Milo (my godparents' rabbit) was gathered to God yesterday. :( Like in the afternoon I think. He was a good bunny. On a considerably more cheerful note, Liz and Kaye introduced me to TTR (TAP TAP REVENGE) yesterday everning. BEST IPHONE GAME EVER!!! Also, my facebook note that I recently did about the people I'd spend a year in the same house with seems to have rendered a much more enthusiastic response than I would have ever thought. Haha.

Aiyoh, my thoughts seem to be all over the place today. Anyways, I went over to Joseph's house today to wrap mothers'-day-flowers with my life group to sell at church tomorrow. But I had to leave half way to go for our family mothers' day lunch so when I came back they were virutally almost finished and didn't really need my help anymore. So I sat down and had a nice deep and meaningful session with Lovely Lionel and Awesome Aunty Soo Ming. It was actually really good timing again. God-sent.

It's just recently I feel like I'm just waiting and waiting. Like I'm waiting for university and I'm waiting for friendships to mature and I'm waiting to learn to drive, to ride my motorcycle, waiting for the weekends so that I hang out with friends... There are moments when I find myself counting down to things. Like I'll think of the number of days left I have to just get through until sunday when I can see my church friends again and have a bit of a good time just messing about. Or more usually, the number of hours left till dinner la. Haha. But yes, feels like I'm wasting a lot of time away. It's not that I'm not doing anything. It's just I don't enjoy what I'm doing in particular. I'm just floating through, going through the motions to pass the time. Drifting, I guess. And it bothers me sometimes. But what hit me most during our conversation today, even though I really didn't dare say much while Aunty Soo Ming was sharing, was that you don't have to know what the heck you're doing or where you're going all the time. I suppose because I've always grown up raised by my super-organised mum that never really occurs to me much. Which is not a bad thing, but it's nice to keep being reminded that it's alright not to be in control all the time. At the end of the day, I know that whatever happens, God has let it happen, and He's let it happen for a reason, according to His plan. And always always His plan is the best that anyone could have for me and if I don't know or don't understand His plan, I don't mind. It doesn't matter. All I have to do is to listen out and obey. Even my devotions recently have been discussing how we should live in the present and not worry, and to surrender ourselves and all our efforts to God fully and stuff like that. Like I said, a lot of these really God-sent messages that have really comforted and encouraged me these past few days. I mean, I'm wasn't upset or sad or anything but I guess I was just feeling a bit aimless. I'm still aimless now, it's just I need (and I really thank God that he keeps helping me out here) to keep being reminded constantly that I shouldn't be bothered by it. I know that God has a plan for my life and I can't wait to find out what that plan is and how He will use me for His work, but I don't have to know what that plan is. I just need to carry out that plan as he guides me through it. I don't even know who I am yet. Haha. My ambitions in life change according to the latest "interesting" job I've thought about and I still have yet to outgrow my "I'll never grow up" phase (very mature. Yes, I know.). And I can't even tell you the exact status of my relationship with God because I don't know what it is. And that's okay. Because I do know that He is my life and I know that no matter how far I slip or fall, He'll always bring me back around to him and I don't ever want to live any other way.

Okay, better curb myself before I start hyper-expositioning again. But that was the gist of my thoughts of the day. Meh, Singapore has made me a gaylord, so soppy. Haha.

P.s. CONGRATS LIZ ON MAKING NUS DENTISTRY AND LIANNE FOR MAKING COUNCIL. REALLY REALLY PROUD OF YOU GUYS! YAY! :D