? I got talent spotted today. Haha. Really, REALLY. This lady like tapped my shoulder on the street today.

Lady: Hi, I'm soandso from somethingandsomething. We do like tv commercials and advertisements and things like that and we're looking for new faces and YOU have the look we're looking for. Can I have you name and number so that my company can contact you?
Me: *look very stunned for a while* SURE!

So I'm going to be famous. Lol. Then people will swarm to bask in my warm glow. My "I have no friends vibe" a distant memory of the past. Today my trainer at the gym asked me,

Trainer lady: Eh, so you have friends in Singapore ah?
Me: YA. Of course. But a lot of them have school.
Trainer lady: So what you do on weekdays?
Me: Hang out with my... (pause as I realise I probably shouldn't have started this answer) mum.
Trainer lady: So where do you and your friends hang out usually?
Me: At people's houses most of the time.
Trainer lady: HUH? Just random houses?
Me: I... OH I mean like at one of my friends' houses.
Trainer lady: Oh, okay. (and she said this next bit with a super super straight face. Like she was actually serious. Which was hilarious, but at the same time highly disturbing that it even entered her consideration...) Ya, actually you don't really look like the type to like break into people's house.

2009-03-27T01:17:00.003+08:00

After the insurmountable build up to tonight, I must say I found the ultimate finale somewhat an anticlimatic let-down. The play itself was beautiful. I LOVED IT SO SO MUCH. I would recommend it to everyone. Seriously people, if you haven't bought tickets please go and buy now. The play has an amazing cast and it's so brilliantly presented and blocked and the sets and costumes just embrace the incredible delivery of the words and make Shakespeare really come alive. It was really really fantastic.

But but but, meeting Ethan Hawke and Rebecca Hall and everyone. That was nice as well, but just, it didn't give me a kick at all. It was very strange. I thought that I would be at least slightly star struck, particularly since LiAnne and I have been working ourselves up to this for weeks now. But yeah. The whole time I was just kinda thinking to myself... well.... this is.... fun-ish I guess. But I'd rather be hanging out with my friends. My barbeque on Sunday actually gave me a substaintially bigger kick. Also, we (well, I anyways) look ridiculously terrible in ALL the celebrity photos. Lol. It's actually so bad. Worse part is, it's a once in a lifetime opportunity so no chance to redeem ourselves!

Top 3 things I learnt from this evening:
1. Video blog type things are so fun to film! LiAnne and I did sooooo many.
b. I'm never wearing makeup again for a loooong while. I always fool myself into thinking that I would like to get dolled up and wear it, and then every once in a while I have to actually put some on and then I realise how much I HATE it.
iii. A-list after parties mean... nothing to me. I like my friends better. :S

1.

2009-03-25T17:38:00.005+08:00

I've bought a new dress and shoes

for tomorrow. Which, in case anyone has forgotten, IS FINALLY ETHAN HAWKE DAY. LiAnne and I actually even booked hair and makeup. Haha. Personally, the extra money spent on professional hair and makeup is probably for the best and not really a waste since I am generally unable to achieve anything other than the "I just rolled out of bed" look. On sunday, I got dressed for church and was going to happily go along my way when LiAnne was like "Aiyoh, what are you going to do with your hair." Really, I wasn't planning to do anything with it but I tied it up after she said that. Lol. My logic is, 1) I'm not out to impress anyone and b) when it gets to dressy occasions like this then you have more potential to clean up you see? There's more of a WOW, you-clean-up-good factor. :D

Yesterday, when I bought the above, my mother seemed pleased enough. I think at times like these, she's always comforted by the fact that her number-first-progeny is in fact able to select nice clothes for herself when the situation calls for it. I.e. I'm always dressed unglam-ly because I don't make an effort, and not because I have no fashion sense. Haha. QED I can actually take care of my image if I want.

Speaking of taking care of myself, today I decided to eat an apple, a packet of milo and half a packet of hot and spicy twisties for lunch because I was a bit carried away browsing at the library today. Which, kids, is an example of NOT taking care of yourself. But I had no idea the library@esplanade had so many scores and cds! I was like having a field day there. But yes, I shudder to think what will happen when I have to move out and find all my own meals. Or worse, what my children will eat. A healthy mix of calabee, jack and jill, roller coasters and pringles maybe. Some pokey for dessert.

4.

2009-03-22T18:32:00.003+08:00

My parents decided the other day that they would like to have a barbeque. But my dad may have overestimated when he came home with like $200 of meat. So we basically had to ask this whole bunch of people to come to our house to please please help us to finish the food. Although in the end it turned out well. It was very yummy and it was kinda nice to hang out with friends sort of doing nothing for the afternoon. Yong En finished the whole bowl of corn so we anticipate bowel difficulty for him though. We also took a disturbingly large number of photos of my small chicken soft toy

and videos of LiAnne singing jersey boys. Facebook may well go into overdrive have to shut down when those get uploaded.

Yesterday, LiAnne and I also decided to just go out and eat cake because we both felt like we wanted company for the day. Which was also nice, but that and the barbeque mean we are slowly g r o w i n g. Kegan should have joined us in out fattening adventures because we wanted to celebrate him getting into OCS, but he was at Wild Wild Wet/I can't remember, some other theme park. -.- Which I felt was a poor excuse. Big O bailey's cream cheesecake and rum-filled banarama clearly triumph gay theme parks. Lol.

But to be honest I didn't really mind being rejected, because I have found my life's purpose in the Jersey Boys and Across The Universe soundtracks which I bought after much browsing at Borders. THE MUSIC IS AMAZING. Okay, it's not really a purpose per se, but I could sit here and listen to those two cds for the rest of my life. Or maybe until I memorise them anyways. That's usually when I get sick of cds. When I can replicate them myself. Haha.

Okay, going for dinner now... even though we just barely finished the bbq. Yum.

6.

2009-03-21T00:49:00.004+08:00

Tonight was good fun. Although I think LiAnne and I may have been slightly over enthusiatic in debuting our little chipmunk duets (that we always sing in the privacy of our homes) to other human beings. But our "impressive" singing was hardly noticed thanks to the upstage of the year courtesy of Ivan's SpongeBob Sqaurepants reenactments. They weren't even impersonations of the characters. They were actual reenactments of the episodes. "Eeet warse eh loanlee dae ehn beekeenee bawtum.... ". I managed to laugh until I couldn't breathe. Which sent me into sort of fits of hyperventilation, which when combined with the fact that I may have been a bit too excited in telling everyone about how LiAnne and I were going to meet Ethan Hawke on Thursday, may mean that I'm never invited to jam with them again. But that's okay, because Yi Loong and LiAnne have found me a new boyfriend -- this very intense looking ang moh boy's face on one of those wallpaper-poster-adverts in MacDonalds. Yi Loong took a picture and put him on my phone wall paper and wanted to name him Isaiah, but I said that I was the one who was together with him so I had the last say and his name was... ready, ready? Bob. Yi Loong also used my phone to prank call poor Bryan who actually almost agreed to go to Lim Chu Kang tomorrow to get my phone to pass to me. There was also another failed attempt to view my lovely blue IC photo from Yi Loong, who actually got it out of my wallet before I got it back (thanks to LiAnne who just seemed to just smile very serenely as Yi Loong stole my wallet). Speaking of stealing wallets, I found that I totally have a gift for pick pocketting wallets! I managed to steal 1) Ivan's wallet from out of his backpack right when it was on his back and b) LiAnne's wallet from her bag while sitting next to her (okay, well it kinda fell into my lap, but I managed to subtly shove it into my own bag, which I think is still equally impressive) . Clearly a gift. I should develop it, then I wouldn't have to go to university. Holiday FOREVER. :D

7. A WEEK.

2009-03-19T23:57:00.002+08:00

I watched Across The Universe today for the first time. Such a brilliant movie. But then I dropped a pencil into our piano, which concerns me slightly and brought me down from my Beatles high a bit because our piano is a grand which means the inside is like warm, so I'm afraid it might rot. :S Tomorrow I'm having a jamming session with LiAnne-slash-Randall-slash-Brian-slash-Bryan-slash-Spruce-slash-Ivan though so the pencil episode is hardly enough to dampened my spirits. I'm a combination of exicited enxious and adopt-the-fetal-position anxious. But it should be really really good. Yay.

9.

2009-03-17T22:38:00.002+08:00

Nathan, my nano ipod, has gone missing. Which concerns me. I haven't seen him for like 4 days now. *weeps a little tear

BUT, the distressing situation was well countered by the fact that today was half-price waffles day! Finally. I'm so happy.

I may be developing an addiction.

Also I think my little handshake with my mum when we say goodnight is starting to cement into a thing that we do. Haha. The other night I reached out my hand for kind of a slap down high-five and she shook my hand. And since then she's kinda been doing it every night. Figures.

10.

2009-03-16T23:41:00.001+08:00

I was taking a taxi home today and I got this taxi driver who just like TALKED non-stop. I was a combination of "OMG why won't you stop talking??" and "OMG how are you talking non-stop? Impressive." He was really super friendly. First he talked about how cars shouldn't park along roads and how narrow some roads were. Which lead to him talking about how his neck was very painful because he had had to turn his head around to do his however-many-point-turn. Because apparently when you sit in an air-conditioned car for too long your blood clots. Secretly when he said that I wondered why he couldn't just turn off the friggin freezing air-con because it was actually so cold in his taxi his windows were practically fogging up. But in the end I decided on a quiet oh really and an encouraging nod. Which actually turned out to be part of the amazing-ness of his little monologue. I didn't even say anything! Just very neutral "oh really"s and sage-like "oh I see, I see"s. But he then went on to say how meditation really helps pain. And how he was a monk for a while. And how a monk's life is not so easy you know. And that they have dharmas or something. And wait wait, did he go straight? Yes. Okay, and there are worry dharmas and something dharmas and something else dharmas and something something else dharmas. And then he talked about his netts machine. And how you had to be in open spaces. And did I want to try using the netts machine -- it was very good and takes people's money very fast. And then he explained to me why he was taking the route he was taking. And did he turn right here? Yes. Okay, and also did he mention before how fatty and greasy foods really help with the blood clotting. AND THEN he decided he would SHOW me how to do the neck stretching exercises. You tilt your head to the left for 30 seconds, the right for 30 seconds (at this point, YES he is not looking at the road to my horror. Not straight on anyways. But wait, it gets worse.) , up for 30 seconds, and ready ready.... DOWN for 30 seconds. So basically he didn't look at the road almost at all for 2 MINUTES. It was like a scene out of the crazy taxi driver arcade game. I nearly had a heart attack. I also had a Mcwings meal and was sitting in an igloo taxi which, according to Mr. taxi driver, essentially meant I was in prime blood clotting condition. i.e. I really was not in a good condition to receive this extremely stressful situation. He then proceeded to make a series of jokes about teachers being dishonest (lao3 shi1 bu4 lao3 shi2, get it get it? -.- Sigh.) and then tell me that he was very impressed I lived in a house. I should sit in taxis more often. Lol.

11.

2009-03-15T22:01:00.000+08:00

Worship went well today I thought. :] I also think I must remember to buy chicken pie tomorrow to bring to Jon's house. We have decided that Kegan can have honey stars (because Jon's... dog really enjoys honey stars) so that there leaves more pie for us. Mua-ha.

12.

2009-03-14T23:09:00.001+08:00

Tonight. I. Discovered. The. Joy. That. Is. MAHJONG. I love it so so much. Although I'm particularly crap at it. My intiation into the game largely involved me throwing out tiles accompanied with disappointed yelps of "NO! Don't!" by Linus, who was trying his level best to salvage my game. Still though, so much fun. I'm addicted.

12.

2009-03-14T01:35:00.000+08:00

Cause and effect.

If my father hadn't dragged me on the mission trip in 2004 because he wanted "family time" I probably wouldn't have met Lianne. If I hadn't met Lianne, I probably wouldn't have been okay with her going with us to Africa end 2007. If I hadn't spent time with her on that trip, I wouldn't have let myself be comfortable with her. If I hadn't let my guard down, we wouldn't be such good friends now.

New, but related, thread.

If my laptop hadn't crashed yesterday, I wouldn't have needed a new one. If I didn't need a new laptop, I wouldn't have asked Lianne to go get a new laptop with me Friday, Thursday night. If all the above hadn't happened, I wouldn't have asked her to come with me. If I hadn't asked her, she wouldn't have called me back to say she had worship but why don't I come along since I have nothing to do. If she hadn't invited me to worship practice, I wouldn't have gone.

And because I went, I strangely wound up singing. Which I normally never do. Acting I can do, because it's not me. It's my character. Piano, I'm behind a keyboard. But stuff like interviews, vivas, testimonies, SINGING. That's me. I can't stand behind anything and that scares the crap out of me. (Not literally.) With singing, it's my voice. It's not the character I'm playing, or the keyboard I'm playing that's in the forefront. It's... well, me. And while I'm happy to sit at home and boarderline yell-sing, standing in front of people I know but am not necessarily comfortable with is very different. In my mind anyways.

But, yeah. I have no idea what the heck I was doing. I have no idea why I asked. It doesn't fit. It's out of character. But I did it anyways and I don't know. I feel awkwardly comfortable. Like, and I hope this doesn't come out sounding pretentious, I've done something God planned to happen. 5 hours. AHH, I don't know. It's very difficult to explain. I don't share my feelings very often so I'm very unused to this. But this is so overwhelming. I don't know. (I've said that a lot tonight. "I don't know.") I think what it is is the realisation of the fact that I had strayed away. Realisation that what I started getting comfortable with and what I thought was believing and being in the presence of God, when really all it was was being empty.

I feel like laughing to myself because it's was so simple it was almost ridiculous. 5 hours ago I was like meh, whatever (very comprehensive expression. I know.) and now I just feel like all I ever want to do with the rest of my life is to worship Him and stay in His presence. Which I know I knew in theory before but when you feel like songs of worship and words of praise are just about brimming from your lips it's something else. To experience Him is something else. As a point of interest, it's also interesting how the last 5 hours have just drawn my attention away from certain distractions... *raises eyebrow at Lianne, that maybe have been distracting me from really focusing on God. 3 songs later... okay, still distracted. Haha. But at the same time I'm incredibly at peace with myself. And I find myself totally and utterly sure of the fact (another odd thing. I'm never sure of anything. I'm an insecure teenager. Sue me.) that I'm doing this to worship God. Not to impress Randall so he'll let me join his little band. Not to compete with Lianne, because she's so involved in church. Not to appease my mother who has been asking me to pleeeease do SOMETHING with my life. For God. Not all the other distractions at church. But out of wonderment and thanksgiving. Which is a super super big comfort to know, because I know then that I'm NOT distracted. Complicated as that sounds. Those "distractions" at church, then, are a seperate thing from me wanting to go to church. I can know that I have my priorities straight and that I'm am utterly focused on God. And while I'm not a rock, I'm not letting my personal short-term interests interfer with my relationship with God. And it's not even funny how long I've struggled with that.

So, alright. At the end of the day I'm just so glad for today. I'm glad for not being tone deaf. I'm glad for Lianne. I'm glad for Jason and Randall and Kegan. I can't even sleep, I'm like that excited. It wasn't a logical revelation or a rational epiphany of anything. All it was was me singing, and suddenly feeling right. And I really thank and praise God for that. Because while cause and effect rationally explains all that happen, it could have happened any other way. And while that can be non-religiously attributed to conincidence, that's a lot of coincidences that led to me even getting to that worship practice.

For the first time in a long while I feel like I have God in my heart again. :]

14.

2009-03-12T17:54:00.003+08:00

AHH. I have been continuously train watching House season 5 for the past 3 days and today I typed in episode 18 and realised that IT HAS YET TO AIR. I feel like an empty shell of myself. Probably how ethan hawke feels without me and Lianne *coughmainlymecough* all the time. I don't think I can carry on without Greg and James (yes, House and Wilson and I are on a first name basis.).

I think I might be getting slightly too involved in the lives of these FICTIONAL characters. Overcompensating for my own miserable excuse of a "life". Today I went for lunch with my grandparents at Raffles City though. Holding hands with them nonetheless. Haha. The three of us are awesome. I realise I am probably far to old too do that but I like it. One time I was holding my mother's hand in public (oh the shame. jk) and we ran into my English teacher at Plaza Singapura, whose reaction was to stare at our held hands and then smile at me quizzically while shuffling in the opposite direction, as if she was thinking "aw, that's cute. But why does your mother still need to hold your hand? Wait, did you take your medicine today?".

And in following with that sentimental habit, I did a "How Romantic Are You?" Quiz on Facebook just then.

Apparently, :
You are a CASUAL ROMANTIC
You have your moments. When the time is right, and the mood is perfect, your best comes out. Your job is to ensure that the time is always right and the mood is always perfect. Control that and you'll be a TIMELESS ROMANTIC.

15.

2009-03-11T23:57:00.002+08:00

I think my unfitness has reached epic levels. Today I suddenly felt like I couldn't breathe at the gym and had to lie down because my heart rate was getting too fast from "circuit training" which apparently most middle aged women are able to complete with no issues what so ever.

10 things that are typically me:
1. NOT exercising and grumbling and getting all upset when I have to.
*Point of information: The only reason I go for my gym escapades now is because in a moment of stupidity and weakness I signed for TEN lessons. Which I now realise was a grave, grave.... grave, GRAVE error.
2. Eating. (a sad consequence of having attended boarding school whereby I ravish anything that's vaguely edible)
3. Being unable to shop without gag reflexing.
4. Going into withdrawal without Doctor Who. Although if I divert my attention to other tv series like Bones and House it's not so bad.
5. Lying on fatboy.
6. Singing so loudly they put me in a seperate room.
7. Sleeping past midnight (past past midnight) and waking up after lunch.
8. Leaving my phone and wallet at home.
9. Getting unnaturally excited over motorcycles.
10. Wanting to be "grow up" to be every possible occupation on earth.

16.

2009-03-10T14:08:00.000+08:00

V for Vendetta has turned out to be super addicitive and so I've noticed little else in the world these few days. I'll check back into reality when I finish.

ALTHOUGH, as it turns out Lianne and I got super super lucky and have front-row-centre tickets for The Winter's Tale. i.e. Ethan will sure marry us already because we'll be directly in his eyeline right at the front the whole time.

18.

2009-03-09T14:38:00.000+08:00

I felt slightly unfulfilled today. While the rest of the nyams+nyamlet in tow went to the kelong, I helped Lianne complete her application form to run for council this whole afternoon, which climaxed in my genius idea of spelling MONKEYS with the first letters of each sentence of her answer to the question: describe the batch of 2010. Twas an idea which both she and I presumptiously assumed was a "brilliant" display of wit. Mistakenly so. When we presented our masterpiece to the world (ie. Yanka, Yi Loong and Uncle Yew Huat) we found that the world failed to share our enthusiasm. But she has thursday until she has to hand it in so she still has time to change it luckily. Although I maintain that it's one of my finer ideas, albeit fueled by Lianne's comment that her cohort was a bunch of monkeys. We just need to find a new sample group, right? Right??!! RIGHT!???!!

I have also begun the stroke-inducing-type-calibre-of-exciting countdown in the title to meeting-slash-marrying Ethan Hawke. I don't actually like him in actual fact. But it's a story to tell the grankids.

Darren also very kindly lent me 2 graphic novels today, which I took home proudly to my parents to prove to them that I do in fact have friends. Although my dad seemed to fail to grasp the concept of the sophistication involved in a graphic novel.

Me: Dad! Darren lent me these 2 graphic novels!
Dad: What's that?
Me: Graphic novels. Like novels but dramatised in pictorial representations of the plot.
Dad: ... So comics lah.
Me: No, they have a story. It's just drawn out in detail. Like storyboards.
Dad: So.... comics lah.

My mother seemed equally unimpressed.

Me: Darren lent me these 2 graphic novels!
Mum: Oh. (pause) Why are you still wearing your sweater? Not hot ah?
Me: Not really. Lianne's house and tanglin club and taka had air con.
Mum: And graphic what?
Me: Graphic novels.
Mum: GRAPHIC??!! (looks alarmed and then at the graphic novels) Oh comic lah.

2009-03-08T06:00:00.000+08:00

We watched Slum Dog Millionaire last night. Which I've watched before, but no one else had, so in the spirit of family I went also. Man, I love that show so much. But poor the rest of the family who had to spend the better part of the car ride home listening to me analyising the SWAT codes and the genre and budget and time constraints and stereotypes and representations etc. etc. of the film. Media production and analysis has ruined my life. I can no longer enjoy a show without trying to analyse how the producers intended the film to be read and countering that with negotiated and alternative readings of the "text" and then going on to consider the form and constraints of that form...

My sister and I want to memorise the dance at the end. It will blow your minds, world.

Yesterday I was also super depressed the whole day because it was the opening day of Watchmen, which I'm can't watch. My life is unfulfilled without that show. I still sometimes think about Underworld: Rise of the Lycans and weep a little tear.

BUT BUT BUT, last night my mother passed me this letter from Tattler that offered us tickets to the Gala Opening Night and cocktail reception to The Bridge Project's The Winter Tale. The one with... ready ready. ETHAN HAWKE. Okay, we have to pay a bit, BUT TO MEET ETHAN. And since no one in this household seems to really want to go, Lianne and I are gonna go and try to market ourselves to Ethan (which basically involves much swooning and basically flinging ourselves at him) in the hopes that he'll marry either of us. It's fool-proof man, our plan. Very sophisticated and well thought out.

Although of course we all know he's going to choose me lah.

2009-03-06T16:37:00.000+08:00

I'm blogging slightly late tonight because yesterday I very cleverly went to dye my hair blue-black. Which looks okay, since it just looks black. BUT when it's wet, eg when I wash it, the dye runs a bit and turns everything my hair touches slightly blue so I look like a moulting smurf. Hence I kept blogging until after showering so that my hair has time to dry. Anywhos, I went to watch Randall's band, SomethingElse, at far east this evening. They are actually super good. I'm very intimidated and simultaneously somewhat inspired. I think I should practice more. Miss Pang, my old music teacher who still has the misfortune of teaching my father and sister, looked quite sad when she asked me to sight-read a duet for her today. Although that might have just been residue despair from my sister's lesson. (Joking joking. I love my sister. She's awesome. Especially with her trade mark, C-G C-G C-G CGAB left hand. Very... distinct.)

Although I kinda need people to jam with. People who can follow my music. Someone. ANYONE. Haha. Today I was waiting for lunch so I sat at the piano and thought up an awesome piano version of Feel Good (by the Gorillaz? or whatever their name is. The ha ha ha ha ha ha song.) and I played it for my mum and she was like, "huh, what are you playing? Stop, stop, come and eat." And then I was like you are not impressed! So then I was like, no no, I'm determined to show you that you didn't waste your money on piano lessons for me, look how awesome your daughter is! Then I figured maybe she would know viva la vida since she's heard it on the radio a few times and said she liked it. So I played her that, and she was like, "what's that?" So I said coldplay and she was like "eh, you like them ah? Go to their concert lah. Anyway come and eat now. But don't eat too much, okay? You always say you're fat right? Otherwise how to lose weight." -.- Failed attempt at impressing my mum... as usual. Lol. My sister on the other hand, MUCH more simple to impress. You just have to be on your deathbed apparently. She wants to go to the Rod Stewart concert, because I quote "he's going to die already". The same is apparently applicable to Sir Ian Mckellen, whose version of King Leah we apparently did not in fact go to watch because he is the most amazing and awe-inspiring actor with the one of the most depth in delivery and stage presence of this era, as I had mistakenly assumed. No, no. We went because "he's going to die already".

2009-03-05T14:19:00.000+08:00

Midweek. Wednesday's child is full of woe, right? Symbollically filled with pain from my aching as a result my little field trips to the gym. I wasn't actually going to blog today, but then we sat down and watched american idol even though I suspect that Mei mei was meant to have been studying for her chem SPA (I love chem pracs!).

Mei mei: Eh, why that guy looks so funny?
Me: Um, he's scott. He's blind.
Mei Mei: .... Oh.

Ryan: "Jorge, from Puerto Rico...."
Mei mei: Is he even allowed in the competition?
(That sounds less funny here, but she really made it sound like he was an illegal immigrant trying to parade as an american. It was almost disgusted.)
Mei mei: And his eyebrows are a bit funny.... he's not blind also right?

For those of you who don't really follow American Idol, there's also this amazing singer called Lil Rounds which is such a cool sounding name. Yet, against the odds, my mother has single-handedly managed to make her name sound aunty.

Mum: What's that singer's name?
Mei and me: Lil Rounds
Mum: (pause) LEE-TERL rounds.

2009-03-04T14:10:00.000+08:00

Yet another indistinct day of boredom. Although I did go to the gym this morning (impressive), after which my mother picked me up and asked me how my endomorphins were. -.- When I pointed out that she probably confused animorphs* with endorphins, resulting in some mutant combination of both, she said that she knew that of course LAH, joking only. I told her I see, but secretly I think she was bluffing.
*animorphs: remember those books where the teenagers could like randomly morph into different animals and like save the earth and stuff? Man, I used to love reading those.

Anyway, my "endormorphins" were okay, but going to the gym for an hour managed to tire me so much that I went home and just slept for four hours(not so impressive). And apparently I didn't even do that much according to the trainer helping, who asked me kindly how long I had not exercised for. You could see the pity glazing her eyes when I said 2 years. She then proceeded as encouragingly as possible to tell me that I am super weak. How to join army like this?!

In a slightly more positive direction, I really am slowly becoming slightly more busy. For example, lianne and I might go and watch a movie on sunday after church. Although maybe not since according to her she's very busty (msn), so we'll see how that goes.

That example seems slightly forced in to this entry to me, but I just wanted to mention how busty lianne was. Lol.

And because I have time, let's do more myspace questions.

1. How old will you be in five years?
22.

2. Who did you spend at least 2 hours with today?
My mummy and fat boy.

3. How tall are you?
153cm.

4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?
I have no idea. All my meals?

5. What was the last movie you watched?
New in Town.

6. Who was the last person you called?
My mum. Man, I'm really starting to sound like slightly friendless.

7. Who was the last person to call you?
My... mum. It's just because it's a weekday, I swear! Haha.

8. What was the last text message you recieved?
Card balance.

9. Who was the last person to leave you a voice mail?
Hmm. I'm not sure how to access my voicemail on my new phone. Don't most people just hang up anyways?

10. Do you prefer call or text?
Call.

11. What were you doing at 12am last night?
Reading One Big Damn Puzzler by John Harding.

12. Are your parents married/seperated/divorced?
Married.

13. When was the last time you saw your mum?
Just then at dinner.

14. What colour are your eyes?
Dark brown.

15. Do you own slippers?
Of course lah. I am an aunty through and through.

16. What are you wearing right now?
My Heineken beer t-shirt and brown shorts.

17. What's your favourite christmas song?
I like a lot. Christmas is so fuzzy and marshmallowy. I love it.

18. Where's your favourite place to be?
At home.

19. Where's your least favourite place to be?
At the gym.

20. Africa - New Zealand - Japan?
AFRICA. Man, best holiday ever.

21. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
I live by the hour, baby.

22. Do you tan or burn?
Tan.

23. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
Gremlins.

24. What was the last thing that really made you laugh?
Lianne showing me her impression of my "sad" face. Although hearing how Kegan's bunk mate dances around in his underwear singing womaniser every night sometimes in skin coloured underwear is very close competition.

25. How many TVs do you have in your house?
3. But one doesn't get cable.

26. When did you last get into an arguement?
Uni applications. Slaps forehead. Bad times. But I don't enjoy actual arguing very much so I try to avoid it like death. Play arguing is pretty fun though.

27. Do you have a laptop or a desktop computer?
Laptop.

28. What colour are your walls?
Green.

29. How many pillows do you sleep with?
One.

30. What do you like about fall?
It's like air-con temperature.

31. What do you like about winter?
You can just get fat and no one every notices under all those layers.

32. What do you like about summer?
Sunshine.

33. What do you like about spring?
Whaa lao, this is getting tiresome. Please, only one season in singapore. There a lot of green around. Flowers and baby animals all that.

34. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
WITH.

35. What states have you lived in?
Strangely this question is applicable. Rochester, Minnesota. When I was like 4, for a year.

36. Do you prefer shoes, socks or bare foot?
Depends where. Whatever's the most sensible.

37. Are you a social person?
I prefer to be a quiet until I get to know people better. But yeah, sure.

38. What was the last thing you ate?
Half an apple. Sounds very healthy, right? But actually I had half a glazed donut from donut empire before lah.

39. Have you tried escargo?
YA. It's super yummy. But I wouldn't wanna eat it everyday.

40. What's your favourite ice cream?
Strawberry. But the ones with chunks of actual strawberries in them.

41. What is your favourite dessert?
Baked Alaska.

42. Have you drank a Shirley Temple?
Nope. I've tried drinks before but I haven't actually drunk drunk any alcohol really.

43. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
Strawberry.

44. Do you like Chinese food?
Not really. But my family does, so we eat it quite a bit.

45. Do you like coffee?
Once in a while. But caffine keeps me up so not at night.

46. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average?
I haven't really noticed. I shall try to notice one day.

47. What do you drink in the morning?
Soya bean milk or milo.

48. How often do you shower?
Once usually at night. Maybe twice if I'm feeling very free in the morning.

49. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
My bed has no space to sleep on a side. :( But I do tend to sleep on my side.

50. Do you know how to play poker?
I bought a poker for dummies pack once. But I never got round to learning. It looks complicated.

2009-03-03T12:46:00.000+08:00

The shame of doing nothing has nodded me in the direction of the somewhat more pride-worthy claim of at least upkeeping a blog. Or some semblance of one anyways. Although what I'm going to wring out of my distinctly activity-less life to fuel my hideous progeny I have no idea.

Those last ones were of my newly furbished study by the way. I like it. My mum and sister evicted me from the real study because I was playing my opera music too loudly.

Also enough nostalgia has set in from uploading those photos for me to brave one of those 50 myspace questions just for old time's sake:

1. Are you wearing a hat?

Um, no. Why would I be wearing a hat??

2. Bottled water, yes or no?

Sure. But I'm fine with like tap water or whatever as well. I have an iron stomach.

3. Do you have a crush on someone right now?

Telling would just take the mystery out of me, wouldn't it. Destroy my femme fatale image that I totally carry off.

4. What kind of laptop do you have?

Sony. Vaio.

5. Do you prefer writing in pen or pencil?

Pencil, but I write in pen more often.

6. Who was the last text message in your phone from?

I have no idea where I've put it at the moment. As usual.

7. What's your favourite season?

Monsoon.

8. Does your best friend have a boyfriend or girlfriend?

I don't really have a best best friend. I have a lot of really good friends though.

9. Do you like them?

Their partners -- I have no idea. I haven't met most of them. But I clearly like my good friends if that's what you're asking.

10. Favourite radio station?

Symphony 92.4. Stop laughing.

11. Type your name into Google. What's the first link that pops up?

If it's just my first name all this random sites about Alyssa Milano (who as a point of interest actually was the inspiration for my name, says my mum. She would know, since she grew me.), if it's with my surname, Abigil Tan's facebook strangely. And full name, the Singapore: Raffles Girls' School Alumni List.

12. What's your favourite song at the moment?

I'm not sure I should admit this on a public website, but Non Ti Fidar, from Mozart's Don Giovanni.

13. Coke or Pepsi?

Coke.

14. Favourite subject at school?

Biology. Although chem comes a super close second.

15. Last concert?

I've... never been to a concert. For shame.

16. Next concert?

Are you going to buy the ticket for me?

17. Last magazine you bought?

I don't really read magazines so I never buy them but I have a subscription to national geographic and time magazine. The last magazine I read was "Motor asia Culture -- Singapore's Leading Bike Magazine" which my dad bought for me. $3 only!

18. Last book you read?

Confessions of an Ugly Stepsister by Gregory Maguire. I'm reading One Big Damn Puzzler by John Harding at the moment.

19. Do you prefer cats or dogs?

Cats.

20. Is there someone you want to punch right now?

Not really. Make love not war right. We just learnt this sunday in lg that we're not suppose to hate and be violent and murder and all that some more.

21. Favourite sports team?

I respect them all for being committed and talented enough to play professionally. Sounds so cheesy but really really.

22. State you most want to visit?

Aiyah, all you americans. Think your country is the world. I don't really want to go anywhere at the moment. I just want to settle back down in singapore for a bit.

23. Are you a MySpace addict?

Facebook is so much better dude.

24. When do you shower?

Before I go to sleep. Or before I go out for a more formal function. Or after the gym.

25. What's your dream job?

Wildlife conservation researcher.

26. What kind of car do you drive?

In Perth, I used to drive a light blue Toyota Corolla. But my dad just bought me a blue Yamaha Spark 135 motorcycle for when I pass my 2B license.... if I pass.

27. What word in the dictionary best decribes you?

I don't think it's fair to choose because I don't really know all of them. I've tried to read the dictionary like a few times now and I never get past A.

28. What's your blog address?

You clearly know if you're here.

29. Worst TV show at the moment?

Moment of Truth.

30. Are you a better talker or listener?

Listener when it comes to serious stuff. But if it's just random stuff then talker. But I tend to only talk about serious stuff to people I'm comfortable which takes me a while so I would say more the second.

31. Do you care about how wins the election?

Sure I did. But I wasn't overly fanatical about it.

32. Who was the most popular kid in your 7th grade class?

I have no idea. I don't think I really noticed who was popular and who wasn't. I'm a bit blur.

33. Are you afraid of ghosts?

No.

34. Is there something lacking in your life right now?

Life can always be different but as long as I am right with God then I lack nothing.

35. What do you miss most about your childhood?

People thinking that I would grow more one day.

36. How many times did it take you to pass your drivers' test?

We shall see.

37. How many kids do you want?

I'm slightly too young to decide at the moment. But i would like to think it would be a mutual decision between my husband and me in any case.

38. Are you a good liar?

Not really.

39. Can you cook?

I'm not very consistent. Sometimes my stuff turns out well and then sometimes it tastes weird.

40. Are you a cheapskate?

I'm not extravagent but I'm not particularly cheap either, I don't think. I'm pretty simple is all.

41.What would you do with a million dollars?

Buy as much doctor who merchandise as I could.

42. Have you been to Disneyworld?

YES. I love disney. I really want to go work as one of the character princesses that come out to meet you except, firstly: I would have to be either jasmine or mulan because I'm asian, which is slightly restrictive and second: Apparently they don't really wash the costumes well so you tend to get like rashes and warts and stuff from them.

43. How much time do you spend online a week?

Far too much.

44. Last time you went bowling?

Early January. I can't remember exactly.

45. Hot or cold weather?

Hot.

46. How many pairs of shoes do you have?

I have more old pairs lying around, but I usually only use the same 4 or 5 pairs.

47. Are you a shop-o-holic?

I hate shopping. It literally makes me nauseous.

48. Where were you yesterday morning at 10.30?

Church.

49. Are you afraid of the dentist?

I'm not really afraid. I just don't enjoy going to get my teeth checked. I don't like health-related

checking in general.

50. Were you bored or entertained by this survey?

Dude, after 4 months of doing nothing, I'm entertained by anything.