I have 10 mins to kill before I head up for class so I'm sitting at the sofas in school and there's this exchange student in front of me talking on skype to some relative or maybe girlfriend or boyfriend. Although I suppose a girlfriend slash boyfriend is also relatively a relative.

Anyways, it reminds me of being away from home, in the boarding house. Of course we didn't even have skype in school though. Apparently it costs a lot. On hindsight I miss the environment quite a lot, but I choose the comfort of being around my family and the people I love the most any day. There's something about being able to just say I love you anytime, to be able to be yourself completely, be a freak and still be accepted and loved and to be able to physically see and touch the people who you love and who love you back. Makes it easier to get through the day. Makes time go faster than when you're alone in your cubicle of a room in the boarding house. It's so werid but one of the memories I have from boarding school is the feeling of really wanting to be hugged. I think I tried skyping on weekends for a while but I just gave up after a while because it just felt really awkward. I hate seeing myself on the computer screen. Ugly. Haha. And I end up scrutinising how I looked more than anything. But I think if we hadn't been so lucky as to have been able to fly up and down to see each other so often I might have eventually gotten over my narcissism.

In any case, today is just one of those days where I am happy. When you read this in conjunction with my last post I realise this makes me sound a bit bi-polar but oh well. Haha. I'm not kay. I'm not! Really I'm not! I'M NOT. D: Haha.

Tried to catch up on my readings today. Cherissa and I have a date with the dean's list this year (my foot). But as it were my body decided that it had better things to do, cue this splitting migrane that I've been having since the early afternoon. Story of my life. But I took a few pain killers gave myself a few hours for a nap and dinner and should probably head back to try and read some more or at least start on my tutorials soon.

It's been a week since the start of the new academic year and already I want to escape again. In fact I don't really remember how I made it through year one (mostly facebooking through lectures, copying muggers for tutorials and sleeping in between). Probably why they tell you you should choose a course your interested in. I feel like I'm on a 4 year bad date with the ugliest more boring and obnoxious man child possibly conceiveable. Just the continuous pain of wanting to be anywhere but here constantly, then, now and all the time. Maybe my headache today is a physical manifestation. Some psychosomatic symptom of my inner frustration at this retarded course. Yuck. Whatever the cause, the pain is making me a grumpy bunny.

Generally I try to remind myself not to whine too much. Life is not as bad as all that. There's stuff to be thankful for along the way as there always is and has always been in every phase of my life. Best to just suck it up and make the best out of where I am now. Today is just a grumpy day. Where everything is just slightly irritating but not irritating enough for me to be fully pissed, just enough for me to on edge. My dad of course conveniently attributes my headache and irritability to pms. -.-

To relieve some of my exams stress I have intermittenly been making friendship bands. But because I take a lot of breaks and I'm usually at home alone I have a lot and I just put them on myself. High five.

Mei: (in reality she said my friendship band on my wrist looked weird but I'm rewriting this part) WOW. Your friendship band on your wrist looks awesome! :D :D :D
Me: I have more on my ankle want to see? :D (reveals the super awesome collection of friendship bands on my ankle)
Mei: Wow. If you make anymore you don't have to wear clothes anymore. Just friendship bands all around your body.