In the name of pretending to study. RANDOM FACEBOOK NOTE QUESTIONS! AGAIN!!!! <3

"Have you ever's"

Fell asleep in the arms of the opposite sex?
Yes. Hoho scandal.

Ever physically fought with a member of the opposite sex?
YES. -.- Have you seen how small I am. It would feel more like a massage for whoever I was fighting. Or “fighting”.

Ever walked in on your friends having sex?
Not yet. It’s on my to do list. So friends... SOUND OUT! (-.- What type of question?)

Ever sang to the person you like?
Nope, but he’s heard me sing to other people.

Is there anyone who likes you?
Pretty sure. Haha.

Do you believe ex's can be friends?
Meh. Maybe.

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?
Fat Boy.

Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
No.

What is/are your favorite color/s?
Blue and green.

Are you a shy person?
When I first meet people.

What are you excited for?
Life! HAHA.

Do you have memories that you want to forget?
I guess you learn from the rubbish stuff as well, so not really.

If you could cry right now, what would be the reason?
Cry. What’s this. Must maintain macho image lah.

Are you happy?
Sure. :]

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
I hope so. Haha.

Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
Shorts.

Do you hate seeing happy couples?
Um, YES. Especially when I look in the mirror.

If you went to jail, who would bail you out?
My mum, I guess. I think. I hope.

How tall are you?
153cm. Shuddup.

When was the last time you were actually happy?
I’m quite happy all the time one lah. Haha.

How long does it take you in the morning to fix your hair?
2 seconds. No seriously.

Have you ever played spin the bottle?
Yah.

Do you have a good relationship with your mother?
Yupp.

Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
Fortunately, no.

Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?
One.

Have you ever wondered how they make lines in toothpaste?
I figured out how they do it from the discovery channel. I think it’s more interesting that some random bo liao person THOUGHT of the idea of making the lines though. Freak.

Do you ever feel curious about how people see you?
Sure.

When is the next time you will kiss someone?
I’ll look into my schedule. See when I can fit my next kiss in and get back to you.

Do you find smoking unattractive?
Yeah, but strangely I find the lingering smell after attractive. Don’t ask me how that works. But still lah. Don’t smoke kids. Bad for your health.

Who was your crush in 5th grade?
LOL. I CANNOT REMEMBER. I liked a lot of people.

What is your biggest fear about making a total commitment to someone?
I dunno. I think even if stuff like that doesn’t work out, you learn from the experience as well so. NO FEAR. WOOT. Haha. Aiyoh. Don’t overthink, please.

Have you ever suspected anyone cheating on you?
Who would cheat on me lah please. Haha. But yeah, no.

Do you remember who you liked on New Years?
Yah. Chew.

Are you someone who worries too often?
Lol. I don’t think so.

Could things possibly get any better?
Better is relative I’m happy where I am now lah.

Have you consumed alcohol in the past 24 hours?
No.

Have you ever been in a situation where you had to be around your ex everyday?
No. Heng. Thanks.

Have you ever been in a car accident?
Not yet. We will see. Lol.

If you could have something right now, what would it be?
I have no idea what you’re asking. Haha.

Do you like sushi?
Sure.

What can you currently hear?
DAVID ARCHCULETA’S ZERO GRAVITY!!! <3<3<3

Whats the last pinkie promise you made, and to who?
HAHA. Jian kai and chee yao. That they would read my now deleted post and not tell anyone about it. We ACTUALLY pinkie promised.

Have you ever cleaned up someone else's vomit?
Ew. No. Thanks.

Is there anyone home?
I think so. I’m not sure.

The person you fell hardest for died today, how would you feel?
Aiyoh. What type of sadistic quesstion.

Have you kissed someone in 09 that means a lot to you?
I’m sure you’d like to know.

Something tragic just happened, does your facial expression show it?
I guess I’d just look stoned. As usual.

Do you miss someone?
I know you miss me more.

So, what do you want for your birthday?
Chew. Muackz.

Does any part of your body hurt right now?
My heart. Pining for.... CHEW!

Would you ever work at McDonalds?
I DID. HAHA.

Are any of your Facebook TOP friends gay/bi/ lesbian?
Haha. Not that I know.

Would you care if you saw the person you like, kissing someone else?
YES. Haha.

Did you see a boy today that made you smile?
Yupp, I stared for a while... Then I went to meet charles. JKJK.

What are you doing tomorrow?
Pretending to study.

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Mum bought it.

Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow?
Um... how bout, NO.

Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
Probably.

Do you love anyone right now?
Love is a big word.

Is it easy to make you cry?
No.

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Yes.

Were you happy when you woke up?
No. I’m never a happy bunny when I wake up.

Does the person you like, like you back?
Yah. :]

If any, name a lyric from the song you're listening to?
ZERO GRAVITY!!!

Do you want someone to call you right now?
Will that make me popular? Then, YES.

If someone liked you right now would you want to know?
Sure. Lol.

Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
Not really.

When was the last time you had butterflies?
When I looked in the mirror. HAHA.

Who do you want to see right now?
Got mirror annot?

Did you mean "I love you" when you said it last?
I rarely say it. Haha. Probably last said it to my mum so yah, I guess I did.

Do you get upset over the opposite sex easily?
No.

When you say you don't care do you mean it?
Not always. But most of the time lah.

What would you do if someone called you handsome/beautiful?
Say thanks I guess.

Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
I smiling threshold very low one lah.

Who wαs the lαst person you hαd α deep conversαtion with?
Charles.

Where were you αt 4:00 this morning ?
Um, sleeping. Sorry I not so hardcore.

Whαt's the cd in your plαyer?
I always burn my own.

Cαn you count to ten in more thαn one lαnguαge αnd whαt lαnguαge?
English and Chinese. Sorry, science student lah.

Who is the lαst person to tell you they love you?
My mum?

Did you kiss or hug αnyone todαy?
HAHA. Who’s asking?

Is your current hαir color mostly your nαturαl hαir colour?
No. Lian.

Is your bed big enough for you?
NEVER.

Whαt wαs the reαson behind the lαst time you lαughed?
When I saw myself in the mirror. I’m too ridiculously good looking liao.

Hαve you ever lαughed so hαrd you cried?
Yeah.

What is your favourite thing αbout being sick?
Can sleep more. Much, much more.

Do you look αt the keyboαrd when you type?
Not really.

When wαs the lαst time someone confessed to liking you?
KPO.

Is it eαsy for others to mαke you feel αwkwαrd?
Yah.

Do you like to look up αt the stαrs αt night?
Singapore got stars meh. This question fail.

Bright or dαrk room?
Dark.

Me: Oh man, go home and do work liao. Diee. Yesterday I slacked off some more, so today I have EXTRA SUPER A LOT of work to do. Sigh.
Poh poh: (in all seriousness) Eh, but your law school work... can bullshit one annot?

HAHAHA. I've NEVER heard her use that kind of language before. LOL. I love my family man.

My friends as well. Haiz. Haha. My daily overdose of spasticness.

Joelle: (to some random pseudo-insult which I can't for the life of me recall now) I PUT CHILLI IN YOUR EYE MAN.
Chee Yao: Eh (shakes head) wah lau, your husband next time very poor thing leh. (proceeds to act out the whole scene...) Go to work, then people ask him, eh why your eye so red?? Oh, my wife put chilli in my eye.

What the?? Thank you for your intellectual comment chee yao.

Charles: But I know I'm your favourite prince lah.

THICK SKINNED MUCH. Gao wei. Haha. There were many other spastic instances abound, but I'm lazy to document them all. Haha. Some other time maybe. I need to go and read my notes now though. Haha. SLACK. I'm dead. But today was a good day. A really really good. day. :]

I've decided that law school is gross. There's a ridiculous amount of mugging and a general aura of hardworkingness around. And while that's nice and lovely for all these nerds here I've decided that since I can't keep up anyways, I may as well aim to pass and place the fragile eggs of my future in the solid marry-a-rich-dean's-lister-husband-so-I-can-be-a-tai-tai basket. Steady. (pom pee pee. The other day I was talking to cheryl on msn and I spelt it as bom bee bee. Which received a surprisingly violent attack on my poor spelling from her. Happy now cheryl? Happy! HAPPY??!!! Lol.)

I haven't blogged in precisely a month. Haha. Rusty, rusty. My thoughts are all over the place. But given that I've given up on law school, don't worry fans, I shall have much more time to share my awesome thoughts with the world. Rejoice.

Rag was sooo much fun. Much eediocy slash spasticness. But I've really been blessed with all the raggers. I feel like inadeqaute and awesome at the same time whenever I'm around them man. Very weird. Haha. They're all these amazingly talented brilliant super funny lovely people (don't tell them I said that though. Stupid ego freaks. Haha.) and I can't help but love all of them muchly. Muackz wox. Haha.

Okay, stop stop. Before I become all gay and mushy.

BUT (at this point, I'm switching to emo mood. My teenage hormones require of it of me.). I don't really think I'm meant to be here. I'm struggling to get the bare minimum done. I'm really glad I met all these fantastic people here and I love them so so much, but I hate it here. I'm sorry but I do. I hate the work. I hate knowing that I'll never be able to really give my time to singing or acting or researching random animals that no one reeally cares about. Because now I have to read about contract and torts and international relations, per quod servitium amisit, loss of consortium, Scott, Jones v Browns (that's pronounced Jones AND Browns), Spandeck Engineering...

And I don't know what I'm doing agian. I think for a while the novelty of everything, being in school with new people and new things to do made me think that maybe it'd be alright. But it's not. And I'm not doing okay. I wake up every morning and I just wait the day through. I wait so that I can go back to sleep and not wake up tomorrow because I hate law school. I don't want to do well and I'm not worried because I really don't care.

I'm really trying to focus my attention on other things. I just joined NUS choir. Which is fun. Yayy. Haha. But it's not really enough to keep me going. I dunno lah. I just feel empty. Like directionless. Very menopausal. If I were 50 and becoming periodless, I would assume this is about how I would feel.

Life should be more than this right. I shouldn't be waiting my way through it. There were tons of other people dying to get into law school. Like why would God put me here and not them. I'm not like everyone else here. I'm not driven, I'm not particularly smart (I could go on for a while but then I'd just start to sound loserish. Haha.)... I'm the closet geek who makes you laugh (tries lah) and knows random quite interesting facts about animals (I seriously do, I spend my subject prize book voucher on a book about them last year. Lol.). I'm not the rafflesian from law school. I'm just not. And there's nothing I can do about it. But I can't stand not doing anything either. Everyday I draft up some new exciting plan to run away. I'm 18 though, I shouldn't be thinking how much my life sucks yet. I'm not even anywhere near midlife crisis. And yet, my depressed-o-meter is on an all time high. I dunno. Maybe it's culture shock as well. Two years away has left me sorely and utterly behind in the academic motivation department.

Usually I would sleep this type of stuff over. But law school, no time to sleep also. :(

And there's all this other rubbish as well that bothering me muchly. But inappropriate to mention here. Haha. Whoa, first entry in a month and all this angst. Nevermind, nevermind. In the name of practicing communicating my thoughts and ideas with clarity and precision lah huh.

Ahem. (Must clear throat for this announcement. That's how exciting it is. Wait for it, wait for it...)

After years of the topic being in fierce deliberation, today I finally dyed my hair blue. Two streaks from the side of my head behind both my ears. They're not very noticable but you can still see it. Okay lah, I was bit chicken and did only thin streaks and at the sides so I can hide if I want and people won't stare at me weirdly. But still, rebel ah? Naice. I'm not pro enough a camwhore to be able to take a blog-worthy photo of my hair but think CJC shirt blue. But, yes. I feel like my life is complete now. Joy.

Then, we went black angus at btc for my early birthday dinner. Yumm. I wasn't in full form because I'm not feeling too good today. Slept the whole afternoon away. But we had a good meal together which was fun. I think my grandmother may have had a bit too much wine over dinner though:

Mum: "You're eating all the cookie base off mei's cake, poh poh. Eat more of the whole cake."
Poh poh: "I thought it tasted like coffee."
Everyone: *cue "HUH?? We catch no ball." face.
Grandpa: -.- (steps in to explain, obviously accustomed to years of her randomness) "You see, poh poh speaks in riddles."

Poh poh: (points at the saddle above the entrance) "You all see, that's a black angus. The head of a black angus."
Everyone: ....
Mei: "That's... a saddle."
Poh poh: "Oh. HAHA. I thought the centre was the head and flaps at the side were just very very large ears."

LOL. You light up my life, poh.

Oh, and it has been brought to my attention that I should probably revise my sense of fashion. SOON. Yesterday, and the privateer girls got our golden pampers (the final and BEST part of our costume) to bring home after rag.

My maid took it out of my bag and... put it in my closet with all my shorts. Apparently the lovely bloomers look like something I would employ in my everyday look. This is in comparision to audrey's hwa chong PE shirt (I borrowed it from her to wear on friday since we decided that yesterday was hwa chong day! Hurray. Go see facebook photos.) which my maid decided probably wasn't something I would wear (not smart enough, is it. IS IT.) and put on the chair in our room. -.-

Rag is eating my life. Haha. In a good way I guess. Although I miss just spending the day in the fat den (it's my study. My family decided to give me a room to contain my awesomeness.) and singing and quasi-dancing my way through the boredom of the day (Okay la, actually it was to contain the noise.). Good times good times. Best part is, the fat den has a big window that faces the windows of the neighbour's house, so I can share my singing slash dancing with them. But haven't had time to share the joy with them for so long already. So long that today, when I played my high school musical soundtrack to myself after rag, I MADE MISTAKES. Oh the horror. Must practice, must practice. Shame is not knowing all the parts to all the songs from high school musical. I feel like I fail as a person. My life is incomplete. Especially since cheryl keeps missing bits of rag rehearsals. FOR SHAME. Lol. Jkjk. Dear cheryl, please come for rag more. I have no friends whenever you leave. No one else understand all my rubbish. (Too sophisticated lah. LOL. Jk.) Haha. It's actually quite sad. You're the only one who laughs at my loser jokes. Naice. :D

Also I would like to say, I like to think I brought great pride and honour to the Nyam family by waking up early today to swim before going for rag. Start training for water polo already. Veh on. -.- As if. Anyways, ya, I swam 50 LAPS. Okay, granted my pool is a bit small but still divide by 2 and that's still well within the impressive zone. Good work me. Unfortunately I also ate macdonalds today for dinner with the raggers. Not so good work. I actually wasn't going to eat with jiankai and vince (By the way. Vince is the unfortunate soul whose shoulder I sit on to enter for the rag routine. It's not even both his shoulders. JUST ONE. Haha. AND AND at the end, he's one of the guy's whose leg I stand on also. So he has to bear my weight TWICE. Lucky lucky him. By the end of rag, confirm grow shorter.) Anyways, but I was really super hungry. I explained this to a very sympathetic jiankai and vince:

Jiankai: I thought you said you didn't want to eat?
Me: Ya, but I'm realy super hungry. Actually I'm always hungry. But today I'm really super super hungry.
Vince: *eyes widen in fear* You're always super hungry. That's very worrying for me to hear. Whatever goes into her, goes on top of me.

I was already starving from the late afternoon. I bought like 5 packets of wang wang from the vending machine in my desperation. Again, vince and his sympathetic responses:

Me: *to vince, offering him a wang wang* You want?
Vince: If I don't eat it, will you eat it?
Me: Yes.
Vince: *with the "oh no, more weight!" look in his eyes, grabs the wang wang quickly and eats it*

Haha. Poor vince. And poor zheng yu as well. I have to umbrella roll over him. Oodles of fun for him I'M SURE. Haha. The other day I landed weirdly on his back and I think I felt his back buckle. He was super nice about it but I'm pretty sure I'm slowly crushing his back. Bit. By. Bit. I'm really not made for grace. Haiz. I'm more of a macho water polo player, yo. WATER POLO FOR THE WIN. Yeah, man. Lol. For the record, I was never and am not a water polo player, I just joined because cheryl was strongly encouraging me to join with her (and I'm a damn good friend. Jkjk.). I really have no idea what I'm doing, so I just am going full out in my enthusiasm for the sport in the hopes that they'll still accept me based on brownie points awarded for effort. Smart right.

Water polo!!! Woot.

Yong neng and Bob both said they read my blog today! :D So popular ah. Naice. Haha. In celebration of the fact that my sister is no longer the sole reader and faithful follower of this blog, I'm reviving it. Yes, I hear the call of my fans screaming for more, and I will answer. Rejoice fans, revel in your joy.

At the matriculation fair today, I joined the NUS choir (or I took the flyer. Must audition. Don't joke, okay. I should audition with High School Musical songs. Blow their socks of by singing BOTH troy and gabriella's parts. Naice. Sure get in.), Radio and ready, WATER POLO. I was very encouraged by my ENTIRE family bursting out laughing when I did the big reveal about what I signed up for over dinner. I keep telling myself that I'm totally going to OWN at it in the hopes that my sense of self-belief will override my epic un-fitness and make me super atheletic suddenly.

Also, after dinner mum brought out these macarons and cupcakes. OMG. I was dancing while I was eating them. ESPECAILLY THE MACARONS. They're the most amazing and deliciously scrumptious macarons I've ever tasted. I didn't even get a chance to take a picture of them because I was TOO BUSY EATING THEM. I will think of them fondly with EVERY love song I ever hear from now on. YES. THEY ARE THAT GOOD. I kid you not. Seriously.When I took the first bite, I wanted to roll on the floor and hug the rest of it. They are very swoon worthy. If I had only $2 left in the world, I would a macaron (Ya, one cost $2. A lot of money to part with for a macaroon... UNTIL YOU PUT IT IN YOUR MOUTH. Then all you can think of is where you're gonna get another $2 SO YOU CAN BUY ANOTHER ONE.). I'm getting a macaron cake for my birthday, man.

Oh, and Happy Belated TWENTY-THIRD Birthday, Justyn! Every day you get older and wiser and more retarded. To quote joseph, "Have a blessed birthday. Thanks for being such a lousy leader." But we still love you lah, huh. :]

Whaa, such a good looking group of youngsters. Can't stand it.

My grandparents and I have good conversations in the car.

Poh poh: Did you watch Michael Jackson's Memorial the other day!??
Me: A little bit. Why?
Poh poh: Eh! Got a lot of celebrities that attended. Linal Richie.
Grandpa: LIONEL.
Poh poh. Lionel, lionel Richie. Mar- mar- what Car- something
Grandpa: Marie? Carrie is it? Marie Carrie?
Poh poh: Marah.
Grandpa: Maria.
Me: Mariah Carrie?
Both of them: YA.
Poh poh: And Macdonald.
Grandpa: Madonna.


Also, I feel the need to document dad's very witty moment the other day while andrea and I went to watch him operate. (As a disclaimer of sorts, at this point I should probably quickly explain that andrea's a third year med student back on holiday so my dad thought it would be good exposure for her to see so I just tagged along. I don't usually just randomly go into operations to stand in the way of everyone. Almost never actually. This was like only my thrid time or something like that in my life. One of the OT nurses thanked me profusely when I left because my dad seemed like in a super good mood today. I assume because I was visiting and was being quite impressed by his skills. So he was quite a proud bunny. But I thought it was quite funny that the nurse was sooooo thankful that he was in a good mood. LOL. Oh dad. What type of reputation have you created for yourself. Haiz. Nevermind. I still wuv you.)

Dad: (explains as he operates): You have to get on the right plane while cutting through the __(insert some technical anatomic term here). Otherwise it'll bleed. Plane, not like aeroplane

*Pause. At this point I'm like -.- Oh no dad. What type of joke is that. How wrong I was. Wait for it, wait for it...

Dad: but it's the same concept. Because if you get on the right plane, it'll take you home.

WHAA. I must say I was utterly and completely and fully and totally stunned by the random attack of witty-ness. High five dad. Even though I know you totally thought of that like agggggeeeesss ago and have probably been waiting for like months (possibly years. Haha.) to pull that line out naturally in the course of conversation. I KNOW. Don't pretend. I'm your daughter. I KNOW. Haha. But it's okay. It was like a profound statement disguised as a lame joke some more. Lol. Applause applause man. Really really very impressed. Good work dad. :D

I just watched He's Just Not That Into You Today. Hyperventilate, much. Hurray. I couldn't find the clips on youtube, so transcripts will just have to do.

Gigi: [Answering machine answers, Gigi's voice:] Or call my cell, or try me at work but definitely leave a message here first. Thanks!
Alex: Hey, Gigi. It's Alex, um, how's it going? [He starts to pace]
Alex: Uh, just wondering how you're doing. I haven't talked to you in a little while and, uh, just wondering how you're doing. [He sits on the couch]
Alex: So... I was hoping to talk to you... obviously. But you're out, I guess. So, just call me some time. Or tonight, uh, in around... uh, I'll be in around... that's, that's... not... now. It's Alex. Okay. [He hangs up the phone]
Tyrone: Dude.
Alex: [He looks down] I know.

Gigi: [opens the door, thinking it's Bill] Did you forget something?
Alex: Yeah...
Gigi: Really? What did you forget?
Alex: [pulls out a promotional pen from his pocket] This.
Gigi: So you came all the way here at 11 o' clock in the night to give me a promotional pen?
Alex: Yeah... Yeah, I did. I thought I would come up with some really great excuse to get over here. That's how it's done, right?
Gigi: [smiles] Sometimes.
Alex: Look, I can't stop thinking about you. I... It's a problem. I drive by your place; I call and hang up; I've turned into...
Gigi: Me.
Alex: Yeah.
Gigi: A wise person once told me that if a guy wants to be with a girl, he will make it happen, no matter what.
Alex: That's true.
Gigi: But when I was hurling my body onto yours, you did not seem to want to make it happen.
Alex: Okay, yeah, here's the thing about that... You were right. I'd gotten so used to keeping myself at a safe distance from all these women and having the power that, that I didn't know what it felt like when I actually fell for one of them... I didn't know.
Gigi: Look, I just went out with your friend Bill. He might be just exactly what I need. No drama, he calls; he does what he says...
Alex: [stepping closer] I can do that stuff too...
Gigi: But you didn't! And that same wise person told me that I'm the rule. That I have to stop thinking that every guy will change, that I have to stop thinking that...
Gigi: [Alex kisses her] [smiles]
Gigi: ... I'm the exception...
Alex: [whispers] You are *my* exception.
[they kiss again]

Sigh. I love it I love it. I am physically unable to watch a cheesy scene without melting and turning into a complete sap swooning over the fictional characters. Alex and Gigi are the best!

Mei: (playing with grandpa's phone) Why do you have someone called anwar in you phone?

Grandpa: He's one of the workers at our condominium. Anything I can call him to fix. There's also one fellow called faruk. You know, there was a King in ancient Egypt called faruk.

Mei: As in, in the Bible?

Grandpa: No, no. Real one.

Mei: The Bible is real!

It has been brought to my attention that instead of a normal ringing when people call me, my phone has 2 weeks of free "technotones" or some rubbish like that and so when people call me, they hear a man singing:

"Weee should alll beeee friennnnnds, weee should allll beeee friennnnnds..."

Which vaguely makes it sound like I'm trying to hint to the world (or the part of the world that can be bothered calling me anyways) that I'm friendless and that I'm trying to gather friends by winning their hearts over with song. High five. I think I sealed my one way ticket to loserville when I changed my message ring tone to the "Totally Spies" compact ring tone (if you have no idea what I'm talking about here, that's probably a good thing. It means you rank lowly on the gay-o-meter. Thumbs up.) and then changed by call ring tone to a... wait for it... rock version of the Harry Potter theme song. :D In my defence, I got both PLUS this techno jap song and a track where it's this hong kong guy rapping about his life over britney spears' "Toxic" music from Sarah Sim. Good work, sarah. Haha.

Darren's farewell steamboat lunch after church today. It was actually super super fun. Mei and I introduced everyone to 30 seconds (this game we found while holidaying in South Africa about a year and half ago. It's like the only decent board game we have in our house. It's either that or High School Musical Twister, or High School Musical Uno, or Bible Challenge which btw, has friggin UNANSWERABLE questions please. Haha. I kid you not. Luckily 30 seconds is like super fun so. Hurray.). Then after we played taboo. Both times I was in Philip group (whyyyyy....) and in keeping with the idea that a group is only as awesome as it's weakest link, we obviously decided to honour our weakest link. So our group was named "Philip and friends". Good job. Then after some of them stayed for dinner and we just laughed and laughed after that. I am going to have abs of steel dude. Haha.

And before I go, Yong En introduced me to

I LOVE IT!!!

Hamish and Andy still have my heart.

OOOOHHHH EEEMMMM GEEEEEEEEE.

Today while I was happily sitting around watching people do stunts at rag at btc (bukit timah campus of course. Get with the NUS lingo yo.) I got a bit bored so I took out my phone to play hold 'em poker (which I just discovered yesterday. I'm own at it. Last night I won $3000. High five.) and was thoroughly surprised to find a missed called AND a text since no one ever calls slash texts me. Haha. Full of joy and the thrill of anticipation, I checked to see who was trying to contact me (so popular) to find that it was... my mum.

HOWEVER. The text read:

"Hi. Pls call me when u can. NUS called. U got yr appeal! Wow!"

*cue inarticulate excited splutters and frantic, if random hand waving from me!!!!

Okay. Slightly gay. Compose yourself, dude.

Indeed. So ya. I got it. I got the appeal. Law and Life Science. Hurray. (See? I didn't even exclaimation point that. I am a very cool calm bunny.)

I just feel so incredibly blessed. This opportunity is reeally really God given. And I know it's going to be a vomit-inducing amount of work. But it's SCIENCE. I get to do science again. It's what I've always loved to do and what I will always love to do. And I truly thank God for it. Amazing, dude. I kept reading and people kept telling me that appeals rarely even get through. I was actually pretty much mentally accepting the idea of just doing law. But SCIENCE. SCIENCE!!! Seriously, by God's grace and God's grace alone. There's no way I got in myself. But it's soooo fantastic, man. Lol. AHHH. Praise God. He's blessed me so much already. Can't believe AGAIN. Another reminder of the random but completely awesome ways in which God works and how He works in fabulously incredible but unexpected ways. Haha. I love it. Means I never have to know what the heck I'm doing, as long as I'm listening to His directions.

I don't say it anywhere near as often as I should. But thanks Lord, you awesome dude, so so much. I'm super super blessed, please.

Just went for a swim (mainly out of desperate guilt from so spectacularly breaking away from my diet plan this afternoon), but it was creepy so I made mum just sit there beside the pool with me. Lol. New career suggestion from mum, in case law school doesn't work out:

Mum: "Wow, you could be like a spy. You held your breath for so long! And you were swimming so low, you didn't even create ripples!!!!"

Thanks mum. I love you muchly.

I also watched 17 again this afternoon (probably shouldn't say how since I'm in law school now). AHHH!!! I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT. It's so my new Mulan/She's The Man (as a general point of interest I can remember an incredible number of lines from those two movies in particular. Mainly because they're AWESOME.). Not as swoon worthy as Pride and Prejudice (to be honest, that's my favourite movie, but I have a macho facade to upkeep.) but still very cute. I like.

"Vampire wouldn't tell. Cyborg wouldn't know."

I can safely say that my diet is definitely failing miserably. 2 private training gym sessions and 1 rag session into the week, walk-disrupting pain has set itself into my legs. I kid you not. Such is my unfitness. I try to tell myself that God had to compromise something else in me (in my case, I've been blessed with utter and complete unfitness) because He made my awesome-o-meter like off the charts, but largely that doesn't really help the pain. But yes, the pain convinced me unfortunately to eat a large bowl of curry laksa and a scoop of icecream with a fried pineapple ring with treacle for dessert. It was a low point after lunch for me. Haiz. Maybe I'll go swim later. (Hah. Right. That's what I always say... then I go lie down and sleep.)

I forgot Joy Williams for while, but I was randomly listening to music as usual today and I suddenly remembered her. Her lyrics are super good, man.

Since I was posting songs, as a true blue broadway baby, I had to post at least one.

Or two.

John Tartaglia's voice is very swoon worthy.

And then I was feeling cheesy and mushy.

Sigh. Yay. I feel so happy now. Haha.

Got a new phone. Still can't remember my number though. Although I've been repeated informed that it's supposed to be a "very nice number".

I got like a lao pok one that came like free with the plan I switched to on account of my technological illiteracy.

Also, the whole of monday, I literally slept the day away, waking up just to ingest sustainance, because I had this really bad really random cough that started really acting up sunday night. Anyways, dad gave me some left over ventolin from my distance childhood, from back when I had asthma which looks like this:

See? Normal right? But the ventolin was a bit old and I don't think it was very healthy to be using it so dad bought a new inhaler for me. If that's even what you can call it.

What the heck la. Haha. I didn't even know how to use it at first. It reminds me of bubblegum. Yum. Speaking of "yum". Some of us went out after the legal awareness workshop meeting at school (which so many people ponned even though it was compulsory. The suggestion of delegating the work just between the absentees and telling them "okay la, since you all didn't come to the meeting, we give you guys the lightest work. High five." came up, but was unfortunately disposed of ultimately. Shame.) to watch "I Love You, Man" (which by the way, I thought was super funny and really cute and sweet actually. I loved it.) and they were killing some time at Ya Kun Kaya before and I didn't get anything. Good job me. Although after I ate like almost the whole box of popcorn. So slightly less victorious. But still. I AM AWESOME.

And just to end of. Joseph sim. My blog is total awesome. I would have expected you to be more supportive on account of our bromance, yo.

Just thinking about something we talked about in bible study friday night. Dad mentioned in a rare moment of wisdom (lol) that loneliness is not the absence of faces, but the absence of intimacy. That's good way of putting it, dude. High five. Haha. It just hit a sore point because at the moment I feel a bit in between crowds at the moment. What with trying to get to know school people and not really seeing the church guys and dolls. I guess the rentals aren't exactly used to having a schooling me around either, and I gotta get used to living with people again so I also feel a bit distanced from my family as well (man, that sounds sooo bad. Haha. But what I mean is that in boarding school there was much less of this planning what's happening and where you are stuff. Just me, my room and my junk food. Not a good habit to have built up. But there we go.). I mean, I love my family and all my friends, even my new friends! :D Lol. But there just hasn't been anyone I've been really close to and who really knows me and who I really know and who I can just hang out with since I've been home. Someone who I really really click with. Which is fine. Just, you know, a little bit lonely I suppose. A lot of the time, I just wish I could skip past the cordial gettingtoknows and just have premade best friends. Ones that you could just microwave and heat up and be ready to use. Or that you put in water and that just grew up. Like sea monkeys. Nice. Yay. Haha.

Dad's rare moment of wisdom #2: Lonlieness is just one letter away from Lovliness. In the Lord, our lonliness is made lovely. Okay la, I think it's more solitude is made lovely actually. But I get what you're saying, Dad dude. I gotcha back. Haha. And I totally agree. But sometimes, I think I just need to be close to someone my age. Like to have a good friend who knows me and who I can just rubbish with.

Okay la, okay la. I should go sleep already. I'm getting far too 9pm chinese drama-ish. For shame. Someone slap me.

Went to watch Ghosts of Girlfriends Past late last night. It was pretty good. Very cheesy, but very cheesy works for me every once in a while. Haha. BUT one of my grreat og mates who was sitting next to me spoilt the WHOLE thing for me by predicting all the lines AT THE CLIMAX OF THE MOVIE (why, WHY!?). I will not mention your name here, because I'm giving you a chance to reform, lest in the future NO ONE wants to sit next to you at the movies. Lol.

Despite my weight gain (haiz) clearly I have still maintained my bewitching charm. Today, I walked past this baby holding a his blue plastic baby bowl and he dropped the bowl, obviously stunned by my presence. Some say, clumsy baby. I say, I still got it. Naice. Lol.

Also while project diet 101 is up and running, I can see that keeping up with it is going to be a problem very very soon. Today, while I was in the paragon toilet, some lady left her very large, very yummy looking loaf of crystal jade bread on one of the ledges while she busied herself (for the record, good job lady. That was very hygienic of you.). However, as a slight side effect of project diet 101, I AM FRIGGIN STARVING LIKE ALL THE TIME. Sigh. Normally, I'm HUNGRY all the time. This perpetual condition has escalated into a level "starving" since my diet has begun. Joy. Anyways, yes. So the loaf of bread was just sitting there staring at me. And, and! This is the best part. Just when I saw it, they started playing this french-cafe-romance-short-film-fall-in-love type music in the toilet. I kid you not. Yes, it was very picturesque. Evidently temptation is going to prove a BIG problem in the future sticking to this diet.

And those were the highlights of my day. Mainly because I was trying very hard not to think about the MAIN activity of the day, which was shopping. :( Oh the pain. I hang my head in shame when in a mumble I admit that I bought 10 tops today. I figured it was better to just buy in bulk and get it over and done with so I don't have to, quote (courtesy of mum), "shop for uni" for the next few years. Sigh. But the deed is done. Now I just have to get over the trauma.

Bet you thought my blog die already right. But I was just testing you. Confirming who my REAL fans were and all. Hah. If you're reading this now, then congratulations. You passed. Rejoice! Lol. Sorry la, I know you've been anxiously awaiting the next post (right, RIGHT!!! SAY IT!). I've just been a very busy bunny in recent times.

Anyways, so much has happened the past few weeks.

Oikos:
Austin Hills was a good break. A good time of rest and to just sort of come to terms with all this changing and adjusting and just to remember God at the centre of everything. And then there was 7 second-chickening and drinking water until our bladders wanted to explode in between. Good times, good times.

Scums:
Against the better part of my judgement, I seem to have allowed myself to have been absorbed into Justyn's lg after oikos. Naice. I think their lg needed to up their awesome quota some anyways. Haha. You know an lg definitely needs cooler people to join when their lg leader chooses "Double Dragon" (probably some cartoon that stopped airing 40 years ago) as his favourite cartoon. I think Justyn's answer has officially put the possibility of us adding "uncle" as a prefix to his name into contention.

Law camp
OMG. I loved it sooo much. It was probably the best camp I've ever been to. :] Mainly because there was so much slack time. Haha. Kudos to all the seniors for organising such an incredible camp. And the people at school are really such fantastic, intelligent, fun, beautiful, amazing people and they're all really so nice. I constantly feel slightly retarded around them all. Lol. But in a really really good way. And I really like everyone so much so far and just thank God for sending me all these amazing friends. Especially in my OG. (EHHHHH, HUAT AH!) Very very lovely bunch of jokers.

Spock's birthday
Unfortunately Yong En cut his hair so now he hardly looks like a vulcan. I took a moment to mourn in my heart when I saw him on sunday. Anywhos, despite his protests, Mei and I still bought him a women's thong (it was black and lacy and semi-see through with a little silver heart pendent in the front along the top. Sexay. Veh nice.) and a book called "The dirt on dating". PUT IT TO GOOD USE YONG EN. Mei and I left early from his party though because I was dying from sleep deprivation at this point. But still, HAPPY BELATED BELATED BIRTHDAY, SPOCK.

Gaining weight
Yesterday, after our very first rag session in the morning (which by the way I think deserves a joyful yay because I didn't trip over myself AT ALL while learning the dance. It was a pleasant surprise. Impressive, alyssa, impressive.) when we went out of lunch, I had the "good fortune" of sitting across from hazmi and next to mathias (after christine pang say-ed us. OFFICIALLY making me the only girl in the group. Pimp.). This basicaly meant that I had to listen to them (ready, ready) whine about the calories they were ingesting and ooo and ah, aghast and disgusted at their fries and the butter on their fried (den den DEN) bread roll. Spasticated right? That's what I thought too back then. How wrong I was, dude. In a cruel joke of nature, last night I decided to weigh myself for fun since I had my pre-admission medical examination this morning and I wanted to prepare myself in case I was fat. IN CASE. I DIDN'T ACTUALLY THINK I WOULD BE. 3 KG! 3 KG! I HAVE GAINED 3 KG. *weeps. I especially enjoyed mathias and hazmi's responses on facebook to my weight gain.

Mathias: "Welcome to the club. XD"
Hazmi: "see. thats what happens when the beehoon doesnt get left behind"

Thanks guys. Friends forever, yo. What hazmi is talking about is that one night some of them went out to buy supper and they forgot my bee hoon and I made one of them walk all the way back to get it for me. Actually I thought they were joking and hiding the bee hoon so I didn't think Genesis was actually going back to the shop which is why I didn't stop him. But the bee hoon got to me in the end and that's all that matters. Lol. Jk.

Meh. And so I'm going on a very very controlled diet from now on consisting mainly of wholegrain bread, tuna, cucumbers, brocolli and steamed chicken breast. I think I can I think I can. I will report back to you on my progress in time to come.

On a less upsetting note, so lots and lots of stuff to be thankful for these few weeks. Just feel very very blessed. Things didn't turn out like I always imagined to myself in boarding they would, but things are going really good and I really feel God's hand in all of this. It's good. Reminds me that God's in control of it all, which actually gives me so much peace of mind. Which basically translates into, I'm so lazy that I'm happy I don't really have to worry about what happens in my life. Lol. But yeah. Just all these super fabulous people and just little blessings that I seem to be noticing all the time. Thank God so so much. I really don't think I deserve all this stuff and all these people, but it's still happening and I love every second of it. :] High five.

P.s. LOSE WEIGHT, ALYSSA.

Leaving for oikos soon. Yay. I only started packing so late last night though, because LiAnne and Yi Loong were super sweet and surprised me like at 11pm by showing up at my house bearing gifts of chocolates and wafers. Yumm. Haha. Thanks guys, I really appreciated it. :] LiAnne rode her bicycle and Yi Loong... ready, ready... RAN here. And then told me that I looked like I needed a hug. -.- Sickening. *gag reflex Haha. Anyways so we just sat around downstairs and with drinks (juice and water la) and talked until past 2am. Good work. Very the responsible. Lol.

I finally got my parents to agree to me dyeing my hair blue! YAY! Lol. I'm still not 100% sure because I don't know if I want to go ahead and bleach my hair but at least I have the green light! Rejoice, world!

Now all I have to do is see if NUS wants me, then I can plan when I'm gonna quit my job and DYE MY HAIR. :D

FASTER, HURRY UP NUS. :(

Big sigh. We had worship practice tonight. I'm supposed to be leading. "Leading". Haha. Turns out, frankly I suck at leading. Capitalise and underline that. Ugh. Under various people's advice and suggestion, I decided okay, I would try it once and see how. And I'm totally crap at it! Haha. Nevermind. At least I tried. Hopefully it won't go too badly this sunday, but I'm never leading again. EVER. Thanks. Lol. Seriously dude. Although I probably don't have to worry about anything. After this sunday, no one's going to ask me to lead worship to a looooooong time. :S

Actually, deep down inside I have the mental capacity of a three year old and shouldn't be trusted with responsibility like... IN ANY SCENARIO. This is evident from the fact that as the older of the Nyam sisters, while I should by birth order be the one taking care of my sister, tonight I TOTALLY forgot to feed both of us dinner (we realised this together while we were walking into the cinema) and happily took her to watch a late night movie instead, which got us home at about 1am. Fun (Yay! Favourite sister!), but not particularly responsible as the elder sister. Haha. Good work, me.

I'm ashamed to admit that my blogging has been less than consistent in the past week or two. But I have a super good reason. I am rediscovering heroes. I mean, I used to watch it whenever it came on tv, but the other day I decided I was going to start watching from season 1 again and follow through the episodes properly.

I've only got up to like the beginning of season 2 (yeah, I know. I'm super slow. :( ) But, O. M. G. I am in love with it, can?!! *hyperventilate. Although I do tend to fall deeply in love with television series and that's what I say about all of them when I start of. And then after a while I get bored and find a new series. I have committment issues. Lol. But yes. Heroes! Yay! Sylar has and always will be my favourite character from the series. But especially after I've watched the series in order. And it's not just because it's Zachary Quinto!


Top 10 reasons why I love Sylar (I actually told liz how I was thinking about blogging about this yesterday, but decided it was too creepy. But my ardent love for Sylar has made me reconsider my previous decision. Haha. For the record, this is just for a laugh okay. I'm not actually in love with a fictional character for all these slightly unsound reasons. I swear. :S I swear!):

1. How good is his pseudonym!??!!!?! Kudos on the best alias ever, Sylar you awesome dude. I would never have been able to come up with such a cool sounding pseudonym on the spot.

2. He's a momma's boy at heart. Aww. Even though he kinda... kills her by accident. It was sweet that he went to visit her and brought her a snow globe from Texas and then made snow for her! :O So nice! Too bad she like flipped out. -.- Stupid woman. If Sylar had made snow for me I would have like asked him to marry me! Hurray!

3. Actually, he's got a good heart. He just wanted to know that he was good enough in the eyes of those he loved. Poor thing. So it wasn't really his fault that he... um... well, murdered all those people. Heh. Although "murder" is such a strong word.

4. His power is the best! It's like the most intellectual power on the show! It's slightly geeky and we geeks are the best. Intelligence makes us sexay. Lol.

5. He's so motivated and focused. He knows exactly what he wants and he goes out and gets it. Okay, okay, to the point where he kills people to obtain power. Slightly power hungry. But still, I think his focus shows he knows what he wants in life and that he's committed to his interests. (I wish I was his interest. Sigh. Haha.)

6. He's SUPER clever. How does he keep so hidden? He must like anticipate every move of everyone after him! Which is literally everyone. And how does he manage to find all the other people with special abilities?! I mean, I guess it would be possible to track them from hear say or from stealing research documents and stuff but it must be super difficult. The other day, I woke up and my mother had left the house and she wasn't picking up her phone and it took me like 45 mins to track her down and realise she had gone for Bible Study Fellowship lunch. 45 MINUTES! To find my OWN MOTHER! Some say his ability to sieve out people makes him even more fearsome as a villian. I say, wow, resourceful. Good work, Sylar.

7. He pretends to be all these people all the time and no one suspects anything! He's like that good an actor. Multi-talented, much?

8. He's so brave. Like he has no friends or family anywhere and he just charges on, dedicated to his sole cause (which is unfortunately, killing people to steal their powers. But that's not the point here. -.-). Such a trooper. You're totally my hero, Sylar.

9. Virtually ALL the characters in the entire series are against him and he STILL always manages to get away. Maybe it's because he's AWESOME.

10. He's so unique and creative. How many serial killers have you heard of that kill their victims by slicing the top of their head off and taking out their brain? None? Thought so. Plus, he's super neat. Like I'm sure he could like crush their skull or something more unrefined like that. But it's always a clean slicing of the top of the head. It's so neat. I like. It says to me, this is a man of order, elegance and class.

Lol. Yes. I will love you forever Sylar... or at least until the end of the week.

At dinner today, I was talking about star trek (again).

Poh poh: Oh, star trek! I always remember Mr. Spock, because he's the doctor.

Poh poh: I like it when they disappear from the space and then, AND THEN APPEAR on earth. I don't know what it's called.
Me: (in horror that she is unable to remember BASIC star trek terminology) HUH!? Okay, okay, try to redeem yourself here. I give you a clue. It's a four letter word.
Poh poh: ... UFO?
Me: FOUR LETTERS. And it starts with a b and ends with a m.
Poh poh: ... Um... space ship?

And we had crew outing today at work! Yay! Haha. My BFF aunties and I just hung out and ate stuff the whole time. Muchly fun. I think my mum was a bit alarmed though when she came to pick me and saw me walking out with my auntie posse (I think there were like 8 aunties with me?). She probably thought I was exaggerating when I told her that all my friends at work at aunties. Like ACTUAL aunties. Haha.

I think I'm marginally flu-ish. I mildly have all the symptoms -- sore throat, fever, aching etc. BUT I haven't managed to watch ANY episodes of Heroes today. And so I'm stuck! I dunno whether to watch or sleep! On one hand, the probability of my being fully sick tomorrow goes up like ten fold if I watch. BUT I LOVE ZACHARY QUINTO SO MUCH, I don't think I could live with myself if I didn't set aside my daily dose of zac-time. :(

Life is full of such difficult choices. Sigh. Lol.

Until today I never realised how much people love a)coke glasses and 2. ice cream. Well, the coke glass thing was actually Wednesday.

As a side note, I’m sorry I haven’t been updating very well. I recently started rewatching heroes (Zachary Quinto!) from season 1 and now I can’t stop. I just like train watch episode after episode after episode. :S No time to waste on blogging!

Anywhos. Yes, so we didn’t have coke glasses in stock on Wednesday because it was the last day of the pink glasses. So there wasn’t much point in ordering in new pink stock, because the next day we were changing to blue anyways. And for the past few weeks my manager seems to keep stationing me as the order-taker so that pretty much seems to be my default station now, so I was cashiering the whole day. And there were soooo many people who actually got so upset that we didn’t have coke glasses that day. There was a lot of “HUH!? NO COKE GLASS!” and “SO I WON’T GET ANY COKE GLASS IF I UPSIZE!!”-ing and people actually decided that they would come again tomorrow instead so they could get the glass then. Not just one, okay, like maybe 10 people? I was so surprised. I mean, it’s not that beautiful a glass.... right?? Maybe I’m just asthetically challenged.

And then today, our ice cream machine was spoilt. Like all it was giving out was hot sundae-mix. Yum. And by “Yum”, I mean Gross. So no ice cream. And I actually saw people’s JAWS DROP in shock and horror (I kid you not) as they went “HUH!? NO ICE CREAM!” (Singaporeans don’t seem very creative with their expressions of shock. Standard “HUH!? NO [insert missing item]!”) The best part was that people usually order ice cream in groups. Anthropological fact that I observed recently. The ice cream tribes gather far away from the counter, then one initiative-taking person will take everyone’s order and then step forward to place the order in. So I would tell the brave representative that I was sorry but we didn’t have ice cream at the moment, watch their world crumble as they realised they couldn’t have macs ice cream that day, and then watch them shuffle back to their little friends and watch that same reaction but like times 5. It was quite amusing to watch how affected they were by the fact that they couldn’t have their mcflurry. Poor things. On the other hand, I was super happy because no ice cream machine means that the probability of me blowing up the mcflurry-making machine drops from about 98% to a safe and assuring 0%. Hurray. I’m thinking of damaging it permanently.

Also, I’m super bummed that Adam lost out to friggin Kris. Ugh. Mum called me and woke me up yesterday and broke the news to me, with a somewhat insensitive “KRIS WON KRIS WON!!!” in light of the fact that she KNOWS I’m a Fanbert. Sigh. It’s okay, Adam. I still love you and that’s all that matters. We’ll be mature about it, take it in our stride. You know, avoid being drawn into the superficial shallowness of stardom... That outfit that Kris was wearing on the results show TOTALLY made him look fat on camera anyways. You looked sooo much better, gf.

Mei bought me this card today.

Sorry the picture's not very good. In case you can't see the words,

"It's our lucky day. Some Doctor is paying us 50 quid (how to get the pounds sign on this blasted keyboard???) just to paint the inside of this old police box."

LOL. Good work mei.

I feel super drained. Mum and mei dragged me shopping after our mid-day sustainance with Dad today. Oh the horror. *cue hands-clutching-at-face-home-alone scream. Towards the end I was getting so disorientated by my kryptonite that is shopping, that I walked into the Dome chalk board. (Mum and mei just laughed hysterically at this. Thank you guys. Glad it was amusing to you.)

I really don't know how the interview went. Like the interviewers gave me very little to know whether I did well or badly. But I answered their questions okay and at least they weren't outraged or anything like that. Or they didn't seem to be anyways. In God's hands now. :] Well, it was always in His hands, but now it's really really up to Him. We will see. I should get my results in a week or two.

Live long and prosper. (Sorry, random I know. But I just HAD to type that SOMEWHERE.)

One written test down, one interview to go.

The joys of IBS have set in, but other than that the day's going well so far, I suppose. The test was quite okay. I finished comfortably in the given time and I felt like I took a good stand. So feeling quite good about it. But I never know how I do in tests so fingers crossed.

My interview seems to be like the last one! I was talking to randoms this morning before the written test and literally I didn't meet a single person with an interview later or even the same time as mine. I'm not sure whether to look at it as a good thing or a bad thing. But lucky interviewers that got me last. End the day with such a fantastic candidate. Lol. Jkjk.

I'm not overly nervous. Slightly, but it's a good nervous so far. Like a keep you on your toes nervous. My nerves are also being dispelled by the fact that I went to watch Star Trek last saturday night with my dad which has rekindled my lost affections for the original series. I LOVE IT!

I think it's meant to be. Star Trek and Me. The movie even came out at exactly the right time! JUST after the doctor who special and the house season 5 finale. So that now I have Star Trek TOS (The Original Series. I'm such a hardcore fan, using obscure acronyms.) to fill up my time. I LOVE LOVE LOVE Spock.

I couldn't find a good picture of Zachary Quinto as Spock. But he did an amazing job as well. Really lived up to expectations. But Leonard Nimoy is irreplaceable. So I'm glad he was in the movie as well. Yay! Anyways, Spock's always been my favourite but I love how they pull all the elements of the character that were accumulated along all those years together in the movie! Trust me to pick the sole main alien character as my favourite. I actually so wanna be a vulcan now. I told some of my friends at church yesterday in a spastic moment of over excitement, who looked quite concerned with my ambitions to change species (to morph into a FICTIONAL species no less). Ppprobably shouldn't have mentioned it in retrospective.

Only one more week until Adam Lambert WINS American Idol! Yay.

I would text in to vote for you if my phone wasn't pre-paid. I hope you still marry me though, you beautiful beautiful man.

People say sometimes in life, crap happens. But rubbish always happens. And that's okay. Take a moment to grieve because we're only human, and treasure what you have left all the more. Take a deep breath, and take courage in the fact that the pain will teach you to appreciate the joy all the more. And God doesn't test us through more trials than we can take. Pain is the painter of character, the partner of wisdom and what makes us human. Struggle out and don't suffer in. Because love and blessings are always abound. Even if sometimes we have to squint to see them around us.

Two weird things today.

1. I keep getting weird results for quizzes on facebook. I got 50% for the "How Well Do You Know Women Quiz"! Okay la. That was actually pretty funny, so I published it. But there are loads of others that I did and got results that were so shameful I couldn't bring myself to publish them. Like I did the "Which Disney Guy Is Right For You?" quiz, and I got Captian Shang from Mulan. :( He's so uncool. I really wanted Aladdin! (Yeeah, it's not weird that I'm talking about these cartoon characters like they're eligible at all.) Then in "Which Type of Music Fits Your Personality?" I got "Pop" which amongst other things adviced that "there are those who will hate you because you mite ignore them or be rude, ect." I take courage in the fact that even though I believe facebook quiz results are usually like the law, this quiz might be slightly inaccurate since who ever made it failed to spell the short form of a three letter contraction (i.e. etc.) correctly. Haha.

This might just be me being a sour grape though.

Anyways. After finding out that I could never have Aladdin it was just downhill from there with all the other quiz results. Under the "What Type of Underwear Are You?" I got that I was a 6-pack of panties which meant I was "truly eccentric" and then when I took Joseph's "Which Member of Justyn's Life Group Are You?" quiz, I got.... den den DEN, Justyn. DIE. Oh the shame. -.- Lol. The only redeeming result that I got was when I did the "Which Disney Character Are You Quiz?" in which I emerged a pleasing "Prince Charming". BUT THEN when I read downwards to look at the insightful explaination-y bit at the bottom, it read.... "Congratulations." FULL STOP. I was like THAT'S ALL?? WHAT THE? Haiz.

2. I'm super tired. It's about midnight now and I just woke up from falling asleep at about 9.30pm. I dunno why I'm so tired. At the rate I'm eating and sleeping (I feel like a bear getting ready for winter hibernation) I really really am going to start g-r-o-w-i-n-g. :S

Meh. Oh well. Okay, I'm going to shower and sleep now.

I got my law test and law/life science interview date for NUS today.

"Interview Schedules

Name ALYSSA NYAM EN MEI
Application number XXXXXXXX

You have been shortlisted for the interview/test for the following course(s). A formal letter or email will be sent to you with details such as the venue, interviewee index number (if available) etc If you are unable to attend the scheduled interview(s), please refer to the procedures on changing the scheduled interview date/time in the interview/test notification letter/email.


Law Test Date/Time:
Mon, 18 May 2009 08:45

Law Double degree interview Date/Time:
Mon, 18 May 2009 15:45

Please note that any changes to your original scheduled interview date and time will not be reflected here."

I actually thought that I hadn't been called for interview already because interviews were meant to be in April and early May and we're pretty much entering not-so-early-May at the moment. But I guess it might be because I have international qualifications. Meh. Mixed feelings about it. But of course part of me is still a little bit proud that I at least got shortlisted. Not just for law but also for the double degree! :D Hi five. Heh. Although really it's all by the grace of God so we'll see how. See where he'll lead me.

But MORE IMPORTANTLY, CREW OUTING ON 26th AND 27th OF MAY (I know right, NUS interview pales in comparision to the wow-factor of *cue hallelujah chorus* CREW OUTING!)!!! I'm super excited. Haha. We're all going to stay over at some Pasir Ris Chalet (the old one apparently. I have on idea where this chalet is so it meant pretty much nothing to me when they told me that. Haha.) and the plan is to either go to Wild Wild Wet or escape theme park. Man, I hope we go to Wild Wild Wet -- my BFF aunties are totally gonna look hawt in their bikinis. Lol. Jk. Unfortunately, the manager has decided that the "student crew" (all crew that are still students) will be in charge of games we play which means I'm part of the games-organising posse. Sigh. I have no idea what to play. My idea of "fun" is watching sci-fi television series, documentaries on the discovery channel and intellectual quiz shows on the bbc. I'm sure the games that I organise are going to be a HUGE hit with the rest of the crew. -.-

Oh, and this is a bit random, but I was watching X-men again on television this tonight, and I couldn't help but notice that my grandpa looks like an asian version of Patrick Stewart. Lol.

Milo (my godparents' rabbit) was gathered to God yesterday. :( Like in the afternoon I think. He was a good bunny. On a considerably more cheerful note, Liz and Kaye introduced me to TTR (TAP TAP REVENGE) yesterday everning. BEST IPHONE GAME EVER!!! Also, my facebook note that I recently did about the people I'd spend a year in the same house with seems to have rendered a much more enthusiastic response than I would have ever thought. Haha.

Aiyoh, my thoughts seem to be all over the place today. Anyways, I went over to Joseph's house today to wrap mothers'-day-flowers with my life group to sell at church tomorrow. But I had to leave half way to go for our family mothers' day lunch so when I came back they were virutally almost finished and didn't really need my help anymore. So I sat down and had a nice deep and meaningful session with Lovely Lionel and Awesome Aunty Soo Ming. It was actually really good timing again. God-sent.

It's just recently I feel like I'm just waiting and waiting. Like I'm waiting for university and I'm waiting for friendships to mature and I'm waiting to learn to drive, to ride my motorcycle, waiting for the weekends so that I hang out with friends... There are moments when I find myself counting down to things. Like I'll think of the number of days left I have to just get through until sunday when I can see my church friends again and have a bit of a good time just messing about. Or more usually, the number of hours left till dinner la. Haha. But yes, feels like I'm wasting a lot of time away. It's not that I'm not doing anything. It's just I don't enjoy what I'm doing in particular. I'm just floating through, going through the motions to pass the time. Drifting, I guess. And it bothers me sometimes. But what hit me most during our conversation today, even though I really didn't dare say much while Aunty Soo Ming was sharing, was that you don't have to know what the heck you're doing or where you're going all the time. I suppose because I've always grown up raised by my super-organised mum that never really occurs to me much. Which is not a bad thing, but it's nice to keep being reminded that it's alright not to be in control all the time. At the end of the day, I know that whatever happens, God has let it happen, and He's let it happen for a reason, according to His plan. And always always His plan is the best that anyone could have for me and if I don't know or don't understand His plan, I don't mind. It doesn't matter. All I have to do is to listen out and obey. Even my devotions recently have been discussing how we should live in the present and not worry, and to surrender ourselves and all our efforts to God fully and stuff like that. Like I said, a lot of these really God-sent messages that have really comforted and encouraged me these past few days. I mean, I'm wasn't upset or sad or anything but I guess I was just feeling a bit aimless. I'm still aimless now, it's just I need (and I really thank God that he keeps helping me out here) to keep being reminded constantly that I shouldn't be bothered by it. I know that God has a plan for my life and I can't wait to find out what that plan is and how He will use me for His work, but I don't have to know what that plan is. I just need to carry out that plan as he guides me through it. I don't even know who I am yet. Haha. My ambitions in life change according to the latest "interesting" job I've thought about and I still have yet to outgrow my "I'll never grow up" phase (very mature. Yes, I know.). And I can't even tell you the exact status of my relationship with God because I don't know what it is. And that's okay. Because I do know that He is my life and I know that no matter how far I slip or fall, He'll always bring me back around to him and I don't ever want to live any other way.

Okay, better curb myself before I start hyper-expositioning again. But that was the gist of my thoughts of the day. Meh, Singapore has made me a gaylord, so soppy. Haha.

P.s. CONGRATS LIZ ON MAKING NUS DENTISTRY AND LIANNE FOR MAKING COUNCIL. REALLY REALLY PROUD OF YOU GUYS! YAY! :D

Firstly, CONGRATS LIZ ON PASSING YOUR DRIVING TEST! But more importantly, as soon as you get a car, I can add you to my list of alternatives-to-public-transport. Good work on making the list (you're so gonna be the envy of the town now), you lucky thing. :]

Anyways, it has come to my attention over the past few weeks that I am almost CONSTANTLY hungry.

What I ate Yesterday
1. I only woke up in time for lunch just before I went in for work at 12pm, so I had to miss breakfast unfortunately. Sigh. Haha. But my maid fried some noodles. It was actually quite a big bowl, but I think it was a bit difficult for her to fry so little so she cooked a bit more (I think it was about 5 fists worth of noodles maybe?) and just gave me a little bowl so that I could take out however much I wanted from the big bowl.

I decided I was quite hungry so I just finished the big bowl. (Okay, to be fair, I'm estimating 5 fists as in 5 of MY fists which are quite small-ish so.)

2. By the time I had my break at around 3.30pm, I was feeling a bit hungry again so I ate a McWings extra value meal. (Actually that's quite a lot over the budget for each person's meal, but I figured everyone always buys food from the canteen outside anyways, so really I'm doing them a favour and helping them meet their meal budget for the month. Otherwise they would have to calculate the balance and then add to dunno what and then the extra little bit of money would probably screw up their financial predictions and all. It would get super complex. Trust me.)

3. After my shift, when I got home at around 9pm, I ate dinner again. And granted that I didn't eat rice because I felt a bit tired and in my mind, sleeping always truimphs eating so I was not in "full form" but I ate some chicken, soup and vegetables.

What I ate Today
1. Before I went to the gym today, I ate some Chai Tao Kwey and half a cranberry-rye bun.

2. And then lunch. YUM. Okay. Mum, Mei and me had lamb cutlets for lunch with mash potatoes and corn:

Cutlet Count
Mum:1
Mei: 2
Me: ... 5

Then I ate my mum's left over mash potatoes because she said she didn't really want it and didn't want to waste it. (filial. Good work, Alyssa.) Then I ate 3 Kwey Pai Tees (can't wait for dinner when I can eat more! They were very yummy.) and finished up the bowl of corn (waste not, want not). I was almost ready to eat dessert. I bought two doughnuts from the donut empire downstairs from the gym and a tub of haagen-dazs strawberry ice cream from the supermarket before coming home, while Mum and I were waiting to go pick mei mei. I love donut empire. And I don't usually buy haagen-dazs cos it's so expensive, but the strawberry ice cream is the best and mum was paying so. Haha. But anyways, yes I digress. So I was almost ready to eat dessert, but Mum was getting a bit worried at this point (I think she doesn't notice ususally how much I eat because I just sit quietly and chew, but today I was telling her how I realised I was almost always hungry so I think she was looking out.) so she's put a time limit on when I can next eat. :( 4.35pm. Don't ask me why 4.35pm. Haha. I think she felt that it needed to be not only at least 2 hours later, but more than 2 hours. So add 5 minutes more.

Mum and Mei are convinced that it's because I hang out too much with the buffet bunch/the picnic posse. But I eat because I'm hungry! I'm not hungry because I eat. :( I told them maybe this meant I was going through a growth spurt! :D

Mei: "Growing spurt. Like Dad? Dad's going through his sideways growth spurt at the moment."

-.- Thanks mei. In any case, I've always been a hungry bunny, but this past few days I've been particularly hungry. So just to be sure I googled "symptoms increased appeitite". Top causes include (in random order):

1. Diabetes
2. Depression
3. Pregnancy
4. Indigestion
5. Marijuana
6. Hypoglycemia
7. Brain Injury
8. Bipolar Disease
9. Tape Worms
10. Brain Cancer

Hmm. Yeah. Actually I don't see why it's so hard to believe that I might be growing taller! Hermit Crabs eat a lot before they moult. Maybe I'm the same leh? YESSSSS! Good arguement, Alyssa. Hi five.

MY FIRST POST FROM MY NEW LAPTOP. Hurray.
My much delayed purchase from when my old laptop crashed like months ago.

I don't actually need one. Which is what I kept telling my parents, but it's probably better for everyone that I just move back into the Fat Den because since I've moved into the main study room, ALL of them have migrated to either the living room or the master bedroom -- at the other end of the house. -.- Haha. Just because I enjoy a bit of music every now and again. A Bit. A BIT!

Oh. And I got to be a cashier at work today. FINALLY. My life is now complete. *sheds a tear. It was just the way I dreamt it would be... and more! Unfortunately, when I went to man the fries station later, I procured a number of burns in my slight over excitement. You can see my battle wounds below. Not very clearly though. But there's line on my wrist and then two marks on my forearm. Ouch.

And I keep forgetting to post these pictures of some failed butter biscuits that my grandmother baked the other day.

Good work, poh. They're beautiful.

I went to visit Liz's blog today and read her entry on our bottle tree park escapade and had a near death experience laughing at the beautiful photos of myself there.

Anywhos, today work was super funny as well. Because of the all the swine flu hoo-ha we kept planning trips to mexico. Then Ah Fen and my BFF auntie decided that actually they wanted to go on a cruise also while they were going to mexico.

Ah Fen: Eh! Auntie, wo yao shang chuang leh! (What she's trying to say here is shang chuan. As in ship.)
BFF: SHANG CHUANG. Ta de ying, ta de ying!!! *laughs hysterically.

The "mystery customer" (which is essentially a consultant dude sent down from the big people in management to assess the service undercover as customers) was also supposed to visit this morning between 9am to 11am so Lee Chin, our 2nd manager was super stressed. Luckily May (who was the cashier) and me (who was the runner, as in the one who gathers all the food and presents it) were super focused:

May: EH alyssa, lai lai, ni kan na ge bai se hong se (he was in a red and white t-shirt) de nan ren. Handsome ma? Handsome ma!? Na bian na bian. *proceeds to push me quite violently in front of her to the cashier. Ni bu yao hen obviously kan la.
Me: *trying to look very nonchalent, whispers back. Na li, na li!???
May: Zuo bian, zuo bian!!!
Me: Oh, kan dao kan dao. Okay la.
May: Ta de girlfriend hen hao kan hor?
Me: Wo kan bu dao leh. Maybe wo qu lobby (clear tables) a xia, then ke yi kan dao ta de face.
Lee Chin: Ahhhh! NO CHIT CHAT. BU YAO KAN NAN REN.
May: EH. Dan shi hor, wo bu shuo hen xing ku leh.

Then later when Lee Chin was talking to me about something (I can't remember what) suddenly May jumped between us and said very loudly "NO CHIT CHAT!". Lol.

There was a lot of other stuff but I can't really remember at the moment. I just remember laughing a lot. OH OH and today was one of the few days where my break was while they were still serving breakfast. So I ordered a Big Breakfast. Yum. Plus, I woke up a bit late today so I packed my 2 slices of french toast and ate that during my break as well. AND on top of that, I exploded the ice cream machine today doing a vanilla cone (it was totally the machine. Not my fault.) so I also ate the mutated ice cream cone I made. And then I had a cup of tea with all of that. Ya. I'm totally not going to get obese. Yesterday post-service, when we went for curry rice they pointed out how this middle-aged muffin top (as in his stomach spills over his pants like... well, like the top of a muffin) indian man crossing the road looked "like he was five months pregnant. Pause. Like... *hysterical laughter." -.- Actually during lunch yesterday I hardly ate, because I was feeling a bit sick (I think I ate yao zha guai too early in the morning. It was super oily some more. Oh well.). I left a lot of rice. I didn't get to finish the last bit of my soya bean also. Not because I didn't want to drink it (I LOVE SOYA BEAN!) but because Kegan split my straw in two by like sort of clapping it in his hands so I couldn't suck the soya bean up without it just draining out the sides. :( I even tried to just shove the whole broken part in my mouth so that I could drink but I had to put so much of the straw in my mouth that it poked the back of my throat and was very painful. To which Kegan's response of remorse was to laugh quite hard. And even though it was only a little little bit left, I felt a longing after that that only another can of Yeo's soya bean could fulfill. So while I was having nasi padang dinner with my family at Zion Road that night (which was super yummy by the way. They use rib eye to make the rendang! :O) I ordered another can. Yay.

Today I feel like I did my part and hugged Singapore and that I'm more Singaporean for it, because today I went to the bottle tree park, which I didn't even know existed until like a few weeks ago when I was Ma-Po-Tou-Fuing with the other ex-A&G interns at crystal jade. But I didn't want to look overly loser (ie. go by myself) so in the end I dragged poor Jason, Liz, Mee Mee and Kegan along with me. And even though we only saw like I think 4 bottle trees or something like that (and two were baby ones so that didn't even look like bottles! :( ) it is now another "interesting singaporean attraction" that I can tick off my "have hugged" list and I revel in the knowledge that I'm a better person for showing my country how much I wuv her.

Also, mousehunt seems to be following me out into reality. Which concerns me slightly since Gnawnia is meant to be pretty much OVERRUN with mice. Today at the bottle tree park, we saw one. Then while I was waiting at KAP for mum to come pick me becuase I didn't want to walk all the way into sunset so late at night, I saw another one sort of bounding down the stairs next to me across the road into the drain. :S

Well, tomorrow is SATs day. In the end I gave up trying to finish the whole practice book, but I got through a good sized bit of it so I'm satisfied. I don' t think you can really study study for it anyways. It's more getting familiar with the style. And I'm pretty comfortable so just trying to keep the nerves well under control and stay focused for tomorrow while sort of just keeping chillaxed until then.

ALSO, I was catching up on my So You Think You Can Dance (Australia) episodes today. I heard Talia won, but when I saw the dances. O. M. G. I love Charlie so so much though. He'll still always be my favourite. Haha.

Sigh, they're all so incredible and all the dances are so beautiful, dude. But Talia's Top 4 performance made me melt.



My favourite dance of the season has to be Talia and Charlie's quickstep from the Top 10 performance though. Sooooo Cute!



AND TALIA AND CHARLIE'S AMAZING, BRILLIANT, FABULOUS, TOTALLY AWESOME FINAL PERFORMANCE. OMG OMG OMG.



Talia's totally different from the shy ballerina type girl at the start of the season!!! Plus, she looks so good. And I can't believe how much energy Charlie has in that dance. He's such a star. And his personality just shines through. *swoon. They're both just utterly completely fantastic. I love them to death. Lol.